20th July'06
hey world!
wld you believe me if i said many many things happened in the past few days.
some of which rrly made me Laugh non-stop. and a few made me reflect quite abit.
anyhow, we were just talking today during mt lesson.
and i found my Life-partners!
they are From the same species as me! we are frm the Same Breed! (:
just how cool is that!?
haha
cause we were talking abt 'being girls'
you noe, abt all the rrly girly and woman kind. and den we were talking abt other kindof girls who are just plain tomboy or different for some reason.
thats when i found Jue and Althi (:
haha! you may think its not a big deal, but it IS a big deal.
cause we were all talking abt wat we feel abt being woman individually.
and to think these two woman Think Like Me!
so cool man.
why didnt i realised that earlier? after being in the same class for Four yrs.
i discovered it only today.
haha
BUT its still amazing! i'm not alone! i'm so happy that Someone Really understands manz.
haiyar, screw trying to be oh so female n not urself.
i rather we be different and enjoy it (:
shrooms n cmk gave me smth today.
haha
it was a Great handful of Black rubber bands.
cause' i've been rooming abt in sch with a Purple band.
you see the result of being lazy to buy a black one.
aiya, that two woman were so doubtful of themselves.
its Sweet (: really. though it isnt lyk some big shot.
but i'm so happy you thought of Me!
and i think i can use lyk one band per day.
theres over 50 black ones i guess.
it really is the thought that counts (:
and it Made my day!
together with that written tissue paper i got frm Rachel Ho.
aiya, i shld have dug the card out frm the rubbish bin!
they said it was Nice.
cards frm her is lyk quite a rare thing man.
haha
this is so cool. aint it?
well, cause i've been writing cards to ppl ard me who have been so sad.
or just to encourage ppl. just ppl whom i love.
and who noes, what goes around comes around.
its beautiful. i can feel Love in the air (:
really.
i really do want to thank the person who gave me my first card manz.
which rrly challenged me to love More.
and i guess its a cycle.
and in the end, everyone gets loved!
this is so cool.
on my way hme, i did smth i've always wanted to do.
theres this old man, with only one arm at the mrt station.
he was selling tissue paper.
i've always wanted to give him smth but i never had the guts to.
afraid of wat, i dunno!
there was only once when i gave him lyk two bucks?
and that was centurie ago, when Soon Li was with me.
i wanted to chicken out today.
but i saw that old mad and i cld see that he rrly needed help.
his legs were aching. that he had to take out his slippers.
and he rrly looked thinner okaay. since Jan.
i rmb abt the love i've been experiencing lately.
and that verse..which goes smth lyk..what you do to others, you're actually doing unto God.
so i plucked up my courgae and Went right up to Him.
and gave him wat i had.
i think i shared a lil happiness with him today.
(: what goes around comes around.
maybe i'll give him a small mt bk abt the gospel the nxt time i walk up to him.
seriously, you never noe if the Love of God touches him (:
during EL, i had to talk on Sex education today.
of all ppl, ME.
it was so crap lar. i mean, who in the right mind wont feel weird?
esp when you're talking in frnt of the whole class and you noe, BGR and ..sex.
the teacher embarrassed me lyk crap in frnt of the whole class.
i reallyreally felt lyk hiding my face.
pray hard that it Doesnt come out for O levels oral.
smth absurd happened ytd.
haha
my pinaform Ripped.
we were all changing in class. and i was changing halfway when i tripped.
i dunno how. but my pinaform was at my legs.
and when i moved my legs for balance, proof!
my pinaform tore.
): i have to admit, it was kindof hilarious actually.
Dun Say that i'm fat okay! it was an accident.
and i heard enough of that! haha
went to borrow some uniform frm the office. and they were so short!
obscene man. i think those were the confiscated ones.
oh well.
anyhow, prayer meeting went well.
its getting better (:
and we're gonna grow Bigger. that, i Believe with all my heart n with all my soul.
i talked to my 'new' partner today.
she's frm china. and wat i discovered blew me off.
she isnt a christian but she believes in Jesus christ! and she does pray n read the bible.
cool man. no wonder they say that everything happens for a reason.
maybe God changed my seat because theres a greater plan.
plus, she's so niang.
maybe God wants me to learn frm her too.
seriously, everything happens for a reason.
aint it?
and if its God's will, it Will happen.
thats why i decided to let go and let God.
so wat if we decided not to let go and hang on.
whats the pt? if we rrly do hang on and insist on it. Though its God's will that it'll come to past.
it will Still definitely Not happen now or any sooner.
cause God has Bigger plans for us.
we'll have to spend time waiting even if we chose to hang on.
might as well let go and concentrate fully on God.
in the near future, if its God's will, i guess all's free to dream again.
i'm already seeing the Big picture of it all.
my God, without doubts is really amazing (:
i read sandy's blog. haha! and here goes:
Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head.After that tag at least 5 ppl to do dis
1. Liyun
2. Sandy wong!
3. shu mei
4. rachel
5. weide
6. elana
7. cheryl Mk
8. jue ying
9. junle
10. hansheng
11. althea
1. How did you meet 10?
cell! N293 (:
2. What would you do if you never met 2?
i wldnt be as childish as what i am Now! but i'd be quite sad. i fel lyk i'm her older sister haha(:
3. What would you do if 9 and 11 dated?
wooah. den the guy wld be the shorter one. and the female wld be the better one in guitar and also the one who eats more. and when i look at both of them i'll laugh non-stop!
4. Do you like 7?
yea! she has hairy legs lyk me. haha! sssh
5. would 5 and 6 make a good couple?
hmm. it will be interesting! haha i'll laugh non-stop too
6.Describe 3.
she's hardworking. and she makes me wanna care for her
7. Do you think 8 is attractive?
Yea. she's naturally pretty. just that she doesnt think so.
8. Tell me something about 2.
she always Makes fun abt me! and she's a lil off abt guys. haha but She's Nice. ( i have no choice but to say this cause i Noe she's Reading )
9. Do you know any of 4's family?
yea. the whole family! love her (: i hope she loves me too
10. Whats 5's favourite things?
God, guitar, brown(i think), he lyks to say the word "turban"
11. What would you do if 3 confesses he/she likes you.
are you kidding me!? i wld run to the toilet n look in the mirror and see if she's talking to the right person.
12. What language does 6 speak?
she's speaks lyk that, '' HAHAHAHAHA" and she makes me go hahahha too
13. Who is 9 going out with?
no one, i supposed.
14. How old is 8 now?
going to be 16!
15.When was the last time you talked to 1?
about 15 mins ago. we are gonna Eat out tmr (:
16. What is 2's favourite band/singer?
UH OH. i hope she doesnt kill me. ERM. she likes chinese songs!? and christian songs!? and aiya, if the singer is handsome she'll lyk him haha.
17. Would you ever date 7?
how can two ppl with hairy legs go out tgt?! that wld be disastrous!
18. Would you ever date 11?
if i'm a guy or she's a guy. haha it'd be Damn cool!
19. Have you ever seen 2 naked?!
NO. if not i wdnt be alive by now. i wld have died frm shock.
people whom you want to pass this on - everyone has donehis alr! hmmm Rachel, althea, mr ken! if he sees this
knew you had keep on smiling
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Sunday, July 16, 2006
16th July'06
when i see the sick worshipping, its amazing.
there was this old lady sitting in frnt of us today.
though she was on a wheel chair, she lifted up her hand and worshipped the Lord.
ppl ard her were jumping and dancing and crying out loud.
but i believed smth in her made her stand out in the eyes of God!
its smth beautiful i saw today.
when it was ministering time, she didnt budge.
she just sat in her chair.
and i thought to myself, "she doesnt want to try. but why. if i were her, wld i be more courageous?"
but den, a min later or so.
i saw her standing up. one look and you cld tell that it was lyk a living hell for her.
that made me touched.
touched by the faith in her.
and by the love of God which moves in her life.
i guess, to God its really really precious.
i wanna be lyk that!
though she may be old, i think that old lady Is so Cool!
i salute you (:
met PAMELA soh at Bedok and we went to study.
who's idea was it to study at Macs!?
i never believed in studying there.
but Oh well. since we hardly hang out tgt.
and i wanted to hang out more den to study.
she's one comical person.
you, you , you!
my bestest bestest Buddy when we were p5 n p6!
(:
beside us was a table with a grp of ladies in their 20s near 30s?
and they were gatehred tgt, talking abt their sec sch days.
i think its so Cool Manz.
wonder if things wld be the same for Us.
tgt with my classmates n the ppl i treasure alot.
with God in the centre, i noe we will (:
GB day's tmr.
racial harmony thingy tmr.
chinese O's tmr ):
RAH why so many.
and of all days wear full U tmr!?
are you kidding me.
theres practically a layer of dust on my boots.
and i miss my previous seat.
why Must He change our seats!?
i dun feel so tall anymore. backrow makes things more interesting.
anyhow.
(:
thats just to end off with smth pleasant.
AS,
everyday's a creation of God!
everything seems pleasant for you are with me
when i see the sick worshipping, its amazing.
there was this old lady sitting in frnt of us today.
though she was on a wheel chair, she lifted up her hand and worshipped the Lord.
ppl ard her were jumping and dancing and crying out loud.
but i believed smth in her made her stand out in the eyes of God!
its smth beautiful i saw today.
when it was ministering time, she didnt budge.
she just sat in her chair.
and i thought to myself, "she doesnt want to try. but why. if i were her, wld i be more courageous?"
but den, a min later or so.
i saw her standing up. one look and you cld tell that it was lyk a living hell for her.
that made me touched.
touched by the faith in her.
and by the love of God which moves in her life.
i guess, to God its really really precious.
i wanna be lyk that!
though she may be old, i think that old lady Is so Cool!
i salute you (:
met PAMELA soh at Bedok and we went to study.
who's idea was it to study at Macs!?
i never believed in studying there.
but Oh well. since we hardly hang out tgt.
and i wanted to hang out more den to study.
she's one comical person.
you, you , you!
my bestest bestest Buddy when we were p5 n p6!
(:
beside us was a table with a grp of ladies in their 20s near 30s?
and they were gatehred tgt, talking abt their sec sch days.
i think its so Cool Manz.
wonder if things wld be the same for Us.
tgt with my classmates n the ppl i treasure alot.
with God in the centre, i noe we will (:
GB day's tmr.
racial harmony thingy tmr.
chinese O's tmr ):
RAH why so many.
and of all days wear full U tmr!?
are you kidding me.
theres practically a layer of dust on my boots.
and i miss my previous seat.
why Must He change our seats!?
i dun feel so tall anymore. backrow makes things more interesting.
anyhow.
(:
thats just to end off with smth pleasant.
AS,
everyday's a creation of God!
everything seems pleasant for you are with me
Saturday, July 15, 2006
15th July'06
i thank God for everything (:
His love, indeed endures forever.
i really Love James 1:2!
"my brothers, consider it pure joy when you face trails of different kinds" -James 1:2
on fri, we had our prayer meeting.
and it was easy to tell that almst everyone's spirit was low.
lately, it has Always been lyk that.
i rmb at the beginning of this year.
how i made a pact with God,
never to backslide or fall short frm His presence.
i Will never place studies or anything else before Him. and i Will never doubt Him.
but oh wow, even the best fall down sometimes.
prayer meeting was great. (:
you noe..
they always say tt your prayer life is always the most impt.
its the factor tt is the most essential.
and thats the factor tt i've always had trouble with.
to tell the truth, i've really been falling away frm God.
even fasting 3 days in a row seems easier den a simple prayer.
i mean, i do pray. its just tt i dun really sit dwn n concentrate on my God the way i used to everyday.
we've always talked abt reaching out.
but i realised.
before you can even reach out.
you have to first strengthen what you have.
that is, the cell.
and before you can even do that,
you have to first strengthen Yourself.
i figured. it all points back to you, your own situation n status.
before you can do anything greater.
i prayed with sarah today.
and she rrly understands what i'm going through.
cause the thing is, we're in the same boat.
after tt little sharing among ourselves today, i realised i'm not the only one!
i didnt noe i was the only one who was aware abt her own spiritual walk too.
and We Are indeed in the same situation.
struggles with prayer, the bible.
even though you Noe and you Do love God alot.
yet it seems so ironic.
and it always seem lyk you're the only person struggling alone.
cause nobody noes. not that no one cares.
but you've always been the one encouraging others. and always the stronger one.
life indeed is tough at times.
but Everything happens for a Reason.
if i didnt have PO last year.
i wldnt have been able to overcome it.
and i wldnt have the chance to Grow.
i wld still be walking in my own sinful path doing other stuff.
HENCE, praise God for obstacles that come our way.
everything is beauutiful.
God kindof spoke to me today.
cause i was being aloof on purpose to Him.
i didnt really want to let go and let God anymore today.
and i didnt want to tell Him how i was feeling.
cause it always seem the same.
its lyk being trapped in a viscous cycle of never ending turns.
but den He asked me, "my child, are you really that strong? or are you actually crumbling on the inside. why do you hide frm me. i want to fulfill my promise. if only you had open up the door of your heart again."
and woah.
needless for me to say, we all noe how powerful n amazing the Holy spirit is.
He told me,
believe is a decision made by only You and yourself.
its a choice made by you. to decide to trust smth or not.
and so is being immune to the holy spirit.
if you say you'll never be able to rekindle ur fire again.
you'll never do so.
its a decision.
God's arms are open to everyone.
it just whether we are willing or not.
even if the world crumbles,
i'll still be standing.
that i noe for sure.
(:
"by the grace of God, we will carry on."
"this is the day that the Lord has made; i will rejoice and be glad in it" Ps 118:24
i'm glad its been converted to memory (:
your love made me see beyond everything
i thank God for everything (:
His love, indeed endures forever.
i really Love James 1:2!
"my brothers, consider it pure joy when you face trails of different kinds" -James 1:2
on fri, we had our prayer meeting.
and it was easy to tell that almst everyone's spirit was low.
lately, it has Always been lyk that.
i rmb at the beginning of this year.
how i made a pact with God,
never to backslide or fall short frm His presence.
i Will never place studies or anything else before Him. and i Will never doubt Him.
but oh wow, even the best fall down sometimes.
prayer meeting was great. (:
you noe..
they always say tt your prayer life is always the most impt.
its the factor tt is the most essential.
and thats the factor tt i've always had trouble with.
to tell the truth, i've really been falling away frm God.
even fasting 3 days in a row seems easier den a simple prayer.
i mean, i do pray. its just tt i dun really sit dwn n concentrate on my God the way i used to everyday.
we've always talked abt reaching out.
but i realised.
before you can even reach out.
you have to first strengthen what you have.
that is, the cell.
and before you can even do that,
you have to first strengthen Yourself.
i figured. it all points back to you, your own situation n status.
before you can do anything greater.
i prayed with sarah today.
and she rrly understands what i'm going through.
cause the thing is, we're in the same boat.
after tt little sharing among ourselves today, i realised i'm not the only one!
i didnt noe i was the only one who was aware abt her own spiritual walk too.
and We Are indeed in the same situation.
struggles with prayer, the bible.
even though you Noe and you Do love God alot.
yet it seems so ironic.
and it always seem lyk you're the only person struggling alone.
cause nobody noes. not that no one cares.
but you've always been the one encouraging others. and always the stronger one.
life indeed is tough at times.
but Everything happens for a Reason.
if i didnt have PO last year.
i wldnt have been able to overcome it.
and i wldnt have the chance to Grow.
i wld still be walking in my own sinful path doing other stuff.
HENCE, praise God for obstacles that come our way.
everything is beauutiful.
God kindof spoke to me today.
cause i was being aloof on purpose to Him.
i didnt really want to let go and let God anymore today.
and i didnt want to tell Him how i was feeling.
cause it always seem the same.
its lyk being trapped in a viscous cycle of never ending turns.
but den He asked me, "my child, are you really that strong? or are you actually crumbling on the inside. why do you hide frm me. i want to fulfill my promise. if only you had open up the door of your heart again."
and woah.
needless for me to say, we all noe how powerful n amazing the Holy spirit is.
He told me,
believe is a decision made by only You and yourself.
its a choice made by you. to decide to trust smth or not.
and so is being immune to the holy spirit.
if you say you'll never be able to rekindle ur fire again.
you'll never do so.
its a decision.
God's arms are open to everyone.
it just whether we are willing or not.
even if the world crumbles,
i'll still be standing.
that i noe for sure.
(:
"by the grace of God, we will carry on."
"this is the day that the Lord has made; i will rejoice and be glad in it" Ps 118:24
i'm glad its been converted to memory (:
your love made me see beyond everything
Thursday, July 13, 2006
13th July'06
one of the hardest thing to do in life.
is to express what you feel inside. espcially to someone who Means alot to you!
i used to get so shy and emo when it comes to telling tt person how much, exactly he/she mean alot to you.
okay, maybe i still am emo sometimes.
but even things as simple as telling how much you Love ur bestest pal and buddy who has been right beside you all the time seems difficult.
but AIYA
if those words really come out, they wld sound so Very mushy n romantic.
so much that it might be quite sick.
haha.
anyhoww,
i realise the importance of You in my life!
You and You and You and You!
in case you're wondering, its Four different blanks.
and i dun feel lyk saying the Names of these precious ppl.
because..what if You and you and you and you read my blog!? or come across it.
i noe you will. and i dun want to think abt how to react later on.
soo, oh well (:
maybe i'll tell you personally some day.
