goodbye 2007, hello 2008.

just read sandy's blog and it made me Flyyy to the sky.
(:
soon is sleeping like a PIG,
i wish i've a cam to snap all those Unglam shots of hers
HAHA
andd i Love it when people get emotional and start to express their feelings
oh-so- SWEET!

fighting a battle with my Homework!

child of GOD :D

i felt it from your heart

with a flash, my long-awaited christmas has come and gone
and the new year's fast approaching.
so many things have happened,
that i dont even know where to start when i look back.

just looking and zooming into people's lives,
that it, alone amazes me much.
i remember just one year ago on christmas day,
there were just the soons, angel, rachel, eunice, me and anna
elana and michelle were new then
and the DDs werent around.
one year later,
oaktree has grown so Much (:
and everything you start your 'thank you' speech all over again,
it just makes me think back and stand in awe of God's great works!
i LOVE you many many too.
and

i've grown so much closer to NIC in just this year,
thank you for your burning fire, which never fails to push and inspire me (:
SOON LI- its amazing, thats all i can say. after our rounds of laughter and disagreements and frustrations at one another, we always end up in another big tight hug which silences everything else. what we have, its priceless (:
HANSHENG-for being my silent guardian angel Haha. though i never seem to understand much, but one thing's for sure, my gratitude towards you for treasuring me so Much as a good friend (:
in you, i felt the importance of the existence, touching the lives of others.
JICAI-Brother! you're someone real. haha i've seen a great transformation in you, its Amazing. and your presence just make things happier and tasks lighter (:

not forgetting other N293 people.
i think everyone's so Very Unique in their own way
EUNICE is so CUTE (:
i like the way you serve God silently no matter what, for swallowing ur own discomfort. you think that no one sees, but God sees it, and i saw it too. it touched me (:
ANGELINE AW.
my most Dangerous competitor for Food. HAHA
okay la, you've grown alot too.
from not daring to pray out loud in PMs to wanting to pray and do follow-up.
you bring much laughter!
DAPHNE n DIANE
their strength in pressing on despite the circumstance shine brightly amongst the many difficulties.
i miss the Twins alot recently. and if one were to vanish or leave, ..No not gonna let it happen.
we're gonna grow strong TGT.

of course,
theres so many people that we lost along the way.
and theres so much to say,
that i dont know how to express it out in here in any way.
people like JUNLE and RACHEL TENG and SANDY
i do think of them so very often and MISS them alot alot.
but i dun want all of our feelings to be like an added pressure unto them,
that even fellowshipping with us becomes a chore, something to run away from.
but God loves everyone no matter what

ANNA, i miss you Tons and Lots.
you're an amazing person, please dont ever feel that you've let us down in any way.
cause it Never was this case, you brought us up to a higher level instead.
i look up to you a lot, in my heart.
LEILA- i wanna grow much closer to my leader in the coming year ahead.
know that theres still so much room for me to expand and grow and learn. you're a powerful leader, that i know. and i know God made you my leader for a reason (:
i 'll let this reason take place.

--

PAM:
someone whom i can complain to, vent all my frustrations on and laugh with.
i've been so many peoples' listening ear in this social life of mine,
it wasnt easy finding my very own listening ear.
but you were one great maggie noodle which i can lean onto.
thanks so much(:
you make me go Mad at ur pure Dumbness at times, and all ur whines and complains.
but those made you unique HAHA.
and i'm seeing you today!!
LOVE.
(:

JOBY:
my mother/friend/teacher you you White TOFU.
you're the Best. showering me with love, feeding me with so much food and giving me shelter.
blowing my hair dry, dressing me up, holding my hand and leading the way when i get lost.
HAHA i sound just like a baby chick following mother hen lar Please.
but thats what you were basically, i appreciate it so much.
that is why i'm able to give and give so much to you too.
it was tiring, but i never thought of giving up.
(:

and
others like RACHEL Ho and ALTHEE and CLAUDS.
we dont see each others faces often anymore
but i can still feel the same amount of love, care and concern
over the phone.
its silly, how short hp texts can bring a smile
or a simple "i miss you!" can light up my day.
i guess these things,
time can never kill.

