shopped with mum today and bought a few tops(: woww, so happy that Great Singapore Sales is here!!
i went to SIM to apply today. made me miss school life a whole lot. miss my secondary and jc friends too. i seriously cant wait to start school!!!!! love my daddy and mummy for asking me to apply into SIM UB. its such a big sum of money that im alrdy feeling the stress even before i start studying. but i promise that i'll put in the Best that i can and probably even get the scholarship(: score well and get in nus for my masters. who says i can never study in there? if not now then the future(: anywaysss. i still have a few more days to submit my appeals to the local uni. feeling uncertain abt what to write. i'll use the next few days to ponder over it (:

AC has come and gone, very glad that i caught the fire in the midst of the crowd and so many events. JUNE is gonna be one very extremely busy yet powerful month. can you feel it? i can feel it cominggg!!! Xiong man. but in the midst of it all, God let me be faithful to pray, fast and seek you and not let this month pass me by. yes, i know This will be the month of breakthroughs!

talk about being Bold and daring to dream again. tell me about it..
oh God, set me on fire once again.

dear God,
is it too late for a miracle?

"A merry heart does good, like medicine, But a broken spirit dries the bones."
-Proverbs 17:22

At times like this, i need to constantly remind and tell myself that the Joy the Lord is and shall be my strength. all else doesnt matter. doesnt matter anymore.

ive been reading up on the various courses in ntu, sim.. and the more i read the more i want to study psy. whether is it visiting prisons or working in hospitals, just somewhere where i can interact and impact society. it will be Awesome if i can just land safely into one local uni. only believee.

very nervous/excited/happy about multiplication. not that i dont have the reassurances. i just need to embrace myself and march forward bravely. i may not be the best or the most talented in many areas but if theres one thing that i can be, like me be the one to say that i'll try my best and sacrifice what i have. i truly believe that God sees and rewards faithfulness. and like what pastor bobby said, i wanna be a Bu Dao Weng. who jumps back up whenever something hits it. and carrying that same big smile on its face comewhatmay.

Okayy, exciting AC is in two days! got to brace myself up and receive all that i can till my cup runneths over!
GO FIONA!
i will open up and Recieve!!

feeling so much more organized after printing the checklist of the mountain of books which ive to conquer for sot. (this is seriously crazy!!) preaching test is in about a month's time which wld most prob coincide with the time we multiply. this is really one busy month, sometimes i find it so hard to keep up and catch up on sleeepp! i find it hard to flow with hs when im tired n weary. plus, i dont want to have another auntie offering me her seat!
but above it all, God is good((:
been checking up on private unis recently.
Faith is expecting the best and preparing for the worst. im still believing for nus AMEN!
feeling much more organized after doing my research and staying home just to show my presence to my parents. even if it means having to sacrifice some fellowship time with boss and the cell ): but i think its good to spend time at home as well.

almost 1am. need to sleep!!

God works in mysetrious ways.

ytd i was just having bs with sharmaine when the woman beside us asked which church we were from. turned out that she was from chc too and she's been looking for a cellgrp for her student! and so.. to cut the long story short, her student came down to cathay that day n we sat down to chat and she's joining us for svc tmr! it all happened so fast that i found it hard to believe. and it was only on my way back that it dawned on me how much God loves and cares for my ministry. funny how He can supernaturally bring the numbers in for me. i feel.. reassured. and also, how much He loves that girl, knowing that she was seeking for Him, He went to sought her first. my Daddy's Amazing (:

last night i dreamnt of demons possessing humans. ): been having these quite frequently and sometimes i feel as though i havent been resting as much as i shld have bcause of disturbed sleep. Horriblee. plus the tuition lessons etc, i keep dozing off in school this week. my leader says i keep "nodding in agreement" during class! feeling so Embarrassed :/ but im Okay(: i guess thats the way satan attacks me and my rest. haha my spirit man's larger than this!

Snowcity was really fun today! freezing cold and fun slopes(: i reallyreally want to save up to buy a camera so my future cg and i can take super duper uber many shots together(: and i wanna save up for an ipod classic too. for musics, sermons and videos. $$!!!
headache please go awayyy.