YOU
are really one of my greatest treasure on Earth (:
though it was me who found you.
i thank God for letting me discover this amazing precious little thing.
sometimes you reallyreally Do get on my nerves.
especially when you fail to understand how much i sacrifice.
i just felt lyk screaming,
"You!? MORON. why do i have to put up with this creation of GOD!??"
haha it was that bad.
but then as time went by, i discovered that i meant alot to you too.
and the reason behind why i felt lyk screaming sometimes was because..
you mean alot to me!
sometimes i reallyreally feel lyk i give more than i take.
but really, it isnt abt giving.
you once said before that i seem to always be there for you yet you cant seem to fill my heart whenever theres a hole.
i guess diff things work in diff ways.
because just by having you confiding in me is enough to make me happy.
just ur company makes me happy!
though sometimes theres rrly nth to talk abt.
i feel happy in the comfortable silence.
i am NOT a les or watsoever.
but Really.
i guess i'll hold on to this Very tightly. until eternity (:
YOU
have always been my laughter.
though sometimes i feel so down n horrible n yucky on the inside.
and i dun even share those problems with you.
you just seem so happy in ur own smilely world.
so much that i dun want to burden them with you.
but when we talk, it was enough to make me open up Myself, willingly.
and somehow, i dunno how you manage to do it.
but you ALWAYS succeed in making a fool out of ME!
on a funny way. and den a fool out of urself!
and we'll both be the most embarrasing ppl on earth.
fullstop.
you Idoit.
all ur self-flattering rrly makes me want to Punch you at times.
shut up and stop deceiving urself!
haha that was meant to be a joke.
nah, you're really pretty in my eyes.
pretty as in really pretty. physically n inwardly.
just that i dun tell you so (:
you noee..sometimes i can feel our friendship slowly slipping away.
i noe its my fault.
i really dunno why but maybe thats how it works in the human world.
cause to ME, the other Person seems lyk the only one i'm holding onto and SHE apparently seems to care more for another person. and YOU seems to care mroe abt ME.
this is so confusing.
but AIYA, i noe can alr.
i still love you as much as i always do (:
YOU
have been sucha a Great GREAT listener.
an encourager.
it seems lyk you're the only source of inspiration n motivation behind me.
though i dun tell you this.
but things that you do,..
the way you always talk abt your own encounter with God.
as well How much you long to do for Him,
all the fasting and prayer n everything.
just make me go.."wow" thats it, fullstop.
and then, you leave me all so amazed.
challenged to do so much more.
ppl tell me that they're encouraged by ME.
but i tell them that i'm encouraged by YOU.
sometimes i just acknowledge it within my heart, simply because i've talked lots abt you alr.
but you're so amazing.
i think you're God's sent angel down frm heaven for me.
(:
YOU
are beautiful!
in your own so very unique and special way.
which makes me just Smile and go "woahh" in my heart.
i really wld have to hold on to smth for support if i really have eye contact with you for a longg longg time.
smth tells me its gonna Burn.
and theres gonna be sparks.
well, i'm not easily swayed as far as i noe.
but i wld be happy if things were to remain this way.
of course i'll be dishearten if things arent getting any better.
but it wld be better than nth.
hearing abt you, laughing at ur stupid things and seeing you makes the world go round.
yes it does.
i thank God, the lovely one frm Above (:
one of the hardest thing to do in life.
is to express what you feel inside. espcially to someone who Means alot to you!
i used to get so shy and emo when it comes to telling tt person how much, exactly he/she mean alot to you.
okay, maybe i still am emo sometimes.
but even things as simple as telling how much you Love ur bestest pal and buddy who has been right beside you all the time seems difficult.
but AIYA
if those words really come out, they wld sound so Very mushy n romantic.
so much that it might be quite sick.
haha.
anyhoww,
i realise the importance of You in my life!
You and You and You and You!
in case you're wondering, its Four different blanks.
and i dun feel lyk saying the Names of these precious ppl.
because..what if You and you and you and you read my blog!? or come across it.
i noe you will. and i dun want to think abt how to react later on.
soo, oh well (:
maybe i'll tell you personally some day.
YOU
are really one of my greatest treasure on Earth (:
though it was me who found you.
i thank God for letting me discover this amazing precious little thing.
sometimes you reallyreally Do get on my nerves.
especially when you fail to understand how much i sacrifice.
i just felt lyk screaming,
"You!? MORON. why do i have to put up with this creation of GOD!??"
haha it was that bad.
but then as time went by, i discovered that i meant alot to you too.
and the reason behind why i felt lyk screaming sometimes was because..
you mean alot to me!
sometimes i reallyreally feel lyk i give more than i take.
but really, it isnt abt giving.
you once said before that i seem to always be there for you yet you cant seem to fill my heart whenever theres a hole.
i guess diff things work in diff ways.
because just by having you confiding in me is enough to make me happy.
just ur company makes me happy!
though sometimes theres rrly nth to talk abt.
i feel happy in the comfortable silence.
i am NOT a les or watsoever.
but Really.
i guess i'll hold on to this Very tightly. until eternity (:
YOU
have always been my laughter.
though sometimes i feel so down n horrible n yucky on the inside.
and i dun even share those problems with you.
you just seem so happy in ur own smilely world.
so much that i dun want to burden them with you.
but when we talk, it was enough to make me open up Myself, willingly.
and somehow, i dunno how you manage to do it.
but you ALWAYS succeed in making a fool out of ME!
on a funny way. and den a fool out of urself!
and we'll both be the most embarrasing ppl on earth.
fullstop.
you Idoit.
all ur self-flattering rrly makes me want to Punch you at times.
shut up and stop deceiving urself!
haha that was meant to be a joke.
nah, you're really pretty in my eyes.
pretty as in really pretty. physically n inwardly.
just that i dun tell you so (:
you noee..sometimes i can feel our friendship slowly slipping away.
i noe its my fault.
i really dunno why but maybe thats how it works in the human world.
cause to ME, the other Person seems lyk the only one i'm holding onto and SHE apparently seems to care more for another person. and YOU seems to care mroe abt ME.
this is so confusing.
but AIYA, i noe can alr.
i still love you as much as i always do (:
YOU
have been sucha a Great GREAT listener.
an encourager.
it seems lyk you're the only source of inspiration n motivation behind me.
though i dun tell you this.
but things that you do,..
the way you always talk abt your own encounter with God.
as well How much you long to do for Him,
all the fasting and prayer n everything.
just make me go.."wow" thats it, fullstop.
and then, you leave me all so amazed.
challenged to do so much more.
ppl tell me that they're encouraged by ME.
but i tell them that i'm encouraged by YOU.
sometimes i just acknowledge it within my heart, simply because i've talked lots abt you alr.
but you're so amazing.
i think you're God's sent angel down frm heaven for me.
(:
YOU
are beautiful!
in your own so very unique and special way.
which makes me just Smile and go "woahh" in my heart.
i really wld have to hold on to smth for support if i really have eye contact with you for a longg longg time.
smth tells me its gonna Burn.
and theres gonna be sparks.
well, i'm not easily swayed as far as i noe.
but i wld be happy if things were to remain this way.
of course i'll be dishearten if things arent getting any better.
but it wld be better than nth.
hearing abt you, laughing at ur stupid things and seeing you makes the world go round.
yes it does.
i thank God, the lovely one frm Above (:
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
12th July'06
i cant live a day without you.
and so the music plays in the brightly lited ballroom.
as she stepped in and looked around.
unable to believe what she was seeing.
it was all so Beautiful. too beautiful in fact.
lovely.
and when she finally took it all in,
she realised why its all so amazing.
because there was no more pain.
no more worries, no more sorrows.
just as simple as that.
its a scene frm Beauty n the Beast!
i wanna watch that fairy tale Now!
haha but sadly, i dun have the CD ):
i feel so deprived of So many things now tt i place studies as one of my most impt priorities.
oh my mama.
this is sucha sad life.
even the slightest thing at hme seems so interesting now.
things i havent been touching, i've developed a liking to them.
like the piano.
the guitar, tv, comp, Food, even UNO card games n board games.
my gosh, i seem to have some attractive force to all of them everytime i bury myself with books at hme.
we've come to the stage when everyone's counting dwn the number of days we have left before prelims. before O's.
they even write it on the board!?
well, stress Is good.
it gets you on track.
i've gotten hooked to a book recently.
you seee, i'm Even reading now lar.
its the latest latest version of 'fearless'
and the main character is so Damn Cool.
she can fight. she doesnt have the fear gene. she's got the character. she's cool. and she doesnt put in hell lots of effort just to look pretty.
in short, she's Amazing! (:
i think if theres ever this kindof creation on earth,
it wld be the best ever.
as the days passed, i start to narrow down things in my life.
some of which, i finally gathered myself to let go.
some others i'm still hanging onto So very tightly.
really. i realised as you get older, it becomes clearer on whats impt to you n wats not.
i hope nth gets damaged as we carry on with the last bit of the journey.
it'll be depressing.
so what is love?
or more than that, what is True love?
as usual, its one of my self qsning qsn. just lyk the way ppl always ponder on things.
i've been seeing ppl ard me.
some in love, some maybe Not really into it.
but somehow its almst the same.
cause it always draws back to the same current situation.
its one-sided. either that or the other party is ignorant to all that's going on.
but whyy. this is so sad.
true love is when parties feel the same with each other aint it?
but why does it always seem lyk one party has to start liking first.
and then after a longg period of time.
after all the suffering tt person goes through, smth beautiful happens.
maybe its this tt makes it even sweeter.
but still, it'll be totally Amazing if both were to feel the same abt each other just abt the same time, with the right circumstances.
maybe thats why ppl always say that nothing is perfect in this world.
what is love?
i used to think that i had the key to that answer long time ago.
but now that i look back.
it was just one of my own fantasies.
love is sacrificial.
no matter what happens. despite all thats has happened. whether what he did was good or bad he still seems perfect in ur eyes.
or so, its seems lyk this to me.
and i guess it also causes you to do Many dumb n foolish things you never thought you wld do.
things lyk finding excuses just to talk to him.
or get near to him.
or maybe even running away, just when you finally get ur chance to.
no?!
love is when that person appears in ur mind ever so often without you even realising it.
and somehow things that you do in the day, it kindof connects back to tt person.
no matter ridiculous it seems.
theres so much more to this on what human look to love as.
but sometimes i ask myself.
really, whats the point of loving someone when he isnt God's ideal one for you.
as in, what if you realise one day that smth great you treasure isnt part of ur calling, isnt part of your future.
then it had be depressing. demoralizing and heart breaking.
maybe thats why, its better to seek God first no matter what.
afterall, He's in the centre of my life.
He's my first priority my life. and all that i do, i just want to please Him.
so, isnt it better to please my saviour more than anything else?
your love made me see beyond everything
i cant live a day without you.
and so the music plays in the brightly lited ballroom.
as she stepped in and looked around.
unable to believe what she was seeing.
it was all so Beautiful. too beautiful in fact.
lovely.
and when she finally took it all in,
she realised why its all so amazing.
because there was no more pain.
no more worries, no more sorrows.
just as simple as that.
its a scene frm Beauty n the Beast!
i wanna watch that fairy tale Now!
haha but sadly, i dun have the CD ):
i feel so deprived of So many things now tt i place studies as one of my most impt priorities.
oh my mama.
this is sucha sad life.
even the slightest thing at hme seems so interesting now.
things i havent been touching, i've developed a liking to them.
like the piano.
the guitar, tv, comp, Food, even UNO card games n board games.
my gosh, i seem to have some attractive force to all of them everytime i bury myself with books at hme.
we've come to the stage when everyone's counting dwn the number of days we have left before prelims. before O's.
they even write it on the board!?
well, stress Is good.
it gets you on track.
i've gotten hooked to a book recently.
you seee, i'm Even reading now lar.
its the latest latest version of 'fearless'
and the main character is so Damn Cool.
she can fight. she doesnt have the fear gene. she's got the character. she's cool. and she doesnt put in hell lots of effort just to look pretty.
in short, she's Amazing! (:
i think if theres ever this kindof creation on earth,
it wld be the best ever.
as the days passed, i start to narrow down things in my life.
some of which, i finally gathered myself to let go.
some others i'm still hanging onto So very tightly.
really. i realised as you get older, it becomes clearer on whats impt to you n wats not.
i hope nth gets damaged as we carry on with the last bit of the journey.
it'll be depressing.
so what is love?
or more than that, what is True love?
as usual, its one of my self qsning qsn. just lyk the way ppl always ponder on things.
i've been seeing ppl ard me.
some in love, some maybe Not really into it.
but somehow its almst the same.
cause it always draws back to the same current situation.
its one-sided. either that or the other party is ignorant to all that's going on.
but whyy. this is so sad.
true love is when parties feel the same with each other aint it?
but why does it always seem lyk one party has to start liking first.
and then after a longg period of time.
after all the suffering tt person goes through, smth beautiful happens.
maybe its this tt makes it even sweeter.
but still, it'll be totally Amazing if both were to feel the same abt each other just abt the same time, with the right circumstances.
maybe thats why ppl always say that nothing is perfect in this world.
what is love?
i used to think that i had the key to that answer long time ago.
but now that i look back.
it was just one of my own fantasies.
love is sacrificial.
no matter what happens. despite all thats has happened. whether what he did was good or bad he still seems perfect in ur eyes.
or so, its seems lyk this to me.
and i guess it also causes you to do Many dumb n foolish things you never thought you wld do.
things lyk finding excuses just to talk to him.
or get near to him.
or maybe even running away, just when you finally get ur chance to.
no?!
love is when that person appears in ur mind ever so often without you even realising it.
and somehow things that you do in the day, it kindof connects back to tt person.
no matter ridiculous it seems.
theres so much more to this on what human look to love as.
but sometimes i ask myself.
really, whats the point of loving someone when he isnt God's ideal one for you.
as in, what if you realise one day that smth great you treasure isnt part of ur calling, isnt part of your future.
then it had be depressing. demoralizing and heart breaking.
maybe thats why, its better to seek God first no matter what.
afterall, He's in the centre of my life.
He's my first priority my life. and all that i do, i just want to please Him.
so, isnt it better to please my saviour more than anything else?
your love made me see beyond everything
Saturday, July 08, 2006
8th July'06
what can i say.
i cant say that i'm all fully well and happy.
and i wanna party.
but, as i said.
my God has always been This Awesome n Great.
theres somethings that indeed, they let me down.
but a small portion never changes.
and i'm glad it Never Changes.
i cant say that i'm all so strong.
and i feel No grief.
cause' i wld be lying.
and lying means i wont make it to heaven.
but i can say that i'm not tt easily defeated.
because i'm not stupid.
just when things get better,
all the rest of the world will come crashing down.
today's a great example.
kaboom!
great experience during cell today.
and the nxt moment with a lil blink,
i hear things.
things of ppl not being able to make it for service.
not one but a few.
and den theres troubles at home.
failure in studies.
parents nagging, not understanding.
all the crap frm this world.
which makes me qns,
shld i tell my parents abt my results or not.
the later they find out it'll be less bad i supposed.
i'm not ready for wat is to come yet.
just looking at the ppl ard me foreshadows the many obstacles i too, will face.
we said we wld fight this tgt.
and so i am trying.
just last night, i felt the love and care of Many.
thank you so much.
even before Soon Li took tt step,
i alr experienced much.
i've received.
and i'm ready to give too.
it rrly makes my heart melt when someone says 'thankyou'
after what you did.
but tts wat friends are for.
i feel a slice going through my heart
when i see ppl distress.
so many, you name it, you have it.
elana, jolene, sandy, evan, Me, hansheng, rachel, shrooms, liyun, sarah..
and so, the list goes on.
these are what i noe of.
and i'm sure theres More.
i think i'm oh so very emo
and i got lots running through my head.
oh well, glad tt i'm a female.
i've thought of running to your side.
and encamp there when insecurity strikes.
but then again, we belong to a diff world.
not so different.
but far enough to noe its distant.
i'll just thank God cause' its better than nothing.
and nothing means Grief.
as long as it means smth.
its worth dreaming for.
you're the Miracle in me
what can i say.
i cant say that i'm all fully well and happy.
and i wanna party.
but, as i said.
my God has always been This Awesome n Great.
theres somethings that indeed, they let me down.
but a small portion never changes.
and i'm glad it Never Changes.
i cant say that i'm all so strong.
and i feel No grief.
cause' i wld be lying.
and lying means i wont make it to heaven.
but i can say that i'm not tt easily defeated.
because i'm not stupid.
just when things get better,
all the rest of the world will come crashing down.
today's a great example.
kaboom!
great experience during cell today.
and the nxt moment with a lil blink,
i hear things.
things of ppl not being able to make it for service.
not one but a few.
and den theres troubles at home.
failure in studies.
parents nagging, not understanding.
all the crap frm this world.
which makes me qns,
shld i tell my parents abt my results or not.
the later they find out it'll be less bad i supposed.
i'm not ready for wat is to come yet.
just looking at the ppl ard me foreshadows the many obstacles i too, will face.
we said we wld fight this tgt.
and so i am trying.
just last night, i felt the love and care of Many.
thank you so much.
even before Soon Li took tt step,
i alr experienced much.
i've received.
and i'm ready to give too.
it rrly makes my heart melt when someone says 'thankyou'
after what you did.
but tts wat friends are for.
i feel a slice going through my heart
when i see ppl distress.
so many, you name it, you have it.
elana, jolene, sandy, evan, Me, hansheng, rachel, shrooms, liyun, sarah..
and so, the list goes on.
these are what i noe of.
and i'm sure theres More.
i think i'm oh so very emo
and i got lots running through my head.
oh well, glad tt i'm a female.
i've thought of running to your side.
and encamp there when insecurity strikes.
but then again, we belong to a diff world.
not so different.
but far enough to noe its distant.
i'll just thank God cause' its better than nothing.
and nothing means Grief.
as long as it means smth.
its worth dreaming for.
you're the Miracle in me
Friday, July 07, 2006
7th July'06
i have much to talk about!
firstly smth rather depressing n demoralising.
my results.
i used to Dislike it when ppl talk abt lessons in sch or results in their blogs.
but i realised. its a way of relieving!
they are All So Screwd.
and when i say screwd.
i mean wat i say.
i've never done This badly before.
my gosh leh.
i failed lyk 5 subjects.
for Mid-years?!
What. in the world is wrong with me?
i chose to take it in super lightly.
but Of Course i had feelings.
i managed to swipe away a couple of tears which fell.
i'm not one of those ppl who wld cry over spilled milk.
or rather, lament over wat you didnt strive or work hard for.
because i did at least try.
it was betraying.
the feeling of putting so effort in smth, trusting that He'll never short change you.
and den oh wow, wat kindof Crapped up results is this.
i dun even deserve to be in the best class.
but i noe theres no point in moaning over smth done.
i guessed i Got carried away but Responsibilities.
of things that i Seemed to care abt more than other ppl.
and i Mixed up whats impt and wats, probably Not that as impt.
not tt i regret serving my God.
but.
not tt i blame Him for all that i've become.
but. its only human to feel what i'm feeling.
not tt i ever Blamed Him for all that He has done in my life.
i still Love Him.
just tt, as usual, i Always qns.
why is it tt everyone gets rewarded Except me?
"your time will comee"
i dun feel lyk hearing this.
that, i already know.
just pleasee, let my mind take a break n wander off a lil.
for all that i put in. i sowed into another plot and the other plot rotted.
now, when i look at the one i sowed,
nothing seems to be growing from it.
what can i say?
i dun blame my God.
i just have to learn to be Even stronger.
and Learn to do things Even better.
and hopefully, make a miracle happen.
met Eevel ytd.
its nth much in my heart, i supposed.
we watched "just my luck".
it was rather good. haha
yet rather dumb.
if one kiss means having Good Luck. woah. i'll be careful with whom i'm giving my good luck to.
Haha.
i still think Angelina Jolie is so Cool.
i salute her for that Superwoman attitude.
i want to save the world.
clothe those children.
feed the hungry.
and do smth great.
just like her.
just that i want to do More.
more than enough.
lets do this.
this is fun. its rather cool.
if you have nth better to do.
that is.
The rules: change the fonts of the statements that are true to you.
I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
-X Box and PS2 makes me Smile (:
I've tried marijuana.
-is that a Drug? obviously not
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
-liars dont go to heaven. as simple as that (:
I curse sometimes.
-if smth pushes me to my outmost limit
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
-are you kidding me
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
-that is So Unnatural haha
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
-it Feels different bolding this. lol
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
-God's creation!
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
-when they do come, i scare myself sometimes haha
I have a hidden talent
-cause' i havent rrly found mine
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
-and i thank God for them (: esp the Lovely ones whom i cant live without
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
-kiss on the check? yeaa
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
-if i have the cash
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
-'hate' isnt in my dictionary
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
-a lil sometimes haha. i dunno why!
I have a cellphone.
I believe in God.
-and i'm in Love with Him
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
-but am getting better!
I have tried alcohol before.
-who hasnt?
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
-No way
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
-it REALLY really depends. but i Might
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
-so far, so good!
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
-and you get to Dress and Party (:
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
-haha! we're gonna get spongebob boxers!
I am happy at this moment.
-if i dun think abt my results that is
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
-i wanna be musically inclined! i Wished i am.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
-HAHA if its the right person. at the right time, at the right place.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
-GREEN and YELLOW are Beauties
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
-wld love to try one
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
-it can be embarrassing at times
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
-hmm wats conventions?
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
-are you kidding me?
i have much to talk about!
firstly smth rather depressing n demoralising.
my results.
i used to Dislike it when ppl talk abt lessons in sch or results in their blogs.
but i realised. its a way of relieving!
they are All So Screwd.
and when i say screwd.
i mean wat i say.
i've never done This badly before.
my gosh leh.
i failed lyk 5 subjects.
for Mid-years?!
What. in the world is wrong with me?
i chose to take it in super lightly.
but Of Course i had feelings.
i managed to swipe away a couple of tears which fell.
i'm not one of those ppl who wld cry over spilled milk.
or rather, lament over wat you didnt strive or work hard for.
because i did at least try.
it was betraying.
the feeling of putting so effort in smth, trusting that He'll never short change you.
and den oh wow, wat kindof Crapped up results is this.
i dun even deserve to be in the best class.
but i noe theres no point in moaning over smth done.
i guessed i Got carried away but Responsibilities.
of things that i Seemed to care abt more than other ppl.
and i Mixed up whats impt and wats, probably Not that as impt.
not tt i regret serving my God.
but.
not tt i blame Him for all that i've become.
but. its only human to feel what i'm feeling.
not tt i ever Blamed Him for all that He has done in my life.
i still Love Him.
just tt, as usual, i Always qns.
why is it tt everyone gets rewarded Except me?
"your time will comee"
i dun feel lyk hearing this.
that, i already know.
just pleasee, let my mind take a break n wander off a lil.
for all that i put in. i sowed into another plot and the other plot rotted.
now, when i look at the one i sowed,
nothing seems to be growing from it.
what can i say?
i dun blame my God.
i just have to learn to be Even stronger.
and Learn to do things Even better.
and hopefully, make a miracle happen.
met Eevel ytd.
its nth much in my heart, i supposed.
we watched "just my luck".
it was rather good. haha
yet rather dumb.
if one kiss means having Good Luck. woah. i'll be careful with whom i'm giving my good luck to.
Haha.
i still think Angelina Jolie is so Cool.
i salute her for that Superwoman attitude.
i want to save the world.
clothe those children.
feed the hungry.
and do smth great.
just like her.
just that i want to do More.
more than enough.
lets do this.
this is fun. its rather cool.
if you have nth better to do.
that is.
The rules: change the fonts of the statements that are true to you.
I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
-X Box and PS2 makes me Smile (:
I've tried marijuana.
-is that a Drug? obviously not
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
-liars dont go to heaven. as simple as that (:
I curse sometimes.
-if smth pushes me to my outmost limit
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
-are you kidding me
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
-that is So Unnatural haha
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
-it Feels different bolding this. lol
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
-God's creation!
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
-when they do come, i scare myself sometimes haha
I have a hidden talent
-cause' i havent rrly found mine
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
-and i thank God for them (: esp the Lovely ones whom i cant live without
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
-kiss on the check? yeaa
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
-if i have the cash
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
-'hate' isnt in my dictionary
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
-a lil sometimes haha. i dunno why!
I have a cellphone.
I believe in God.
-and i'm in Love with Him
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
-but am getting better!
I have tried alcohol before.
-who hasnt?
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
-No way
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
-it REALLY really depends. but i Might
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
-so far, so good!
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
-and you get to Dress and Party (:
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
-haha! we're gonna get spongebob boxers!
I am happy at this moment.
-if i dun think abt my results that is
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
-i wanna be musically inclined! i Wished i am.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
-HAHA if its the right person. at the right time, at the right place.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
-GREEN and YELLOW are Beauties
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
-wld love to try one
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
-it can be embarrassing at times
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
-hmm wats conventions?
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
-are you kidding me?
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
5th July'06
MAN.
it feels lyk i've had a Loong five-week Break before sch starts.
today was lyk, to put it in a light term, tiring.
first lesson, social studies.
and bang, i was sleepy alr.
i was tinking abt Soon Li walking past my class and catch me sleeping through the back door.
but HAHA it was closed.
it Always happens.
i mean, one min you're slping and the other, you hear laughters.
and at the third minute, you realise they're all laughing at you!
i wld do the Same.
if i Had the chance.
just tt her class is at some ulu pandan place, cant even walk past.
i skipped my duty of doing singspiration today.
was feeling guilty.
buttt.
i think humans are weird. arent they?
before you have a chance to serve God, you pray n seek and ask for tt chance.
tt one little chance.
now that i have it.
i seem to be running a lil away frm it.
okay lar, the main reason for not going today was bcause i was almst late.
and the discipline mistress was there.
i wldnt want to face heer anymore.
at least not today.
she's always picking on my socks!
whether high or low, its still the same.
if not den its my earring.
i Noe whose fault is it.
give me time to change!
we took height n weight today.
i lose weight!
HAHA
well, actually not That much.
but it was worth rejoicing over.
this small lost Means that Theres Still Hope okay!
i'mma aiming for 50kg though tts a lil tough.
well, i'm That heavy.
50kg n i'll do wat rachel made me agree on.
and She too.
she's gonna parade in That Thing.
slept through A maths lesson cause' the teacher wasnt around.
but the class was so noisy, it gave me a splitting headache.
i woke with that Pain in my head. as well as pins n needles working on my leg.
limped to chapel which was So Great.
maybe its because i was sitting Right at the front.
but wow, the msg waas great.
i tried working on smiling just for no reason.
and it kindof worked.
somehow, watever you're troubled with will just become diluted.
well, it works for me.
and i tried it on ppl tooo.
i saw this girl in a christian booth after sch.
and i felt happy so i smiled at her.
HAHA you shld have seen her expression.
she Smiled back. first puzzled, den that kindof you noe..soothing smile.
it made me kindof pleasant on the inside.
den theres this other maid whom i saw.
she was practically stoning while waiting for someone i think.
when she saw me and i flashed her a smile.
and she smiled back!
aiyo.
tt sweet smile was so Laasting that i had to look away.
i felt kindof weird.
she smiles too much.
Peace.
comes from the heart.
and not the circumstances.
nor the situation.
"My brethen, count it pure joy when you fall into various trails, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience."
-James 1:2
the NIV version is Much better i think.
but it was This verse that Shoo-ed all else away.
Pure JOY. like peace,
comes from the heart.
knowing that My Saviour has first walked the path which i'm walking now.
the greatest love i ever knew was when you died.
MAN.
it feels lyk i've had a Loong five-week Break before sch starts.
today was lyk, to put it in a light term, tiring.
first lesson, social studies.
and bang, i was sleepy alr.
i was tinking abt Soon Li walking past my class and catch me sleeping through the back door.
but HAHA it was closed.
it Always happens.
i mean, one min you're slping and the other, you hear laughters.
and at the third minute, you realise they're all laughing at you!
i wld do the Same.
if i Had the chance.
just tt her class is at some ulu pandan place, cant even walk past.
i skipped my duty of doing singspiration today.
was feeling guilty.
buttt.
i think humans are weird. arent they?
before you have a chance to serve God, you pray n seek and ask for tt chance.
tt one little chance.
now that i have it.
i seem to be running a lil away frm it.
okay lar, the main reason for not going today was bcause i was almst late.
and the discipline mistress was there.
i wldnt want to face heer anymore.
at least not today.
she's always picking on my socks!
whether high or low, its still the same.
if not den its my earring.
i Noe whose fault is it.
give me time to change!
we took height n weight today.
i lose weight!
HAHA
well, actually not That much.
but it was worth rejoicing over.
this small lost Means that Theres Still Hope okay!
i'mma aiming for 50kg though tts a lil tough.
well, i'm That heavy.
50kg n i'll do wat rachel made me agree on.
and She too.
she's gonna parade in That Thing.
slept through A maths lesson cause' the teacher wasnt around.
but the class was so noisy, it gave me a splitting headache.
i woke with that Pain in my head. as well as pins n needles working on my leg.
limped to chapel which was So Great.
maybe its because i was sitting Right at the front.
but wow, the msg waas great.
i tried working on smiling just for no reason.
and it kindof worked.
somehow, watever you're troubled with will just become diluted.
well, it works for me.
and i tried it on ppl tooo.
i saw this girl in a christian booth after sch.
and i felt happy so i smiled at her.
HAHA you shld have seen her expression.
she Smiled back. first puzzled, den that kindof you noe..soothing smile.
it made me kindof pleasant on the inside.
den theres this other maid whom i saw.
she was practically stoning while waiting for someone i think.
when she saw me and i flashed her a smile.
and she smiled back!
aiyo.
tt sweet smile was so Laasting that i had to look away.
i felt kindof weird.
she smiles too much.
Peace.
comes from the heart.
and not the circumstances.
nor the situation.
"My brethen, count it pure joy when you fall into various trails, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience."
-James 1:2
the NIV version is Much better i think.
but it was This verse that Shoo-ed all else away.
Pure JOY. like peace,
comes from the heart.
knowing that My Saviour has first walked the path which i'm walking now.
the greatest love i ever knew was when you died.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
4th July'06
i woke so early today.
though i had no sch, i woke at the same time.
to meet MS sarah lee, who Was late by an hour!
we rushed dwn to the airport to send leila.
i got to see her for less than 5 mins lar.
MS sarah leeee!?
tt woman IS dangerous man.
i went shopping with her ytd.
and she's lyk a bullet train.
haha but tts sarah leee (:
went over to do project with Jue n cmk.
Any hse with PS, piano and Guitar Is Fun.
thats wat i concluded.
i waaant X BOX!
sometimes, i demand too much.
went shopping with Sandy wong.
we got wat we want.
and den we were broke.
i saw this Beautiful Ring.
its 20 bucks.
oh my mama.
i am waiting for my fairy God mother to appear!
feelings are best when left alone.
i have nothing to do with Him.
trust me.
thats Is history.
you dont mean anything to me
i woke so early today.
though i had no sch, i woke at the same time.
to meet MS sarah lee, who Was late by an hour!
we rushed dwn to the airport to send leila.
i got to see her for less than 5 mins lar.
MS sarah leeee!?
tt woman IS dangerous man.
i went shopping with her ytd.
and she's lyk a bullet train.
haha but tts sarah leee (:
went over to do project with Jue n cmk.
Any hse with PS, piano and Guitar Is Fun.
thats wat i concluded.
i waaant X BOX!
sometimes, i demand too much.
went shopping with Sandy wong.
we got wat we want.
and den we were broke.
i saw this Beautiful Ring.
its 20 bucks.
oh my mama.
i am waiting for my fairy God mother to appear!
feelings are best when left alone.
i have nothing to do with Him.
trust me.
thats Is history.
you dont mean anything to me
Sunday, July 02, 2006
2nd July'06
hey world,
today started off lyk some other ordinary day.
just tt i was a lil more prepared for service.
cause the day before Soon Li alr told me wat was coming up.
i had no expectations in my heart.
i was struggling within during worship.
for concentration.
i placed my phone away frm me on purpose during worship.
though i havent contacted angeline n hwee min those ppl. they werent there for service yet.
i was feeling so guilty.
but at the same time, i rrly wanted to concentrate so much on My God only.
its been so long since i last do it.
i felt my God telling me to let go, and jus pay attention to my own Spiritual life for once.
all these while i've been bothering abt other ppl's business.
but wat abt mine?
so i listened and obeyed.
i drew nth down at all.
well, i thought in my heart, " forget it. maybe its one of those sessions where i wont expereince God again. maybe nxt wk wld be better. maybe."
smth inside just refused to let things rest.
i was hoping that there wld be an altar call meant for me.
i dunno. but to tell the truth, i've been feeling dry. and tired.
Flat frm all the giving and not receving anything in return.
why is it its so easy to understand others. but yet so difficult for others to understand you at times?
why does it seem so easy to console ppl while others are unable to console You?
i think this is so true.
maybe to a certain ppl.
i reckon, i'm one of them.
all the giving makes me Drained.
and so, i was hoping hard in my heart, for an altar tt was meant for me.
and it came.
they asked for cell grp leaders n helpers.
but i still wasnt sure in my heart.
i felt Him assuring me. really.
but i still backed out.
i Chickened out.
i dunno why.
my heart was practically shouting at my feet to Move and just respond to God.
but my mind told me, "no, they're not talking abt you. dun be stupid. you think tt little step makes a difference? Moron."
i noe it sounds so cliche.
but i just stood there rooted to where i was standing and stared at the screen, watching how God touch the lives of so many.
why, i dont know.
and tts when He came and Hit my heart Again.
everything just began to flow, smth familiar which i used to feel when He in me and i in Him.
den the tears came.
and it was hard to stop.
Joyce. i was so surprised when she placed her hand ard me and gave me a hug.
i was, i dunno. horrified. for watever reason.
i just stood dare still, not knowing how to react. to God, to the Holy spirit, to Joyce. to the atmosphere. watever.
but the tears just kept coming.
and tt warm assurance just kept flowing again.
and tt little voice tt told me to let go.
"let go, be strong. you can always cry in my presence everytime you feel weak, my child. you dun have to Appear strong all the time. i know. i know and i understand. thats why i've never let you go"
man. i wished i cld just appear in heaven at tt time.
and see Him face to face.
and He wld just place me on His lap and show me the Whole world.
and i wld look down and See for myself.
with my own eyes.
how Awesome He rrly is.
i'm still longing for that particular moment.
say it with your heart
hey world,
today started off lyk some other ordinary day.
just tt i was a lil more prepared for service.
cause the day before Soon Li alr told me wat was coming up.
i had no expectations in my heart.
i was struggling within during worship.
for concentration.
i placed my phone away frm me on purpose during worship.
though i havent contacted angeline n hwee min those ppl. they werent there for service yet.
i was feeling so guilty.
but at the same time, i rrly wanted to concentrate so much on My God only.
its been so long since i last do it.
i felt my God telling me to let go, and jus pay attention to my own Spiritual life for once.
all these while i've been bothering abt other ppl's business.
but wat abt mine?
so i listened and obeyed.
i drew nth down at all.
well, i thought in my heart, " forget it. maybe its one of those sessions where i wont expereince God again. maybe nxt wk wld be better. maybe."
smth inside just refused to let things rest.
i was hoping that there wld be an altar call meant for me.
i dunno. but to tell the truth, i've been feeling dry. and tired.