In the storms and raging currents, i know You are there.

)':
i just need to grab hold of your hand.

Dreams

these are the desires in my heart God, only you know them.
these are the Dreams that i have.
i really want to live my dreams.

God, give me a broken heart. not my will but yours. i need some direction.

Believe

was just blog hopping when i came across Edmund Tay's blog with this post:
http://www.edunloaded.com/parenting/goodnight-baby/
so sweet (:
hahaha very random i know but im so curious and excited abt what will happen 10 years from now when ive my own family and children.

live life well with love.

met up with Nic for awhile today and went to ikea. vera, charlene and xuanwei were studying there! looking forward to friday's dinner (:

i, was really disheartened last night. so many times in my life have i encountered barriers which caused me to take detours instead of the perfect route i had in mind. from po, retaking A-levels, not entering into sot last yr, waiting for water baptism and now uni application.. you know that feeling of not knowing which and what obstacle will appear next? But, in my God i trust. and will trust no matter what. because looking back, i wouldnt be what i am today if not for the route ive taken. there are some lives which i wld never have impacted if i had my ideal route instead. and so with all that i have and my mustard-sized faith, God i want to say "not my will but yours be done". i place my future, dreams and hopes into your hands.
today we learnt in school..
i dont just want to have faith in God, i want to have the faith of God.

i Believe, please help my unbelief.

AHHH!!! ))):

its okay Fiona, its okay.

goodnights, tmr will be a better day.

notice you noticing me.

Happy, excited and also nervous. about many different things.
sot, school fees, finances, uni results, baptism, ministry, relationships.
but whatever it is, dear heart i will not make haste.
i will be patient and wait and learn along the way.

i rather move on to the next level ready and strong than to hurry and falter much along the way.

IP MAN was really good! (:

marital bliss

just got back from Brian and Jaclyn's ROM. feeling so sweet and happy for them! so looking forward to Johann and Pst Eileen's wedding too. think being a Wedding Planning is sch an exciting career!

i Love my team(: really thank God for such a nice team with wonderful people despite our different backgrounds and age groups. God's plans are truly higher than ours. hahaha i admit that my first impression of my team wasnt a pleasant one but im very happy that we're getting along well now. wanna treasure every moment i have in sot!
studying on the gifts of the Holy Spirit now. my team mates are all so powerful in their own ways. 3 pastors, 2 cell leaders, many matured christians. sometimes i really feel like a tiny worm! but its good because i can learn. oh God, i need to be more broken before you. teach me to be more humble.

wanna watch IP MAN 2!
oh ya. think i better start hunting for some anti-wrinkle eye cream. all the choir makeup makes my eyes stingy and sometimes i feel so Cui!
need a Sabbath day to just sit back and think and do nothing, just Relax.

submission of April's biblereading is tomorroww. OhmyTian, i have so much to read on tonight. chionggg!
oh mann, some of my friends have received rejection letters alrdy ):
hit 700 today, 300 more confessions to go!

having a very bad headache. feels like someone is hitting a gong inside my head ): ahh!!!!! maybe its the hairdye today.
love my hair colour now! even though it isnt that obvious, hehh im glad that i tried it out. and of course, with claudy's help (: fun experience.

very inspired by sharmaine and vera (: i need to always always always remind myself that there is a good side in each and every one of my members(i know it and ive seen it before) and always focus on their good side even when things really arent good. need to keep telling myself that they have been good before and they can be good! haha if you know what i mean. very happy that they gathered to have their own pm together along the week even though the group pm which i wanted hasnt been carried out yet. i miss hazelinee quek, feel like i havent spoken to her in ten thousand years. okay i need to press in more.

scattered thoughts. you need to focus fiona!!
stop thinking so much about other issues.
oh yess, today i confessed 200 times that i would get into NUS (FASS). Dr Cho confessed 1000 times please, im so far back gonna keep it going. i will still believe.

ahhh, head very pain.
please ask the person in my head to stop hitting the gong!!
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