Flat frm all the giving and not receving anything in return.
why is it its so easy to understand others. but yet so difficult for others to understand you at times?
why does it seem so easy to console ppl while others are unable to console You?
i think this is so true.
maybe to a certain ppl.
i reckon, i'm one of them.
all the giving makes me Drained.
and so, i was hoping hard in my heart, for an altar tt was meant for me.
and it came.
they asked for cell grp leaders n helpers.
but i still wasnt sure in my heart.
i felt Him assuring me. really.
but i still backed out.
i Chickened out.
i dunno why.
my heart was practically shouting at my feet to Move and just respond to God.
but my mind told me, "no, they're not talking abt you. dun be stupid. you think tt little step makes a difference? Moron."
i noe it sounds so cliche.
but i just stood there rooted to where i was standing and stared at the screen, watching how God touch the lives of so many.
why, i dont know.
and tts when He came and Hit my heart Again.
everything just began to flow, smth familiar which i used to feel when He in me and i in Him.
den the tears came.
and it was hard to stop.
Joyce. i was so surprised when she placed her hand ard me and gave me a hug.
i was, i dunno. horrified. for watever reason.
i just stood dare still, not knowing how to react. to God, to the Holy spirit, to Joyce. to the atmosphere. watever.
but the tears just kept coming.
and tt warm assurance just kept flowing again.
and tt little voice tt told me to let go.
"let go, be strong. you can always cry in my presence everytime you feel weak, my child. you dun have to Appear strong all the time. i know. i know and i understand. thats why i've never let you go"
man. i wished i cld just appear in heaven at tt time.
and see Him face to face.
and He wld just place me on His lap and show me the Whole world.
and i wld look down and See for myself.
with my own eyes.
how Awesome He rrly is.
i'm still longing for that particular moment.
say it with your heart
Friday, June 30, 2006
30th June'06
hey world, its a friday! and i feel lyk i'm on a holiday.
(:
this is so totally Cool.
no sch Until tuesday, this Calls for a celebration man.
lets just start off with ytd.
had my chinese O's oral.
Man, it was so tough.
the two examiners were Male. haha we were lyk hoping they wld be female or smth.
cause' it wld be so much more Comfortable in a way.
well, it Does make a difference.
oh best. like tts not enough.
one of them Is frm RI and the other frm China.
my gosh, i almst freaked out.
the passage was alright. it was smth abt ur dad n communication.
when we all saw tt passage, we were All relieved.
cause the conversation's gonna be smth lyk tt.
Who knows wat kindof crap qns was coming up.
"..some students when attending classes lyk arts, and civic moral...have bad attitudes. what do you think abt it?.."
i guess the topic was smth lyk tt.
cause i rrly had no idea wat they were talking abt.
the moment the qns came out, my jaw just dropped in frnt of them.
i was lyk, Huh?! and gave them a totally blank look.
wat was tt "CME" word in mt? its lyk dao4 de2... so CHIMmified!
i made them repeat the qns lyk twice n explain it to me.
haha everyone Was struggling.
and sarah lee went to ask them for the explanation of CME.
haha!
oh well. i'm just complaining for the sake of complaining.
it kindof makes me feel better.
while the exams are over, and its rejoicing time,
i'm gonna start my revision!
Shrooms, you promised to call n spot check on me every now and den.
well, you better!
if i score well for O's, i make sure you'll be the happiest person on earth okay!
went over to rachel's hse with shrooms.
wanted to watch tt korean drama.
but apparently, we didnt noe how to operate her tv.
HAHA
its Her tv and she doesnt noe how to use it.
tts the way she is.
we went to dunk some balls opp her hse.
i strongly objected at first cause theres lyk so many ulu pandan ppl.
all the ah bengs and ah sengs.
i noe i'm rather discriminating.
but stillllllll.
but i think Everything happens for a reason.
cause we were playing when i saw this guy, who's junle's friend.
why of all times ytd? and of all ppl, see him? and of all places, There. he stayed in rachel's condo.
and its lyk she's my best budd.
i dun think its all out of pure coincidence.
YES?
No.
i think its God!
right right right? someone pls tell me.
i was so amazed by how small this world is ytd.
and how God works so wonderfully.
well, there were SO many other outcomes.
lyk we cld have played in Her condo instead of opp. but we didnt.
and its lyk, for all you noe we can all hang out one day.
cause its all so convenient. lyk me, also going over to rach's place n them staying ard there.
No?
i think God's amazing. (:
we played PS2 the whole night.
it was FUN (:
though she was on the phone.
but it was alright wat. i understand and i noe it means lots to her.
anyhow, James n Christine were great entertainers.
haha
i hope christine's hamster wont die.
we bathed it in cold water last night ard 2am plus lar.
there was once when my hamster cause of shock.
i hope its doesnt die!
if it does, we'll just thank God tt we only Bathed One and not All.
we talked quite abit last night.
everyone Has their flaws and weakness.
i think, wats best is tt we say it all out and not keep anyting in the dark so we can pray over it.
rather den allow the devil to have control.
aint it true?
if only things are That way on our side.
sometimes i feel lyk theres so much we can do which can make things better.
well, i'm a human.
i have my flaws too.
i suppose Not many noe abt them.
cause lyk most ppl, i keep them in the dark.
but wat for?
one of My biggest struggle is Faith.
i noe i'm good at encouraging others most of the time
its not tt my own spiritual life is a fake.
but its just tt my Faith gets swayed very easily.
very easily. sometimes, i fear too much.
and i feel insecure inside sometimes.
no wonder she said tt theres no peace in my heart sometimes.
i get easily affected too.
by the ppl ard me.
i guess most of the time it works lyk tt for me.
my heart Will be heavy if the ppl ard me has/have problems.
somehow, its just this burden.
thats why i'm gonna SMILE more frm now onwards.
and though i'll still be burdened by things whethere it concerns me or not,
it wont be that bad.
i know i appear strong spiritually to some ppl.
in sch, in cell, outside.
but i have my flaws too.
lyk any other ordinary being, i Doubt too. just tt a lil More.
i guess its really all in You, trusting in God.
and placing Him in ur heart always despite how much you fear and how insecure you are.
i'm very extremely grateful to ppl like you who can understand my situation.
whether is it personal things or things going on on my side.
though you noe not too deep sometimes.
you still give some comfort and assurance.
sometimes i just wish we belong to the same church manz.
whethere its mine or yours.
or mayeb neither.
tt way we can Relate Even even better.
and make things well.
but i guess God has a purpose for everything.
i just thank Him enough for letting Me be your angel and You being Mine.
i used to pray over this bond tt we share.
you hav ur own comittments n duties n friends and i have mine too.
i used to fret tt one day wat we share will be all taken away.
somehow, someway, someday.
what if all tt i sowed doesnt labour fruit n result in trash instead?
but i saw tt God was in the centre of our bond to which i will call is More den friendship.
i'll look beyond ur flaws though soemtimes i just dun say them out.
cause you too look beyond mine.
and we'll get rid of the childish thoughts.
not be selfish, and share each other with others.
i think i sound so mushy.
but aiya.
Lord, thankyou for ALL these angels you've blessed me with.
i wont dare to ask for more.
what appeared in my vision comfirmed my fantasy
LIYUN: i agree with you! and i saw wat i wanted to see haha!
SANDY: sandy wonnnnnnnngg
hey world, its a friday! and i feel lyk i'm on a holiday.
(:
this is so totally Cool.
no sch Until tuesday, this Calls for a celebration man.
lets just start off with ytd.
had my chinese O's oral.
Man, it was so tough.
the two examiners were Male. haha we were lyk hoping they wld be female or smth.
cause' it wld be so much more Comfortable in a way.
well, it Does make a difference.
oh best. like tts not enough.
one of them Is frm RI and the other frm China.
my gosh, i almst freaked out.
the passage was alright. it was smth abt ur dad n communication.
when we all saw tt passage, we were All relieved.
cause the conversation's gonna be smth lyk tt.
Who knows wat kindof crap qns was coming up.
"..some students when attending classes lyk arts, and civic moral...have bad attitudes. what do you think abt it?.."
i guess the topic was smth lyk tt.
cause i rrly had no idea wat they were talking abt.
the moment the qns came out, my jaw just dropped in frnt of them.
i was lyk, Huh?! and gave them a totally blank look.
wat was tt "CME" word in mt? its lyk dao4 de2... so CHIMmified!
i made them repeat the qns lyk twice n explain it to me.
haha everyone Was struggling.
and sarah lee went to ask them for the explanation of CME.
haha!
oh well. i'm just complaining for the sake of complaining.
it kindof makes me feel better.
while the exams are over, and its rejoicing time,
i'm gonna start my revision!
Shrooms, you promised to call n spot check on me every now and den.
well, you better!
if i score well for O's, i make sure you'll be the happiest person on earth okay!
went over to rachel's hse with shrooms.
wanted to watch tt korean drama.
but apparently, we didnt noe how to operate her tv.
HAHA
its Her tv and she doesnt noe how to use it.
tts the way she is.
we went to dunk some balls opp her hse.
i strongly objected at first cause theres lyk so many ulu pandan ppl.
all the ah bengs and ah sengs.
i noe i'm rather discriminating.
but stillllllll.
but i think Everything happens for a reason.
cause we were playing when i saw this guy, who's junle's friend.
why of all times ytd? and of all ppl, see him? and of all places, There. he stayed in rachel's condo.
and its lyk she's my best budd.
i dun think its all out of pure coincidence.
YES?
No.
i think its God!
right right right? someone pls tell me.
i was so amazed by how small this world is ytd.
and how God works so wonderfully.
well, there were SO many other outcomes.
lyk we cld have played in Her condo instead of opp. but we didnt.
and its lyk, for all you noe we can all hang out one day.
cause its all so convenient. lyk me, also going over to rach's place n them staying ard there.
No?
i think God's amazing. (:
we played PS2 the whole night.
it was FUN (:
though she was on the phone.
but it was alright wat. i understand and i noe it means lots to her.
anyhow, James n Christine were great entertainers.
haha
i hope christine's hamster wont die.
we bathed it in cold water last night ard 2am plus lar.
there was once when my hamster cause of shock.
i hope its doesnt die!
if it does, we'll just thank God tt we only Bathed One and not All.
we talked quite abit last night.
everyone Has their flaws and weakness.
i think, wats best is tt we say it all out and not keep anyting in the dark so we can pray over it.
rather den allow the devil to have control.
aint it true?
if only things are That way on our side.
sometimes i feel lyk theres so much we can do which can make things better.
well, i'm a human.
i have my flaws too.
i suppose Not many noe abt them.
cause lyk most ppl, i keep them in the dark.
but wat for?
one of My biggest struggle is Faith.
i noe i'm good at encouraging others most of the time
its not tt my own spiritual life is a fake.
but its just tt my Faith gets swayed very easily.
very easily. sometimes, i fear too much.
and i feel insecure inside sometimes.
no wonder she said tt theres no peace in my heart sometimes.
i get easily affected too.
by the ppl ard me.
i guess most of the time it works lyk tt for me.
my heart Will be heavy if the ppl ard me has/have problems.
somehow, its just this burden.
thats why i'm gonna SMILE more frm now onwards.
and though i'll still be burdened by things whethere it concerns me or not,
it wont be that bad.
i know i appear strong spiritually to some ppl.
in sch, in cell, outside.
but i have my flaws too.
lyk any other ordinary being, i Doubt too. just tt a lil More.
i guess its really all in You, trusting in God.
and placing Him in ur heart always despite how much you fear and how insecure you are.
i'm very extremely grateful to ppl like you who can understand my situation.
whether is it personal things or things going on on my side.
though you noe not too deep sometimes.
you still give some comfort and assurance.
sometimes i just wish we belong to the same church manz.
whethere its mine or yours.
or mayeb neither.
tt way we can Relate Even even better.
and make things well.
but i guess God has a purpose for everything.
i just thank Him enough for letting Me be your angel and You being Mine.
i used to pray over this bond tt we share.
you hav ur own comittments n duties n friends and i have mine too.
i used to fret tt one day wat we share will be all taken away.
somehow, someway, someday.
what if all tt i sowed doesnt labour fruit n result in trash instead?
but i saw tt God was in the centre of our bond to which i will call is More den friendship.
i'll look beyond ur flaws though soemtimes i just dun say them out.
cause you too look beyond mine.
and we'll get rid of the childish thoughts.
not be selfish, and share each other with others.
i think i sound so mushy.
but aiya.
Lord, thankyou for ALL these angels you've blessed me with.
i wont dare to ask for more.
what appeared in my vision comfirmed my fantasy
LIYUN: i agree with you! and i saw wat i wanted to see haha!
SANDY: sandy wonnnnnnnngg
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
28th June'06
hey world,
all the late nights of studying n cramping or chapters has come to an end.
(:
i nearly Jumped for Joy today!
but i held myself back.
bcause my class still has another bio paper to take.
hell, i totally know how they are feeling.
sometimes i Just Wished i chose bio too.
and then maybe drop physics.
sometimes i dont.
today, i dont regret.
praise God. i really think you're so awesome.
reallyy
i've never felt this way abt Someone before.
because you were with me No matter what.
No matter what.
just lyk today.
when my eyes were drowsey during chem.
you still brought me through.
i followed my guard feeling.
and to my surprise, most of those qns i guessed appeared positive.
is this coincidence or wat?
i dun think so.
i think its My amazing God at work.
monday morning was Nice seeing everybody.
though it wasnt wat i wanted it to be in the Train.
anyhow, it didnt Matter.
lit's paper is most probably Screwd.
in other words, Fail.
cause i fell asleep. and i saw the board wrongly.
i THOUGHT it wld end mush later den expected.
i had no time at all.
but, anyhow, whats done IS done.
its chinese O's oral tmr.
i'm going In with Him.
went to Cut my hair today.
with who else But liyun n elana tan!
they make me laugh lyk a Retard.
we went over to Elana's hse.
i think her dog, Eva's very pretty.
sucha pity tt she's so fierce, no guts to touch her.
her hse's just lyk an entertainment centre larh.
POOL table, the PIANO.
and best of all,
PLAY STATION 2.
i like (:
just tt, oh well, haha smth cocked up and we cldnt carry on playing.
went off to the playground.
and oh boy,
tt see-saw is sucha killer.
and tt merry-go-round too. but its all so FUN.
being with the both of them just reminds me constantly how precious my p5 n 6 life was.
i noe it sounds all so childish n unworthy.
but No.
i started reaping the little treasures of life.
(:
NOW i understand why p5 n 6 life was like Hell.
because there was smth amazing in the outcome.
music marathon's appraoching!
and Our slot is 10:30 am to 11am at Millenium walk.
anyone is free to come (:
its free.
i cant wait.
though i have no idea wat we're gonna wear.
from now onwards, my New motto in life is to SMILE.
(:
yeps.
i realised it can do Great wonders! haha
its so funny now tt i come to think abt it.
makes me laugh lyk a moron.
because of all the cheerful ppl in my life.
i realised they are lyk wat, 23/7 smiling.
if not, Laughing.
i mean, tts damn cool.
they just simply live their life off so peacefully.
not allowing things to affect them.
I WANNA BE LIKE THAT.
everytime you look my way, its like it all falls into place
hey world,
all the late nights of studying n cramping or chapters has come to an end.
(:
i nearly Jumped for Joy today!
but i held myself back.
bcause my class still has another bio paper to take.
hell, i totally know how they are feeling.
sometimes i Just Wished i chose bio too.
and then maybe drop physics.
sometimes i dont.
today, i dont regret.
praise God. i really think you're so awesome.
reallyy
i've never felt this way abt Someone before.
because you were with me No matter what.
No matter what.
just lyk today.
when my eyes were drowsey during chem.
you still brought me through.
i followed my guard feeling.
and to my surprise, most of those qns i guessed appeared positive.
is this coincidence or wat?
i dun think so.
i think its My amazing God at work.
monday morning was Nice seeing everybody.
though it wasnt wat i wanted it to be in the Train.
anyhow, it didnt Matter.
lit's paper is most probably Screwd.
in other words, Fail.
cause i fell asleep. and i saw the board wrongly.
i THOUGHT it wld end mush later den expected.
i had no time at all.
but, anyhow, whats done IS done.
its chinese O's oral tmr.
i'm going In with Him.
went to Cut my hair today.
with who else But liyun n elana tan!
they make me laugh lyk a Retard.
we went over to Elana's hse.
i think her dog, Eva's very pretty.
sucha pity tt she's so fierce, no guts to touch her.
her hse's just lyk an entertainment centre larh.
POOL table, the PIANO.
and best of all,
PLAY STATION 2.
i like (:
just tt, oh well, haha smth cocked up and we cldnt carry on playing.
went off to the playground.
and oh boy,
tt see-saw is sucha killer.
and tt merry-go-round too. but its all so FUN.
being with the both of them just reminds me constantly how precious my p5 n 6 life was.
i noe it sounds all so childish n unworthy.
but No.
i started reaping the little treasures of life.
(:
NOW i understand why p5 n 6 life was like Hell.
because there was smth amazing in the outcome.
music marathon's appraoching!
and Our slot is 10:30 am to 11am at Millenium walk.
anyone is free to come (:
its free.
i cant wait.
though i have no idea wat we're gonna wear.
from now onwards, my New motto in life is to SMILE.
(:
yeps.
i realised it can do Great wonders! haha
its so funny now tt i come to think abt it.
makes me laugh lyk a moron.
because of all the cheerful ppl in my life.
i realised they are lyk wat, 23/7 smiling.
if not, Laughing.
i mean, tts damn cool.
they just simply live their life off so peacefully.
not allowing things to affect them.
I WANNA BE LIKE THAT.
everytime you look my way, its like it all falls into place
Sunday, June 25, 2006
25th June'06
YOBOSHIYO
somehow, i'm kindda excited going back to sch tmr.
i dunno.
maybe its because i've been missing them.
but
i really thank God tt i Live in an All Girls environment.
its all the same isnt it?
since pri sch.
and now, cell's mostly packed with Females.
of course it Brings out the Unfemanine side of you.
but who cares.
its FUN.
maybe its because some areas where i've placed my hopes in have let me dwn.
and tt made me realised tt I, myself have let ppl ard me dwn too.
and right now,
i just seem to see things as.
i'll just go back to the ones who's always been embracing me and maybe take a break frm the other situation. where i have to Always be the one doing all the things.
just let Go and not care for awhile.
they say you Will make a Good housewife if you worry Alot.
i dun want to be tt!
sounds so old lar.
monday-LIT
tues-PHYSICS,GEO
wed-CHEM
we'll i guess liyun has said all that i wana say alr.
just tt, mine ENDS at 11am instead of 9am.
haha.
after tt theres chinese O's oral.
but I'm still considered FREE.
FREEDOM is BLISS
sch tmr!
i want to hug ppl Whom i wanna hug when i see them tmr!
but i think they're say tt i'm siao.
AND
i guess all the other ppl in sch will just stare lar.
its true okay.
i hugged n carried liwen in sch the other time and so many heads turned.
my gosh.
even the teacher.
mayeb its because i had short hair den.
hah.
anyhow, you noe who i wanna see in the train tmr
(:
i've done my part in slacking, in reading, in studying as what i can.
now, its time for prayers.
i like you for who you are
YOBOSHIYO
somehow, i'm kindda excited going back to sch tmr.
i dunno.
maybe its because i've been missing them.
but
i really thank God tt i Live in an All Girls environment.
its all the same isnt it?
since pri sch.
and now, cell's mostly packed with Females.
of course it Brings out the Unfemanine side of you.
but who cares.
its FUN.
maybe its because some areas where i've placed my hopes in have let me dwn.
and tt made me realised tt I, myself have let ppl ard me dwn too.
and right now,
i just seem to see things as.
i'll just go back to the ones who's always been embracing me and maybe take a break frm the other situation. where i have to Always be the one doing all the things.
just let Go and not care for awhile.
they say you Will make a Good housewife if you worry Alot.
i dun want to be tt!
sounds so old lar.
monday-LIT
tues-PHYSICS,GEO
wed-CHEM
we'll i guess liyun has said all that i wana say alr.
just tt, mine ENDS at 11am instead of 9am.
haha.
after tt theres chinese O's oral.
but I'm still considered FREE.
FREEDOM is BLISS
sch tmr!
i want to hug ppl Whom i wanna hug when i see them tmr!
but i think they're say tt i'm siao.
AND
i guess all the other ppl in sch will just stare lar.
its true okay.
i hugged n carried liwen in sch the other time and so many heads turned.
my gosh.
even the teacher.
mayeb its because i had short hair den.
hah.
anyhow, you noe who i wanna see in the train tmr
(:
i've done my part in slacking, in reading, in studying as what i can.
now, its time for prayers.
i like you for who you are
Friday, June 23, 2006
24th June'06
i hereby declare tt studying is So Torturing.
and if you're not careful, it can Kill you.
i woke up with the Determined spirit tt i'll study lyk Crazy today.
i wasted my whole morning on Half a Stupid chapter of chemistry.
):
i didnt understand a single thing lar.
why is it all so difficult.
HUH
i noe its my fault.
cause i havent been listening, only sleeping n stonning.
but still, it doesnt have to be so tough.
HUH
pure lit is lyk on Monday.
and i havent even touch anything on it.
i need to become an Emo person By Monday.
by hook or by crook.
if not i'll never be able to sit for tt paper.
everyone's so panicky over the exams now.
well. not fo me.
Until Today.
wah CRAP.
i havent even touch geo.
and its on tues.
my sciences are failing.
God, please help me!
i noe i'm lazy and i dun deserve Anything.
not even a single thing.
but please Help me. Please show me a miracle.
i noe you're a Faithful God. een more faithful den me.
please please be with me. please please please.
i saw my friend's blog.
"..10 more weeks to prelims. 17 more weeks to O's.."
wah best.
just what i need.
i used to be a smart kid.
whatever happened to me?
i think i complain too much.
):
but i cant help it.
byee.
when i was seven, they said i was different
i hereby declare tt studying is So Torturing.
and if you're not careful, it can Kill you.
i woke up with the Determined spirit tt i'll study lyk Crazy today.
i wasted my whole morning on Half a Stupid chapter of chemistry.
):
i didnt understand a single thing lar.
why is it all so difficult.
HUH
i noe its my fault.
cause i havent been listening, only sleeping n stonning.
but still, it doesnt have to be so tough.
HUH
pure lit is lyk on Monday.
and i havent even touch anything on it.
i need to become an Emo person By Monday.
by hook or by crook.
if not i'll never be able to sit for tt paper.
everyone's so panicky over the exams now.
well. not fo me.
Until Today.
wah CRAP.
i havent even touch geo.
and its on tues.
my sciences are failing.
God, please help me!
i noe i'm lazy and i dun deserve Anything.
not even a single thing.
but please Help me. Please show me a miracle.
i noe you're a Faithful God. een more faithful den me.
please please be with me. please please please.
i saw my friend's blog.
"..10 more weeks to prelims. 17 more weeks to O's.."
wah best.
just what i need.
i used to be a smart kid.
whatever happened to me?
i think i complain too much.
):
but i cant help it.
byee.
when i was seven, they said i was different
Thursday, June 22, 2006
22nd June'06
my God's not afraid.
no, not even a single bit.
He's my warrior in the Silver armour.
He's my Hero with the six pack n solid muscles.
He's better than a HUNK.
He's the one whom everyone will just say WOW to.
yea. tts Him.
i wanna marry Him for life (:
hey now, you're the one who's dreaming.
AWESOME: but tt makes me want to ask Even more!
SANDY: i'm here. hush, everything's fine (: God's protecting you
ME :) :hey woman, i'm trying hard to. haha i hope you're studying hard too (:
my God's not afraid.
no, not even a single bit.
He's my warrior in the Silver armour.
He's my Hero with the six pack n solid muscles.
He's better than a HUNK.
He's the one whom everyone will just say WOW to.
yea. tts Him.
i wanna marry Him for life (:
hey now, you're the one who's dreaming.
AWESOME: but tt makes me want to ask Even more!
SANDY: i'm here. hush, everything's fine (: God's protecting you
ME :) :hey woman, i'm trying hard to. haha i hope you're studying hard too (:
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
22nd June'06
i was jogging alone one day on the streets.
past the many shops with glass windows,
and past by the faceless mob of creatures.
of them, i saw some familiar ones.
some smiling at me,
because of the warmth tt existed between us.
a few frowning at me,
or rather, trying hard to avoid eye contact.
because i failed to go deep enough and sustain tt relationship.
perhaps i did, but it didnt last till now.
because of the many things tt came out of ur mouth.
and the totally different accent tt we both spoke.
i saw the sweet side n took it in.
but maybe i failed to last long enough.
and tt let it all go.
and then i saw another familiar face.
of all the others which were smiling,
yours was the brightest.
i stopped, looking at this amazing creation before me.
and i smiled back too.
because you make my life worth while (:
i was jogging alone one day on the streets.
past the many shops with glass windows,
and past by the faceless mob of creatures.
of them, i saw some familiar ones.
some smiling at me,
because of the warmth tt existed between us.
a few frowning at me,
or rather, trying hard to avoid eye contact.
because i failed to go deep enough and sustain tt relationship.
perhaps i did, but it didnt last till now.
because of the many things tt came out of ur mouth.
and the totally different accent tt we both spoke.
i saw the sweet side n took it in.
but maybe i failed to last long enough.
and tt let it all go.
and then i saw another familiar face.
of all the others which were smiling,
yours was the brightest.
i stopped, looking at this amazing creation before me.
and i smiled back too.
because you make my life worth while (:
21st June'06
to me,
the happiest thing on earth is to see ppl ard you Happy.
and,
i'm Happy
(:
oh yar, i just rmb smth.
i had a nightmare last night.
cause we're so stressed up lately.
all abt exams n studies.
and i dreamt tt i was Superb late for exam.
uniform too Big, everything gone wrong.
thank God it was just a dream.
i've been missing a couple of ppl particularly.
all that i can do for now,
is to recall those lovely memories we had.
and maybe dwell on them for awhile.
i just want to die in your eyes
CHEUK: i relinked! haha i'm starting to find wordpress rrly cool!
SANDY: you are rubbish and childish! but tts the way you are and i lyk it haha
JUNLING: hello (: i didnt exopect you to come here. i love you Many Many too!
AWESOME: oh wow. i'm gonna ask! Why are you feeling tt way??
to me,
the happiest thing on earth is to see ppl ard you Happy.
and,
i'm Happy
(:
oh yar, i just rmb smth.
i had a nightmare last night.
cause we're so stressed up lately.
all abt exams n studies.
and i dreamt tt i was Superb late for exam.
uniform too Big, everything gone wrong.
thank God it was just a dream.
i've been missing a couple of ppl particularly.
all that i can do for now,
is to recall those lovely memories we had.
and maybe dwell on them for awhile.
i just want to die in your eyes
CHEUK: i relinked! haha i'm starting to find wordpress rrly cool!
SANDY: you are rubbish and childish! but tts the way you are and i lyk it haha
JUNLING: hello (: i didnt exopect you to come here. i love you Many Many too!
AWESOME: oh wow. i'm gonna ask! Why are you feeling tt way??
Monday, June 19, 2006
20th June'06
i woke up so early today just to get to sch.
half way through, my stomach flipped.
and it hurt so Much.
i had to Bomb at bishan!
oh best.
cause i was alr late for sch.
and by the time i finish wat i was supposed to do.
cmk told me the audition was over!
no point going to sch alr.
my beauty sleep was disturbed for nth
i need you here tonight
EVAN: wow, i wld love to dream of pastor Kong haha. tt wld be so cool
SANDY: mine was 100 bucks too! plus so many tithes. haha but anyway, God is good!
AWESOME: you better be there when the devil attacks! den you'll be my hero! haha
[na]: Yea, i'm glad tt my leader is strong too (:
LIWEN: hello tao hui water! i'm much better!
i woke up so early today just to get to sch.
half way through, my stomach flipped.
and it hurt so Much.
i had to Bomb at bishan!
oh best.
cause i was alr late for sch.
and by the time i finish wat i was supposed to do.
cmk told me the audition was over!
no point going to sch alr.
my beauty sleep was disturbed for nth
i need you here tonight
EVAN: wow, i wld love to dream of pastor Kong haha. tt wld be so cool
SANDY: mine was 100 bucks too! plus so many tithes. haha but anyway, God is good!
AWESOME: you better be there when the devil attacks! den you'll be my hero! haha
[na]: Yea, i'm glad tt my leader is strong too (:
LIWEN: hello tao hui water! i'm much better!
Sunday, June 18, 2006
19th June'06
12:00am sharp (:
i like this kind of 'late' feeling.
it makes me feel lyk partying.
this morning went rather fine.
all until i received a call frm my mum.
smth rather chaotic happened at hme.
my dad found my receipt for building fund n tithe.
and all the crap comes pouring out.
i was petrified.
and i was controlling my tears.
when i cldnt take it.
hey jicai, i just want to say.
thanks for wat you did today.
its made me feel better (:
i'm okay.
like i said,
i wont let things pull me dwn anymore.
prayed n prayed and things werent tt bad when i went over to grand dad's place.
At least there wasnt any violence.
i cld feel the both of us trying hard to be patient.
there was so much i want to say you dad.
just too much.
if only i have the guts to get them out of my mouth.
just ytd i nearly blurted out the idea of getting baptized to them.
i wanted to, by this year.
but i didnt.
maybe its God, knowing it isnt time yet.
cause today, after all the commotion.
he just shouted out of the blue.
tt i wasnt supposed to get baptized in that church.
Never. ever.
it wldnt even happen in my dreams.
tts wat he said.
man.
i heart sank all the way to the bottom.
but i figured it out and it aint bothering me now.
like i said again,
frm today onwards
everything tt happens Is a Blessing.
Will be a blessing.
i will Make it Turn into a blessing.
if not, this whole will only be filled with sorrows n emptiness.
that, is so meaningless.
there we go again, we seem to go in circles every now and then.
12:00am sharp (:
i like this kind of 'late' feeling.
it makes me feel lyk partying.
this morning went rather fine.
all until i received a call frm my mum.
smth rather chaotic happened at hme.
my dad found my receipt for building fund n tithe.
and all the crap comes pouring out.
i was petrified.
and i was controlling my tears.
when i cldnt take it.
hey jicai, i just want to say.
thanks for wat you did today.
its made me feel better (:
i'm okay.
like i said,
i wont let things pull me dwn anymore.
prayed n prayed and things werent tt bad when i went over to grand dad's place.
At least there wasnt any violence.
i cld feel the both of us trying hard to be patient.
there was so much i want to say you dad.
just too much.
if only i have the guts to get them out of my mouth.
just ytd i nearly blurted out the idea of getting baptized to them.
i wanted to, by this year.
but i didnt.
maybe its God, knowing it isnt time yet.
cause today, after all the commotion.
he just shouted out of the blue.
tt i wasnt supposed to get baptized in that church.
Never. ever.
it wldnt even happen in my dreams.
tts wat he said.
man.
i heart sank all the way to the bottom.
but i figured it out and it aint bothering me now.
like i said again,
frm today onwards
everything tt happens Is a Blessing.
Will be a blessing.
i will Make it Turn into a blessing.
if not, this whole will only be filled with sorrows n emptiness.
that, is so meaningless.
there we go again, we seem to go in circles every now and then.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
18th June'06
its sunday morning.
and i'm at the comp.
Mainly because i fun feel lyk trying those skirts in my cupboard!
HAHA
but we all striked a deal ytd.
everyone's gonna wear a Skirt today.
and tt includes Anna.
hoho, its gonna be interesting.
i dreamnt of someone last night!
and it was amazing.
totally amazing.
he made it into the auditions of some Guitar thing.
and became an Awesome guitarist And Drummer.
oh manz, so cool.
i wanna lead a life like that.
prayer meeting went quite well ytd.
SANDY WONG, do you noe tt you're so encouraging at times,
just by the words you say?
you just make me want to pinch ur cheeks and smile.
HAHA
no lar, seriously.
i think my voice cracked ytd during prayer meeting.
the pitch was so high.
it was tough singing.
but all went well i suppose.
and thanks for saying such Nice stuff.
haha YES i'm gonna teach you the GUITAR
one more wk till sch reopens.
shoots.
and we have all the fun stuff coming up nxt wk.
oh best.
wat happened to studying??
its 7:37am
i got to go change!
life's full of turning points. i hope i'll meet you then.
SANDY: now, ur dream is freaky. nxt time got oil again, tell Me haha. i'll fly over n see it for myself
its sunday morning.
and i'm at the comp.
Mainly because i fun feel lyk trying those skirts in my cupboard!
HAHA
but we all striked a deal ytd.
everyone's gonna wear a Skirt today.
and tt includes Anna.
hoho, its gonna be interesting.
i dreamnt of someone last night!
and it was amazing.
totally amazing.
he made it into the auditions of some Guitar thing.
and became an Awesome guitarist And Drummer.
oh manz, so cool.
i wanna lead a life like that.
prayer meeting went quite well ytd.
SANDY WONG, do you noe tt you're so encouraging at times,
just by the words you say?
you just make me want to pinch ur cheeks and smile.
HAHA
no lar, seriously.
i think my voice cracked ytd during prayer meeting.
the pitch was so high.
it was tough singing.
but all went well i suppose.
and thanks for saying such Nice stuff.
haha YES i'm gonna teach you the GUITAR
one more wk till sch reopens.
shoots.
and we have all the fun stuff coming up nxt wk.
oh best.
wat happened to studying??
its 7:37am
i got to go change!
life's full of turning points. i hope i'll meet you then.
SANDY: now, ur dream is freaky. nxt time got oil again, tell Me haha. i'll fly over n see it for myself
Friday, June 16, 2006
17th June'06
i went shopping ytd with LIYUN
and we got some stuff.
(:
i read a tag on my blog just now and it rrly made me Smile.
i thought things werent gonna be exactly smooth with you.
but, its okay now.
i think i cant live without you either.
you're wat, i can say. one of God's greatest gift to me.
and i hope to takecare of this gift always.
i guess many things happened lately
which has left me in a state of shock.
just a couple of days ago someone told me smth.
it was so unexpected.
i nearly died frm shock.
it only leaves me to qns myself.
do we rrly rrly live in a broken down world?
i nearly lose control and Shouted at him to wake up.
asked me if i was disappointed,
of Course i was.
of course.
because i thought you were Much stronger den you are.
and I've always looked to you as someone who's so Great n amazing.
to me, you're someone who cld do smth Great.
its just the things on this world which have been stopping you.
but i trusted you.
tt you wont allow these things to pull you dwn again.
just lyk wat happened the other time.
cause you promised it wont happen anymore.
and in my heart i was so happy.
i cld see you growing n becoming someone all so mighty n holy and amazing.
soemone whom i'll look up to and say WOW.
but apparently not.
i'm trying hard not to blame you.
all these while i've been trying Real hard to be patience.
to be honest,
i think if you put me through a Patience test now.
i wld pass.
thank God i'm able to control myself.
i swallowed wat i was feeling.
i Thought you were going to help the situation.
i Thought tt after all the stuff you were busy with.
you wld come in n try to make things better.
cause you said you wld.
and you said we're gonna go through this whole thing together.
look now,
i supposed things on ur side werent smooth at all.
and you finally felt so tired.
tired.
until you took the wrong turn.
man.
how i wish i was there to help.
it wldnt be tt bad now.
i'm not blaming you buddy.
but i hope you'll wake up soon.
and realise tt you arent always correct.
esp this once.
i realised.
sometimes you're just so afraid to approach someone and Care for them.
you might think it wont make much a difference.
but when you come to realise,
you found tt if only you had just cared for tt person at tt time.
he/she probably wldnt be in the state they are now.
every little thing makes a difference.
forgive me,
i'm in a state of self reflection.
or rather, this post is meant only for me.
theres many things i have to conquer lately.
fear.
tts the biggest, Biggest thing.
and doubts.
i look at things and sometimes i qns myself.
am i walking correctly?
i have to admit tt sometimes i regret not giving in to myself.
not giving in to my flesh.
this was how things were,
every little bit my flesh felt lyk doing n it wasnt right,
i wld be lyk No.
no. no. no.
and it didnt happened.
soemtimes i regret doing so.
who noes if i ever gave in,
things wld be So diff now.
but i've come to accept tt
i'm not Living for myself.
i'm living for the one above.
i made tt choice.
and its greater is He who lives in me than myself.
Lord, i just need a lil more strength to pull through this.
just a lil more.
if You were able to help me overcome all the previous odds,
i dun see why you cant be here again.
I'M A HAPPY GIRL.
i'm not going to let things affect me anymore.
yups, starting frm now.
i change.
change the world. and not let the world change me.
give me ur support please.
i cant bare to look at you without thinking a million things
LIYUN: of course its good. it gets rid of gases in YOUR body!
ANONYMOUS: its okay. i hope to see yu there. dun be lazy! i noe i'm naggy at times. but we're to be convertionists rmb? WWJD
SANDY: haha tts a COOL dream! oh manz. where did tt black oil come frm!?
i went shopping ytd with LIYUN
and we got some stuff.
(:
i read a tag on my blog just now and it rrly made me Smile.
i thought things werent gonna be exactly smooth with you.
but, its okay now.
i think i cant live without you either.
you're wat, i can say. one of God's greatest gift to me.
and i hope to takecare of this gift always.
i guess many things happened lately
which has left me in a state of shock.
just a couple of days ago someone told me smth.
it was so unexpected.
i nearly died frm shock.
it only leaves me to qns myself.
do we rrly rrly live in a broken down world?
i nearly lose control and Shouted at him to wake up.
asked me if i was disappointed,
of Course i was.
of course.
because i thought you were Much stronger den you are.
and I've always looked to you as someone who's so Great n amazing.
to me, you're someone who cld do smth Great.
its just the things on this world which have been stopping you.
but i trusted you.
tt you wont allow these things to pull you dwn again.
just lyk wat happened the other time.
cause you promised it wont happen anymore.
and in my heart i was so happy.
i cld see you growing n becoming someone all so mighty n holy and amazing.
soemone whom i'll look up to and say WOW.
but apparently not.
i'm trying hard not to blame you.
all these while i've been trying Real hard to be patience.
to be honest,
i think if you put me through a Patience test now.
i wld pass.
thank God i'm able to control myself.
i swallowed wat i was feeling.
i Thought you were going to help the situation.
i Thought tt after all the stuff you were busy with.
you wld come in n try to make things better.
cause you said you wld.
and you said we're gonna go through this whole thing together.
look now,
i supposed things on ur side werent smooth at all.
and you finally felt so tired.
tired.
until you took the wrong turn.
man.
how i wish i was there to help.
it wldnt be tt bad now.
i'm not blaming you buddy.
but i hope you'll wake up soon.
and realise tt you arent always correct.
esp this once.
i realised.
sometimes you're just so afraid to approach someone and Care for them.
you might think it wont make much a difference.
but when you come to realise,
you found tt if only you had just cared for tt person at tt time.
he/she probably wldnt be in the state they are now.
every little thing makes a difference.
forgive me,
i'm in a state of self reflection.
or rather, this post is meant only for me.
theres many things i have to conquer lately.
fear.
tts the biggest, Biggest thing.
and doubts.
i look at things and sometimes i qns myself.
am i walking correctly?
i have to admit tt sometimes i regret not giving in to myself.
not giving in to my flesh.
this was how things were,
every little bit my flesh felt lyk doing n it wasnt right,
i wld be lyk No.
no. no. no.
and it didnt happened.
soemtimes i regret doing so.
who noes if i ever gave in,
things wld be So diff now.
but i've come to accept tt
i'm not Living for myself.
i'm living for the one above.
i made tt choice.
and its greater is He who lives in me than myself.
Lord, i just need a lil more strength to pull through this.
just a lil more.
if You were able to help me overcome all the previous odds,
i dun see why you cant be here again.
I'M A HAPPY GIRL.
i'm not going to let things affect me anymore.
yups, starting frm now.
i change.
change the world. and not let the world change me.
give me ur support please.
i cant bare to look at you without thinking a million things
LIYUN: of course its good. it gets rid of gases in YOUR body!
ANONYMOUS: its okay. i hope to see yu there. dun be lazy! i noe i'm naggy at times. but we're to be convertionists rmb? WWJD
SANDY: haha tts a COOL dream! oh manz. where did tt black oil come frm!?
Thursday, June 15, 2006
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
14th June'06
i spent my ytd dwn in the library with rachel!
we sat there for hrs studying.
until it was ard 8pm.
my butt was so sore frm sitting manz.
and i only managed to absorb half a chpt.
tts so bad!
frm today onwards, My Revision starts.
rachel bummed over last night (:
and we spent some time praying.
just praying n praying for almst everyone we knew.
today was rather amazing.
i didnt expect God to move tt mightily during pm.
but tts just my God.
i feel lyk having FUN now.
(:
smth lyk spending the night over at a playground.
just talking n looking at the stars.
with my best buddy.
tt wld be real nice!
tts my lovely squad.
i kindof miss them.
i was born to make you happy
i spent my ytd dwn in the library with rachel!
we sat there for hrs studying.
until it was ard 8pm.
my butt was so sore frm sitting manz.
and i only managed to absorb half a chpt.
tts so bad!
frm today onwards, My Revision starts.
rachel bummed over last night (:
and we spent some time praying.
just praying n praying for almst everyone we knew.
today was rather amazing.
i didnt expect God to move tt mightily during pm.
but tts just my God.
i feel lyk having FUN now.
(:
smth lyk spending the night over at a playground.
just talking n looking at the stars.
with my best buddy.
tt wld be real nice!
tts my lovely squad.
i kindof miss them.
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i was born to make you happy
Monday, June 12, 2006
13th June'06
how can things be when all you can take is just a little dose of it?
i woke at 7 plus plus today
but i was so tired.
beats me why i'm waking so early nowadays!
i think its a habit which my body has been going through everyday before the hols.
so i Forced myself to carry on sleeping.
HAHA
i had a very Weird n Scary dream.
it was smth abt the end times.
oh my mama.
i woke up with a Major headache
cause i was trying so hard to recall my dream while i was slping.
i wanted to rmb it so i can tell others wat i dreamnt.
and hopefully, someone can tell me the meaning behind all these.
so much for rmbing.
BIG Headache.
so here goes on wat i dreamnt.
it weas nearing the end times.
and just abt everywhere, there were ghosts.
my family n some church ppl were staying in this hotel.
but it was haunted n i had to slp in a room by myself.
No one believed me tt there were ghosts.
Just No one believed me.
how sad was tt.
i was Petrified.
the evil spirits attacked my mama.
wats worse was tt my dad didnt even noe abt the evil spirits.
and he Just embraced them.
i spoke in tongues, trying to chase thsoe monsters away.
but nth worked.
): i dunno why!
i was Damn scared lar.
so my dream continues.
we all went to this mall.
and woah.
there this Humongous stage in the middle of the whole mall.
it appears tt praise n worship was going to take place there.
its lyk everyone's going to gather n worship God there.
just lyk in the end times.
where everyone gathered n sing.
and den God came down.
but before the praise n worship started,
there were so many ppl roaming ard in tt mall.
including demons.
ppl were chasing demons.
or rather trying to reach out to anyone they saw in the mall who wasnt a chrisitan yet.
because there wanst much time left.
so many faces appeared in my dream.
faces lyk ppl frm cell, rachel, her church ppl.
my classmates.
there was this point where i saw this lil indian boy.
he was So cute.
and i tried to reach out to him.
but His dad rebuked me.
i felt my heart sink as i saw him walk away.
cause' he wasnt going to make it b4 christ came back dwn on earth.
i dunno why, i dreamnt of weide.
ahaha
he was trying to reach out to this friend of his who was demon possessed.
when i suddenly barged in to talk to him.
his friend ran away.
we cldnt find him after tt.
we never did.
and he never got saved.
it was all my fault!
wat am i dreaming leh?
someone please enlighten me.
i dun think i ever mention this before.
but there was once when junle appeared in my dream.
i dunno why or how.
but he was a black cat.
and when i stroke the cat, PROOF.
he became junle.
and he started attacking everybody in cell!
):
i noe its hilarious.
but scary too.
okay, enough of those thoughts.
gonna study n pray with rachel today!
i hope i get an explanation for this today.
words are limited
how can things be when all you can take is just a little dose of it?
i woke at 7 plus plus today
but i was so tired.
beats me why i'm waking so early nowadays!
i think its a habit which my body has been going through everyday before the hols.
so i Forced myself to carry on sleeping.
HAHA
i had a very Weird n Scary dream.
it was smth abt the end times.
oh my mama.
i woke up with a Major headache
cause i was trying so hard to recall my dream while i was slping.
i wanted to rmb it so i can tell others wat i dreamnt.
and hopefully, someone can tell me the meaning behind all these.
so much for rmbing.
BIG Headache.
so here goes on wat i dreamnt.
it weas nearing the end times.
and just abt everywhere, there were ghosts.
my family n some church ppl were staying in this hotel.
but it was haunted n i had to slp in a room by myself.
No one believed me tt there were ghosts.
Just No one believed me.
how sad was tt.
i was Petrified.
the evil spirits attacked my mama.
wats worse was tt my dad didnt even noe abt the evil spirits.
and he Just embraced them.
i spoke in tongues, trying to chase thsoe monsters away.
but nth worked.
): i dunno why!
i was Damn scared lar.
so my dream continues.
we all went to this mall.
and woah.
there this Humongous stage in the middle of the whole mall.
it appears tt praise n worship was going to take place there.
its lyk everyone's going to gather n worship God there.
just lyk in the end times.
where everyone gathered n sing.
and den God came down.
but before the praise n worship started,
there were so many ppl roaming ard in tt mall.
including demons.
ppl were chasing demons.
or rather trying to reach out to anyone they saw in the mall who wasnt a chrisitan yet.
because there wanst much time left.
so many faces appeared in my dream.
faces lyk ppl frm cell, rachel, her church ppl.
my classmates.
there was this point where i saw this lil indian boy.
he was So cute.
and i tried to reach out to him.
but His dad rebuked me.
i felt my heart sink as i saw him walk away.
cause' he wasnt going to make it b4 christ came back dwn on earth.
i dunno why, i dreamnt of weide.
ahaha
he was trying to reach out to this friend of his who was demon possessed.
when i suddenly barged in to talk to him.
his friend ran away.
we cldnt find him after tt.
we never did.
and he never got saved.
it was all my fault!
wat am i dreaming leh?
someone please enlighten me.
i dun think i ever mention this before.
but there was once when junle appeared in my dream.
i dunno why or how.
but he was a black cat.
and when i stroke the cat, PROOF.
he became junle.
and he started attacking everybody in cell!
):
i noe its hilarious.
but scary too.
okay, enough of those thoughts.
gonna study n pray with rachel today!
i hope i get an explanation for this today.
words are limited
12th June'06
i just read smth.
and it was So Touching.
ARH!
i cant take things tt are too overly emotional cause it gets me all affected.
i just want you to noe tt i treasure you as much as you do.
you will noe who i'm talking abt.
you're my BLESSING too
(:
praise God for everything you bring along.
funny how some ppl rrly Love you as much as you do towards them.
and how others treat lyk dirt.
or rather they dun even noe.
or maybe care.
but theres more to these.
its just too bad if they dont get it
this world is indeed colourful
i just read smth.
and it was So Touching.
ARH!
i cant take things tt are too overly emotional cause it gets me all affected.
i just want you to noe tt i treasure you as much as you do.
you will noe who i'm talking abt.
you're my BLESSING too
(:
praise God for everything you bring along.
funny how some ppl rrly Love you as much as you do towards them.
and how others treat lyk dirt.
or rather they dun even noe.
or maybe care.
but theres more to these.
its just too bad if they dont get it
this world is indeed colourful
Sunday, June 11, 2006
12th June'06
i wanna be Your hands,
cause' You complete my world.
hey world, the weekends have come n gone.
time Really does fly. and so quickly too.
sat's cell grp msg was just awesome.
many ppl thought it was too.
it has been a lil while since smth great impacted me.
the msg was smth abt True Friends.
as i was listening, smth hit me real real hard.
like i said, i'm so blessed by all these wonderful ppl ard me.
i think if i were to count my blessings i wont be able to finish counting.
and den theres this other thought,
cause' i've been lyk a "mother"/sister/confident/counsellor
however you want to call it,
to quite a few ppl.
theres no denial to tt.
and i felt so tired.
because it always seems lyk i'm giving n giving n giving, yet not receiving anyting back in return.
sometimes it just seems lyk the other person benefits everything while you rrly, actually lose out alot.
i'm serious.
but maybe its some thing i'm called to do.
cause i've got ppl coming to tell me that things tt seem to parallel wats happening in my life, together with wat God has spoken to me.
this aint bad.
i mean, rrly.
though it Really is tiring but i learnt tt theres always ppl out there whom God has specially sent for you to lean on.
whatever it is on this earth,
i'll embrace watever is to come.
have i ever told you that this world which my saviour created is So Beautiful?
sunday!
Sheena came for service (:
after so long, i didnt expect she wld actually set a feet into our church.
but hah, My God does great wonders
the ppl behind us were just So noisy throughout service.
thank God for smth call Love n Patience.
if not i wld have turn ard n shouted at them
it was Freezing inside Hall 1
and i think its Damn hilarious watching ppl
this guy in frnt of us, (i dun wnat to say his name!)
he was so cold tt he removed both hands frm his sleeves and hugged himself in the shirt.
you noe, the way a turtle does when it gets touched?
ahaha it was so funny, you got to see it for urself.
and he just kept shivering n shivering non stop.
Evan pay was another one.
she wore Three t shirts!
tt kiasu kiasi woman.
she wore Her extra tee n my tee
i had nth at all ):
so i placed my hands under my butt for Warmth.
it rrly does work okay
but a lil
HAHA
Sheena n i were laughing lyk crazy.
nxt week, i'll bring a Huge Jacket.
after service smth cropped up.
cause' we had to appear in Mufti for sec 4 farewell.
oh best.
wat a Late notice.
we were all alr in church.
and the only choice? go hme n get it.
boy, we were sulking lyk crazy.
hme's so Far! and i wanted to fellowship with my cell.
you noe, its been so long since we actually did. Together.
after all the rubbish commotion n scolding
we made our way hme.
we had No choice.
to be honest, i didnt feel a single bit lyk going.
cause i wanted badly to spend some precious time with cell.
plus, its not just N293 but N330 too.
its combine.
and the last time we went to east coast, i wasnt there too.
why am i missing so much?
maybe i'm such a fool that only i care abt this kindof thing.
but i realised how much cell actually mean to me.
i dun rrly care if i'm the only one.
but i realised the impt ytd.
though we arent exactly the perfect thing.
and just abt everything seems to be falling apart now.
plus, ppl frm all over the world wants this, wants tt.
theres to much needs to be met.
tgt with all the commitment.
i want to cling on to wats left.
its been six mths alr, and we dun seem to be growing watsoever.
but, God please do a miracle.
i noe smth great can come out frm all these.
went hme for Only 15 mins and den out again.
rush to sch n i was late!
i felt lyk a moron larh.
travel so much n so far.
but everything was great after tt.
its sec 4 farewell.
they changed my mood n everything.
i look at my squad ytd.
and rrly, they are Beauiful ppl.
and as i think back
i realised they did put in so mch effort, trying to help me out with the squad.
i noe i was so anti-social frm the beginning.
now tt everything has come to an end,
i realised tt i Love my squad (:
love is so commonly used by almst everybody.
but i rrly mean it.
thanks a million for always being supportive.
be it punishment or scoldings.
you guys just pulled them through so happily.
and i'll never forget thsoe times we succeeded.
when ppl thought we cldnt.
i feel lyk i'm gonna die soon.
cause' lately i've been appraciating just abt everything tt revolves ard me.
its lyk a thank you speech i'm writing everyday.
smth is wrong with me.
arh, but who cares?
i look at my life n count the blessings
each day it just seems fantastic.
the way He healed my throat.
the way He stopped the weather.
the way He change my friend's heart.
everything, just everything.
prayers work great wonders.
and one of my greatest barrier is praying.
i have tt phobia.
cause each time i close my eyes i'll start thinking of all the rubbish.
plus, those kindof spiritual n spirits stuff.
but
everything He has done in my life is SO AMAZING.
i feel so flattered n unworthy of them.
makes me want to bow down n sing of Your love forever.
i'm just an ordinary girl who serves an Extraordinary God.
and i'm loving it
sandy: you have no idea how much i miss you too. (: you make me feel comfy! ahaha
liyun: hey DUDE, great minds think alike! i was too lazy to care abt the font haha. keep
praying abt wat happened, God can tun things ard! you never ta bao the bbq food for me
HUH ):
i wanna be Your hands,
cause' You complete my world.
hey world, the weekends have come n gone.
time Really does fly. and so quickly too.
sat's cell grp msg was just awesome.
many ppl thought it was too.
it has been a lil while since smth great impacted me.
the msg was smth abt True Friends.
as i was listening, smth hit me real real hard.
like i said, i'm so blessed by all these wonderful ppl ard me.
i think if i were to count my blessings i wont be able to finish counting.
and den theres this other thought,
cause' i've been lyk a "mother"/sister/confident/counsellor
however you want to call it,
to quite a few ppl.
theres no denial to tt.
and i felt so tired.
because it always seems lyk i'm giving n giving n giving, yet not receiving anyting back in return.
sometimes it just seems lyk the other person benefits everything while you rrly, actually lose out alot.
i'm serious.
but maybe its some thing i'm called to do.
cause i've got ppl coming to tell me that things tt seem to parallel wats happening in my life, together with wat God has spoken to me.
this aint bad.
i mean, rrly.
though it Really is tiring but i learnt tt theres always ppl out there whom God has specially sent for you to lean on.
whatever it is on this earth,
i'll embrace watever is to come.
have i ever told you that this world which my saviour created is So Beautiful?
sunday!
Sheena came for service (:
after so long, i didnt expect she wld actually set a feet into our church.
but hah, My God does great wonders
the ppl behind us were just So noisy throughout service.
thank God for smth call Love n Patience.
if not i wld have turn ard n shouted at them
it was Freezing inside Hall 1
and i think its Damn hilarious watching ppl
this guy in frnt of us, (i dun wnat to say his name!)
he was so cold tt he removed both hands frm his sleeves and hugged himself in the shirt.
you noe, the way a turtle does when it gets touched?
ahaha it was so funny, you got to see it for urself.
and he just kept shivering n shivering non stop.
Evan pay was another one.
she wore Three t shirts!
tt kiasu kiasi woman.
she wore Her extra tee n my tee
i had nth at all ):
so i placed my hands under my butt for Warmth.
it rrly does work okay
but a lil
HAHA
Sheena n i were laughing lyk crazy.
nxt week, i'll bring a Huge Jacket.
after service smth cropped up.
cause' we had to appear in Mufti for sec 4 farewell.
oh best.
wat a Late notice.
we were all alr in church.
and the only choice? go hme n get it.
boy, we were sulking lyk crazy.
hme's so Far! and i wanted to fellowship with my cell.
you noe, its been so long since we actually did. Together.
after all the rubbish commotion n scolding
we made our way hme.
we had No choice.
to be honest, i didnt feel a single bit lyk going.
cause i wanted badly to spend some precious time with cell.
plus, its not just N293 but N330 too.
its combine.
and the last time we went to east coast, i wasnt there too.
why am i missing so much?
maybe i'm such a fool that only i care abt this kindof thing.
but i realised how much cell actually mean to me.
i dun rrly care if i'm the only one.
but i realised the impt ytd.
though we arent exactly the perfect thing.
and just abt everything seems to be falling apart now.
plus, ppl frm all over the world wants this, wants tt.
theres to much needs to be met.
tgt with all the commitment.
i want to cling on to wats left.
its been six mths alr, and we dun seem to be growing watsoever.
but, God please do a miracle.
i noe smth great can come out frm all these.
went hme for Only 15 mins and den out again.
rush to sch n i was late!
i felt lyk a moron larh.
travel so much n so far.
but everything was great after tt.
its sec 4 farewell.
they changed my mood n everything.
i look at my squad ytd.
and rrly, they are Beauiful ppl.
and as i think back
i realised they did put in so mch effort, trying to help me out with the squad.
i noe i was so anti-social frm the beginning.
now tt everything has come to an end,
i realised tt i Love my squad (:
love is so commonly used by almst everybody.
but i rrly mean it.
thanks a million for always being supportive.
be it punishment or scoldings.
you guys just pulled them through so happily.
and i'll never forget thsoe times we succeeded.
when ppl thought we cldnt.
i feel lyk i'm gonna die soon.
cause' lately i've been appraciating just abt everything tt revolves ard me.
its lyk a thank you speech i'm writing everyday.
smth is wrong with me.
arh, but who cares?
i look at my life n count the blessings
each day it just seems fantastic.
the way He healed my throat.
the way He stopped the weather.
the way He change my friend's heart.
everything, just everything.
prayers work great wonders.
and one of my greatest barrier is praying.
i have tt phobia.
cause each time i close my eyes i'll start thinking of all the rubbish.
plus, those kindof spiritual n spirits stuff.
but
everything He has done in my life is SO AMAZING.
i feel so flattered n unworthy of them.
makes me want to bow down n sing of Your love forever.
i'm just an ordinary girl who serves an Extraordinary God.
and i'm loving it
sandy: you have no idea how much i miss you too. (: you make me feel comfy! ahaha
liyun: hey DUDE, great minds think alike! i was too lazy to care abt the font haha. keep
praying abt wat happened, God can tun things ard! you never ta bao the bbq food for me
HUH ):
Saturday, June 10, 2006
10th June'06
you took me out of control
you said that we'll all pull through this together.
dont lie.
cause i've never stopped trusting you frm the very first day.
i trust tt you wont fall the way you did sosososo long ago.
and i trust tt you're big enough to noe wats right and wats not.
though i wont deny tt i myself am not sure at times.
but at least the path you're taking now is the right one.
dont turn back.
its not for selfish reasons.
but i dont hope to see you falling again.
aloha.
hey world.
today's great (:
i like tt warm n fuzzy feeling which i've been missing So Much.
show me how to LOVE more and more and more and more
mk: yea! she's the Man! :D i wnna catch it with YOU guys
liyun: haha i'm glad tt i did. you mean lots to me too. you noe it
the GReat: yea, you are. cause' God's creations' always great! haha you are?
you took me out of control
you said that we'll all pull through this together.
dont lie.
cause i've never stopped trusting you frm the very first day.
i trust tt you wont fall the way you did sosososo long ago.
and i trust tt you're big enough to noe wats right and wats not.
though i wont deny tt i myself am not sure at times.
but at least the path you're taking now is the right one.
dont turn back.
its not for selfish reasons.
but i dont hope to see you falling again.
aloha.
hey world.
today's great (:
i like tt warm n fuzzy feeling which i've been missing So Much.
show me how to LOVE more and more and more and more
mk: yea! she's the Man! :D i wnna catch it with YOU guys
liyun: haha i'm glad tt i did. you mean lots to me too. you noe it
the GReat: yea, you are. cause' God's creations' always great! haha you are?
Friday, June 09, 2006
9th June '06
"if love is a game, then i never won"
this was said by someone.
i think its rather dumb.
Haha.
lose den dont play lar.
why do you still keep playing den?
it doesnt make sense to me.
alright.
its a friday! (:
and you noe wats so great abt today?
no more sch for the nxt Two weeks.
the weekends are Here.
and the past few days have made me feel so Loved by ppl ard me.
this is Rather cool.
thank you once again,
for making my day!
i didnt go to the library with Rachel today.
i didnt have the mood to.
but i felt so bad n guilty leaving bestie alone.
tt woman has been So Extremely Lazy for the past few days lar.
despite all the morning calls i gave her she still cldnt come to sch on time.
she woke up when i called.
and guess wat, she fell back asleep after hanging up.
how useless n dumb can you get larh.
wat a Moron.
just ytd she told me she blogged smth abt me.
but smth happened, and it was gone.
just when you're getting all sweet n nice it disappears.
oh wow.
haha but i really thank God for you (:
i've been rather emotional now a days.
not my fault!
these emo feeling, i believe is not easy to control.
so oh well,
lets just say wat i want to say
i didnt expect us to get so close.
but i guess its all God's plan cause' we've known each other
7563026980029205 years ago.
lyk since primary one!
its not coincidence.
its purely planned n crafted put by God.
wats more, you've been sucha great encourager to me.
yays!
i dun want to say anymore.
i feel so Weird.
ahahaa
its time tt i hit the books and do all i can to brush up.
these lousy results wont do.
and wat sarah said made me wake up.
who wants a Stupid pastor?
or rather, who wld believe a stupid pastor?
and even though its not a pastor tt i'm gonna be,
who wants a stupid missionary? or a counsellor.
nobody.
i think i better do smth.
i like the feeling of standing on top of the bench table in science lab!
ahaha
i noe i sound so Dumb.
but it was so fun.
i cant help but do wats done.
:D
i miss Jue and Cmk
though i see them alsmt everyday in sch.
i miss their company.
cause those stupid ppl.
i dunno why or how.
or maybe we're all too senseless in sch.
it seems lyk we're always so near yet so far.
ahaha
tough to explain.
anyhow, praise God!
my hols officially starts Here.
i decided to think only on the bright side.
think Happy thoughts n not those sad ones.
think think think.
just a moment ago while i was crossing the road.
i thought of someone's smile.
it was so beautiful.
maybe i'll show someone some day.
and you've got to agreee with me.
it makes my heart melt.
no one really knows why this is happening.
liyun: den we'll come up with a New Name. sounds great right!?
liying: it took me a while to figure out who you were! haha hey there (: i still rmb you
[na]: hey, let me ask you a qns. who are you? Haha
"if love is a game, then i never won"
this was said by someone.
i think its rather dumb.
Haha.
lose den dont play lar.
why do you still keep playing den?
it doesnt make sense to me.
alright.
its a friday! (:
and you noe wats so great abt today?
no more sch for the nxt Two weeks.
the weekends are Here.
and the past few days have made me feel so Loved by ppl ard me.
this is Rather cool.
thank you once again,
for making my day!
i didnt go to the library with Rachel today.
i didnt have the mood to.
but i felt so bad n guilty leaving bestie alone.
tt woman has been So Extremely Lazy for the past few days lar.
despite all the morning calls i gave her she still cldnt come to sch on time.
she woke up when i called.
and guess wat, she fell back asleep after hanging up.
how useless n dumb can you get larh.
wat a Moron.
just ytd she told me she blogged smth abt me.
but smth happened, and it was gone.
just when you're getting all sweet n nice it disappears.
oh wow.
haha but i really thank God for you (:
i've been rather emotional now a days.
not my fault!
these emo feeling, i believe is not easy to control.
so oh well,
lets just say wat i want to say
i didnt expect us to get so close.
but i guess its all God's plan cause' we've known each other
7563026980029205 years ago.
lyk since primary one!
its not coincidence.
its purely planned n crafted put by God.
wats more, you've been sucha great encourager to me.
yays!
i dun want to say anymore.
i feel so Weird.
ahahaa
its time tt i hit the books and do all i can to brush up.
these lousy results wont do.
and wat sarah said made me wake up.
who wants a Stupid pastor?
or rather, who wld believe a stupid pastor?
and even though its not a pastor tt i'm gonna be,
who wants a stupid missionary? or a counsellor.
nobody.
i think i better do smth.
i like the feeling of standing on top of the bench table in science lab!
ahaha
i noe i sound so Dumb.
but it was so fun.
i cant help but do wats done.
:D
i miss Jue and Cmk
though i see them alsmt everyday in sch.
i miss their company.
cause those stupid ppl.
i dunno why or how.
or maybe we're all too senseless in sch.
it seems lyk we're always so near yet so far.
ahaha
tough to explain.
anyhow, praise God!
my hols officially starts Here.
i decided to think only on the bright side.
think Happy thoughts n not those sad ones.
think think think.
just a moment ago while i was crossing the road.
i thought of someone's smile.
it was so beautiful.
maybe i'll show someone some day.
and you've got to agreee with me.
it makes my heart melt.
no one really knows why this is happening.
liyun: den we'll come up with a New Name. sounds great right!?
liying: it took me a while to figure out who you were! haha hey there (: i still rmb you
[na]: hey, let me ask you a qns. who are you? Haha
Thursday, June 08, 2006
8th June'06
every princess has a knight.
and you still need to qualify.
i need to pee real badly.
HAHA
seriously, but apparently i am too lazy to get up frm my chair.
i realised my blog's rather dull.
so here goes some colours!
and more colours
and More Colours!
hah.
a little change will do the trick.
(:
praise God for Everything!
just abt Everything in My Life.
so here goes wat happens/happened:
firstly,
we had prayer meeting ytd!
and yea, i forgot to mention this ytd in here.
how cld i forget?! just how cld i.
i was having sorethroat ytd and it was real bad.
but after prayer meeting, guess wat!?
it was almst gone.
just how amazing my God can get?
and it was after prayer meeting.
everyone noes tt you need ur Voice to pray.
yet instead of getting worse, it got better.
(:
secondly,
it happened today in the morning.
i was on my way to sch when i realised it was pouring heavily.
oh great.
i didnt have any umbrella.
Of course i had No raincoat either.
so i prayed.
only a little.
and wats so amazing was tt when i stepped out of the train,
Proof!
rain's gone.
everything's gone.
its was bright n sunny.
i felt so happy manz.
i almst jumped for joy!
you seee
just look n see.
i feel soso flattered.
theres this song that goes,
"to think that the universe cld withhold ur Glory. still you chose to live in me"
its not lyk i've been an Awesome servant lately.
to be honest,
i havent exactly been reading the bible lately.
plus, theres so mnay times i nearly gave up.
its just tiring at times.
plain tiring.
but My Saviour is so faithful to me.
no matter wat happens, He's still there.
makes me want to press on even more.
makes me want to bow down and worship Him forever.
thank you so so much.
i went shopping with ALTHEA today (:
shop for sec four farewell gifts.
we toured n toured n toured.
frm ps to bugis and then we were too lazy to get anywhere else.
all the stuff were just so expensive and we did not have much.
we nearly gave up.
but woohoo
praise God, we found smth Nice n Cheap in the end.
cause' Althea prayed!
and i didnt even noe tt.
Althea, Altheee.
you noe sometimes, i rrly thank God for such a friend lyk you.
for being such a Great encourager all the time.
the way you're so on fire.
and how you're just so gifted in guitar.
for teaching me how to play all this while.
and tt cheerful character of urs which never Fails to light up a smile
these words are frm my heart.
you better listen up!
cause' i dun do this often.
heh
i've been rrly grateful for someone lyk you all these while.
(:
people always tell me that this is part of the plan. and so it is. bring it on.
liyun: hah! i dun want to change tt word. cause i miss those times! soso much
Althea: hey there (:
every princess has a knight.
and you still need to qualify.
i need to pee real badly.
HAHA
seriously, but apparently i am too lazy to get up frm my chair.
i realised my blog's rather dull.
so here goes some colours!
and more colours
and More Colours!
hah.
a little change will do the trick.
(:
praise God for Everything!
just abt Everything in My Life.
so here goes wat happens/happened:
firstly,
we had prayer meeting ytd!
and yea, i forgot to mention this ytd in here.
how cld i forget?! just how cld i.
i was having sorethroat ytd and it was real bad.
but after prayer meeting, guess wat!?
it was almst gone.
just how amazing my God can get?
and it was after prayer meeting.
everyone noes tt you need ur Voice to pray.
yet instead of getting worse, it got better.
(:
secondly,
it happened today in the morning.
i was on my way to sch when i realised it was pouring heavily.
oh great.
i didnt have any umbrella.
Of course i had No raincoat either.
so i prayed.
only a little.
and wats so amazing was tt when i stepped out of the train,
Proof!
rain's gone.
everything's gone.
its was bright n sunny.
i felt so happy manz.
i almst jumped for joy!
you seee
just look n see.
i feel soso flattered.
theres this song that goes,
"to think that the universe cld withhold ur Glory. still you chose to live in me"
its not lyk i've been an Awesome servant lately.
to be honest,
i havent exactly been reading the bible lately.
plus, theres so mnay times i nearly gave up.
its just tiring at times.
plain tiring.
but My Saviour is so faithful to me.
no matter wat happens, He's still there.
makes me want to press on even more.
makes me want to bow down and worship Him forever.
thank you so so much.
i went shopping with ALTHEA today (:
shop for sec four farewell gifts.
we toured n toured n toured.
frm ps to bugis and then we were too lazy to get anywhere else.
all the stuff were just so expensive and we did not have much.
we nearly gave up.
but woohoo
praise God, we found smth Nice n Cheap in the end.
cause' Althea prayed!
and i didnt even noe tt.
Althea, Altheee.
you noe sometimes, i rrly thank God for such a friend lyk you.
for being such a Great encourager all the time.
the way you're so on fire.
and how you're just so gifted in guitar.
for teaching me how to play all this while.
and tt cheerful character of urs which never Fails to light up a smile
these words are frm my heart.
you better listen up!
cause' i dun do this often.
heh
i've been rrly grateful for someone lyk you all these while.
(:
people always tell me that this is part of the plan. and so it is. bring it on.
liyun: hah! i dun want to change tt word. cause i miss those times! soso much
Althea: hey there (:
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
7th June'06
a whole new world
a new fantastic point of view
no one to tell us no
or where to go
or say we're only dreaming
i Am TIRED!
i'm like a working horse. i feel so tired!
plus, it matches to wat they call me in sch.
my nick name.
HAW HAW
anyhow.
i realised i havent gotten a single day of rest yet for the whole week.
emerge, sch, bball, shopping, prayer meeting.
and i've got to get sec four presents tmr.
you see the result of enjoying urself too much.
i dun feel lyk getting stuff tmr.
i am BROkE ):
and i dun feel lyk going for the farewell thingy on sunday.
they're gonna get dwn to east coast.
i like!
but its sec 4 farewell.
so,
tt beats everything else i guess.
did i mention i saw this Beauutiful skirt at ps?
NICE
i never thought i wld come to the extend of blogging on Skirts.
HAH
everyone's got to be girly someday right?
oh well.
i need to save up
uh huh
my grp's decided on the dress code for the music marathon thingy alr.
they want to dress ALL WHITE.
as in, WHITE top, WHITE skirt.
imagine 20 plus of us perfroming in millenium walk lyk tt.
its lyk a funeral ceremony!
and how can you possibly wear a skirt if you're playing guitar!?
eh! i object!
Rachel and i want to Cross-dress
oh manz, tt had be So SO COOL.
why doesnt the world have Nice taste lyk Us?
HAW HAW
i lyk those two words.
so cute!
tts wat jolene has been saying non-stop online to me.
tt funny Woman.
(:
you make me smile
i feel rather weird on the inside of me.
why am i letting myself feel this way?
this is so terrible.
i feel so weird, i can just drop dead and die.
either tt or encounter a black out.
tt way, i dun have to face this anymore.
i'll just stick to smiling and laughing.
cause i realised tts the best cure for almst anything and everything under the sun.
i wanna get out of her. NOW
):
a whole new world
a new fantastic point of view
no one to tell us no
or where to go
or say we're only dreaming
i Am TIRED!
i'm like a working horse. i feel so tired!
plus, it matches to wat they call me in sch.
my nick name.
HAW HAW
anyhow.
i realised i havent gotten a single day of rest yet for the whole week.
emerge, sch, bball, shopping, prayer meeting.
and i've got to get sec four presents tmr.
you see the result of enjoying urself too much.
i dun feel lyk getting stuff tmr.
i am BROkE ):
and i dun feel lyk going for the farewell thingy on sunday.
they're gonna get dwn to east coast.
i like!
but its sec 4 farewell.
so,
tt beats everything else i guess.
did i mention i saw this Beauutiful skirt at ps?
NICE
i never thought i wld come to the extend of blogging on Skirts.
HAH
everyone's got to be girly someday right?
oh well.
i need to save up
uh huh
my grp's decided on the dress code for the music marathon thingy alr.
they want to dress ALL WHITE.
as in, WHITE top, WHITE skirt.
imagine 20 plus of us perfroming in millenium walk lyk tt.
its lyk a funeral ceremony!
and how can you possibly wear a skirt if you're playing guitar!?
eh! i object!
Rachel and i want to Cross-dress
oh manz, tt had be So SO COOL.
why doesnt the world have Nice taste lyk Us?
HAW HAW
i lyk those two words.
so cute!
tts wat jolene has been saying non-stop online to me.
tt funny Woman.
(:
you make me smile
i feel rather weird on the inside of me.
why am i letting myself feel this way?
this is so terrible.
i feel so weird, i can just drop dead and die.
either tt or encounter a black out.
tt way, i dun have to face this anymore.
i'll just stick to smiling and laughing.
cause i realised tts the best cure for almst anything and everything under the sun.
i wanna get out of her. NOW
):
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Monday, June 05, 2006
6th June'06
the past few days have been more or less, great.
many things happened. both good and bad.
i realised tt after the many days of sessions n hanging out together,
we clicked better.
i felt the bonds attracting each other.
and yea, lets agree together,
this is so cool.
haha
i realised that its been 6 mths alr.
Six. time flies pretty fast.
if given a choice, i wld definitely grab the opportunity and start it off all right.
but of course, its impossible.
so i guess we'll just do it off frm here.
if everything is God's plans, all Will be fine.
God touched me in a diff way this time.
it so amazing. (:
i've always had this image of the whole world worshipping my saviour.
and my saviour brought me up with Him,
to show me the whole world. and there i saw how great He is, how Awesome my Saviour's power is.
though i've yet to see it.
His promise, this i've kept.
i noe i'll see it one day (:
for now, i'll just keep my cool and keep believing, while allowing the other part of the world revolve ard me.
during this emerge,
i had no parental objection!
if you realised, i guess i've more or less overcame it.
usually i wld have to sleep over and probably rephrase my words in a way they wld accept.
soemtimes, even lie.
but it wasnt the same this time.
somehow, it wasnt tt tough anymore.
though smth cropped up on the second last night.
they were so furious and mad, they wanted to stop me frm attending the last session.
but God's presence was just so powerful during the morning session the day before.
He told me to pray and pray and pray and believe in Him cause' my prayer walk hadnt been good.
and so i did.
and prayers change things.
i was able to go for the Last session (:
wats more amazing was tt i heard Him speaking,
right into my heart.
" my child, i noe you questioned tt why is it things were going so well, and then all of a sudden you cldnt go for the last session. but you noe wat? everything happens for a reason. i allowed it to happen because i wanted you to pray. i wanted you to be an overcomer. pray and revive your own prayer life. and just look at urself. you Prayed. and now you've overcome. i'm so proud of you"
i was so amazed tt i didnt noe wat to say.
i just dwelled in His hse, giving thanks.
had sch ytd and i had hardly any voice left.
i woke up with those songs going on in my head.
it was beauutiful.
we got back our results for mid year.
oh Boy, it wasnt good at all.
i failed A maths. --38 plus plus
i had a C5 for english
and a B4 for maths i think.
so many ppl were crying.
and when i found out Why they were crying,
guess wat.
they Passed their A maths and they did so much better den me.
and there they were, crying.
and i was sitting with some crazy ppl laughing away.
we had Lousy results and we were alughing away.
i think smth seriously is wrong.
i didnt noe if i shld laugh or cry.
or maybe its the assurance tt everything will be fine.
as long as i trust God.
haha
anyhow, i made a Deal tt i'm gonna study Damn hard.
lets do it together.
smth little happened ytd.
cause' i was with Rach n liyun at j8.
we were walking when i suddenly had this thought:
" what if we bumped into tt Catholic High guy?"
he was this guy whom i Always see in the train in the morning.
he's..Nice.
haha
you noe wat i mean.
but the amazing thing isnt him, its wat happened a little while later.
guess wat, we rrly bumped into him.
i was so shocked.
of course, you noe, all the rubbish.
i pointed to the two reatards who he was.
and they just kept insulting my taste.
AIYA.
i have a diff taste okay.
anyhow, That Isnt the point.
the point is, i dunno.
maybe its Guard feeling, or instinct, or maybe, even God.
theres a second part to it,
so here goes,
after a while, Rach left for home.
liyun n i decided to walk ard a lil while more.
and i had this other thought:
"what if we bumped in to someone related to Rach? lyk her brother?"
woah guess wat.
a few steps later,
we Bumped Into Him.
it was so scary.
i almst screamed and ran away.
but at the same time, aint it cool.
i am so amazed by God's power.
after these years of studying, maybe its bible sch.
i've been having dreams lately.
dreams of some ppl, mostly the same ppl.
dreams of some ppl's secret
but i dun seem to rmb any of them clearly.
wait till i'm able to recall each of them clearly.
i realised, that i'm an introvert!
haha
yes. i'm not kidding.
we went to Dunk balls ytd.
and we played with the little kiddies.
now tt the hols are here, i've been enjoying Tons and dreaming lots.
theres so many places we want to go for mission trips.
Africa.
Cambodia.
Thailand.
Zimbabwe.
we'll get our own team. hike our bags and go off together.
tt had be Real cool.
(:
at least now i noe what means to me and what doesnt.
the past few days have been more or less, great.
many things happened. both good and bad.
i realised tt after the many days of sessions n hanging out together,
we clicked better.
i felt the bonds attracting each other.
and yea, lets agree together,
this is so cool.
haha
i realised that its been 6 mths alr.
Six. time flies pretty fast.
if given a choice, i wld definitely grab the opportunity and start it off all right.
but of course, its impossible.
so i guess we'll just do it off frm here.
if everything is God's plans, all Will be fine.
God touched me in a diff way this time.
it so amazing. (:
i've always had this image of the whole world worshipping my saviour.
and my saviour brought me up with Him,
to show me the whole world. and there i saw how great He is, how Awesome my Saviour's power is.
though i've yet to see it.
His promise, this i've kept.
i noe i'll see it one day (:
for now, i'll just keep my cool and keep believing, while allowing the other part of the world revolve ard me.
during this emerge,
i had no parental objection!
if you realised, i guess i've more or less overcame it.
usually i wld have to sleep over and probably rephrase my words in a way they wld accept.
soemtimes, even lie.
but it wasnt the same this time.
somehow, it wasnt tt tough anymore.
though smth cropped up on the second last night.
they were so furious and mad, they wanted to stop me frm attending the last session.
but God's presence was just so powerful during the morning session the day before.
He told me to pray and pray and pray and believe in Him cause' my prayer walk hadnt been good.
and so i did.
and prayers change things.
i was able to go for the Last session (:
wats more amazing was tt i heard Him speaking,
right into my heart.
" my child, i noe you questioned tt why is it things were going so well, and then all of a sudden you cldnt go for the last session. but you noe wat? everything happens for a reason. i allowed it to happen because i wanted you to pray. i wanted you to be an overcomer. pray and revive your own prayer life. and just look at urself. you Prayed. and now you've overcome. i'm so proud of you"
i was so amazed tt i didnt noe wat to say.
i just dwelled in His hse, giving thanks.
had sch ytd and i had hardly any voice left.
i woke up with those songs going on in my head.
it was beauutiful.
we got back our results for mid year.
oh Boy, it wasnt good at all.
i failed A maths. --38 plus plus
i had a C5 for english
and a B4 for maths i think.
so many ppl were crying.
and when i found out Why they were crying,
guess wat.
they Passed their A maths and they did so much better den me.
and there they were, crying.
and i was sitting with some crazy ppl laughing away.
we had Lousy results and we were alughing away.
i think smth seriously is wrong.
i didnt noe if i shld laugh or cry.
or maybe its the assurance tt everything will be fine.
as long as i trust God.
haha
anyhow, i made a Deal tt i'm gonna study Damn hard.
lets do it together.
smth little happened ytd.
cause' i was with Rach n liyun at j8.
we were walking when i suddenly had this thought:
" what if we bumped into tt Catholic High guy?"
he was this guy whom i Always see in the train in the morning.
he's..Nice.
haha
you noe wat i mean.
but the amazing thing isnt him, its wat happened a little while later.
guess wat, we rrly bumped into him.
i was so shocked.
of course, you noe, all the rubbish.
i pointed to the two reatards who he was.
and they just kept insulting my taste.
AIYA.
i have a diff taste okay.
anyhow, That Isnt the point.
the point is, i dunno.
maybe its Guard feeling, or instinct, or maybe, even God.
theres a second part to it,
so here goes,
after a while, Rach left for home.
liyun n i decided to walk ard a lil while more.
and i had this other thought:
"what if we bumped in to someone related to Rach? lyk her brother?"
woah guess wat.
a few steps later,
we Bumped Into Him.
it was so scary.
i almst screamed and ran away.
but at the same time, aint it cool.
i am so amazed by God's power.
after these years of studying, maybe its bible sch.
i've been having dreams lately.
dreams of some ppl, mostly the same ppl.
dreams of some ppl's secret
but i dun seem to rmb any of them clearly.
wait till i'm able to recall each of them clearly.
i realised, that i'm an introvert!
haha
yes. i'm not kidding.
we went to Dunk balls ytd.
and we played with the little kiddies.
now tt the hols are here, i've been enjoying Tons and dreaming lots.
theres so many places we want to go for mission trips.
Africa.
Cambodia.
Thailand.
Zimbabwe.
we'll get our own team. hike our bags and go off together.
tt had be Real cool.
(:
at least now i noe what means to me and what doesnt.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
1st June'06
i can only imagine. but that alone Is Enough.
i am fine (:
yes
heard before of sunshine after rain?
maybe i wasnt wrong int eh very beginning.
but anyhow, i feel Great.
i wont tell you how,
but Jesus did smth miraculous in Me.
so i say it again that Rainbowed-Coloured braces are so Cool!
i Want! but i cant.
):
makes me want to sing for eternity
i can only imagine. but that alone Is Enough.
i am fine (:
yes
heard before of sunshine after rain?
maybe i wasnt wrong int eh very beginning.
but anyhow, i feel Great.
i wont tell you how,
but Jesus did smth miraculous in Me.
so i say it again that Rainbowed-Coloured braces are so Cool!
i Want! but i cant.
):
makes me want to sing for eternity
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
30th May'06
she said, she's had enough.
i'm supposed to blog on happy things.
but then smth happened.
and it made me sad.
Real sad.
i wished i was more angry than sad.
i feel like crying.
No one Seems to Care anymore.
or rather, they say that they care.
but they cant be there.
its the same.
its almst the same.
because i feel like i'm doing everything.
me and her.
i really dont know what to say when she feels down too.
just just now, she was complaining to me.
she was telling me how upset she was.
i didnt noe how to reply.
i wanted to cheer her up real badly.
but i just cldnt get the words out of my mouth.
because i was feeling the same way as her.
it seems like we're the only living human being on earth who's existing.
before hearts are hardened and tears are shed.
i hope to see smth changing.
i dont think we both can hold on much longer.
because i've seen her cried.
and i've seen myself cried.
i know we're both trying hard not to break.
its easy to tell.
before anything Else goes wrong.
please please please, make things change for the better.
please.
she said, she's had enough.
i'm supposed to blog on happy things.
but then smth happened.
and it made me sad.
Real sad.
i wished i was more angry than sad.
i feel like crying.
No one Seems to Care anymore.
or rather, they say that they care.
but they cant be there.
its the same.
its almst the same.
because i feel like i'm doing everything.
me and her.
i really dont know what to say when she feels down too.
just just now, she was complaining to me.
she was telling me how upset she was.
i didnt noe how to reply.
i wanted to cheer her up real badly.
but i just cldnt get the words out of my mouth.
because i was feeling the same way as her.
it seems like we're the only living human being on earth who's existing.
before hearts are hardened and tears are shed.
i hope to see smth changing.
i dont think we both can hold on much longer.
because i've seen her cried.
and i've seen myself cried.
i know we're both trying hard not to break.
its easy to tell.
before anything Else goes wrong.
please please please, make things change for the better.
please.
Monday, May 29, 2006
29th May'06
there goes mt O's!
i just want to say, thank you for guiding me through (:
paper one was rather tough.
i was half asleep throughout the whole process.
doing tt paper was Torturing.
but anyhow, i made it out alive.
paper 2 was manageable.
at least it was do-able.
i am alive! and i am rejoicing.
one down.
a few more to go!
received So many msgs ytd n this morning.
telling me all the best.
((:
THANKYOU!
let me tell you how it goes,
each time i receive a msg, i read and i smile!
it creates a warm fuzzy feeling noeing tt ppl Care.
i know you do. and i care too
went to dunk balls over at rach's place.
i injured my thumb!
shoots. it hurts lyk crazy.
and it isnt the first time i've tortured myself.
i decided.
i am so going to train and exercise More.
i wan smth to do with sports! (:
i just realised tt Gb sec 4 farewell is on the 11th.
tell me wat i shld do.
and wat i shld chose?
right up, the hols ARE here.
can you believe it!?
no. i can't.
just this morning i was pinching myself.
time seems to fly So So Fast.
i cldnt believe tt i was sitting for chinese O's alr.
my precious one mth.
i've learn to spend time wisely.
things tt i wanna do:
-Study HARD
-bball (:
-cycling at east coast
-beach
-wildwildwet
-shopping
-out with joby n junling, definitely
i guess tts abt it for now.
my stomach's hurting lyk crazy.
i think smth is wrong.
it has been lyk this for Days.
it has got to be smth lyk that. pretty. Nice. Sweet. in a way that only i noe.
thank you very much
we can't go back, it won't be the same
there goes mt O's!
i just want to say, thank you for guiding me through (:
paper one was rather tough.
i was half asleep throughout the whole process.
doing tt paper was Torturing.
but anyhow, i made it out alive.
paper 2 was manageable.
at least it was do-able.
i am alive! and i am rejoicing.
one down.
a few more to go!
received So many msgs ytd n this morning.
telling me all the best.
((:
THANKYOU!
let me tell you how it goes,
each time i receive a msg, i read and i smile!
it creates a warm fuzzy feeling noeing tt ppl Care.
i know you do. and i care too
went to dunk balls over at rach's place.
i injured my thumb!
shoots. it hurts lyk crazy.
and it isnt the first time i've tortured myself.
i decided.
i am so going to train and exercise More.
i wan smth to do with sports! (:
i just realised tt Gb sec 4 farewell is on the 11th.
tell me wat i shld do.
and wat i shld chose?
right up, the hols ARE here.
can you believe it!?
no. i can't.
just this morning i was pinching myself.
time seems to fly So So Fast.
i cldnt believe tt i was sitting for chinese O's alr.
my precious one mth.
i've learn to spend time wisely.
things tt i wanna do:
-Study HARD
-bball (:
-cycling at east coast
-beach
-wildwildwet
-shopping
-out with joby n junling, definitely
i guess tts abt it for now.
my stomach's hurting lyk crazy.
i think smth is wrong.
it has been lyk this for Days.
it has got to be smth lyk that. pretty. Nice. Sweet. in a way that only i noe.
thank you very much
we can't go back, it won't be the same
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