THANK YOU so MUCH,
GOD
for Every thing.
for the BAD which made me stronger.
for the GOOD which kept me going on.
for hiding from me at times, which makes me Seek even more.
for Your strong arms which shelter me, allowing me a personal hide-out from all those tiring stuff.
thats the reason why i call you Abba Father,
why i call you my beloved Saviour.
why i call you my friend and brother
why i call you my JEHOVAH JIREH,
because i'm nothing without these gifts from heaven.
--


ALRIGHTS,
2007 is gonna end in a few hours time.

i, want to do so many things right for this coming Whole New YEAR!

-i want to be faithful in the little things.
like, reading the bible everyday and praying, TALKING to my abba father ever so often-ly.

simple things like going to school on time,
being the bestest friend that i can be,
playing my all in the game.
and AIYA
i miss KICK-BOXING so much
hopefully i'll find time to enjoy it again.
Oh yeaa.
i shall love my family whole-heartedly too no matter What.


maybe i talk a little too much in this post.
HAHA

anyHow..




the last day of 2007 is gonna be GREAT!

cant wait to see MEE's face in a couple of hours time,
and THANK YOU Pam's mummy.
HAHA she's one cute woman.
cant wait to see my brothers and sisters in christ later too
:D




JESUS is LOVE.
i'm His creation, therefore i am LOVE too.

i think we're alone now.

I AM FINE,
please dont worry about me, i know that people care.
(:
and most importantly,
i know that my saviour cares.
i want to make an impact in the lives of others.


thank you NIC,
for trying to care.
i really do appreciate it
(:
and lana tan and soon li, of course, ji cai too(:
-

i had ALOT of FUN today
:D
firstly, making those thanksgiving cards
and then at minds cafe
HAHA
those Funny noisy sounds made!
MOVIE was exciting,
squeezing into Three seats with Fat buddies like YEL, SOON and JICAI
though my back was aching,
but its alright la, we're all one Family rightt (:
Like watching Thillers with buddies!

ELANA TAN please rest well and take care.

--

today, i was challenged.
to be stronger than what i am and tougher than what i appear to be.


i love YOU.

cause all i want is You.

God please Help me,
SOS.
i thought i could handle it my own,
but i guess i do need ABBA FATHER's help afterall.

cover me within Your mighty hands

remind us all of what we could have been.

its really indeed a time of stretching and expanding my very own capacity.
but like the story in the bible,
i dont want to be similar to the woman who was so busy serving
until she forgot to just simply wait on the Lord and dwelling in His presence.
she was so busy preparing and meeting the needs that she neglected the most important thing.
not that i dont want to serve,
i just,
want to balance it out well enough.

and when the sky is falling, dont look outside your window.


i have been dreaming alot lately,
i WISH they do come TRUE.


i'm living for the truth

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

and i wonder how things are on your side.

christmas eve,
after spending some time over at jiayi's place
i went to meet joby in town (:
it was Superb PACKED.
and i was trapped in a HUMAN TRAFFIC for a whole FIFTEEN minutes
with so MANY mobless faces around me in the crowd,
PUSHING and CURSING and FROWNING and SQUEEZING
i was all ALONE, trying to find my way to JOBY.
so FREAKY )):
we clung tightly to one another after rescuing ourselves from the crowd.
HAHA.
okay la, it wasnt that bad.
if only we had our very own crazy party with lotsof spray cans :D

made our way to her home after awhile in town.
tofu! THANKS for those two DUCKS (:
we played dressing-up with her clothes too
HAHA.
tried on a couple of dresses and
OH MANN.
thank goodness prom's still like one Year away,
300 plus plus plus more days
if not i can forget about wearing a decent dress already
haha, cant event balance on heels.
tofu was such a PIG
she was fast asleep by 2am,
all thanks to her job.
but anyhow, i was so wide awake and couldnt sleep
and so was EEVEL
so..we watched cartoons till 5 plus in the morning when i finally dozed off in the midst of laughing
haha
and i was woken by wilfred in the morn at 7 plus,
my eyes could barely Blink.

PHONE was really lagged yesterday,
receiving messages only like a few hours later!

on the other side,
those marists ppl must have been Nuts to walk from town to aljunied man.
either way, its as crazy to play mahjong all the way till 9 plus in the morning
Haha.
-

morning jog tomorrow!
i Miss sweating it out.


teach me how to interprete those lines?


HAPPY BIRTHDAY
JESUS, my ABBA FATHER
(:

i got this from cheuk's blog
and though it isnt my first time watching,
it TOUCHED me deeply.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA

patson called to say he's leaving yesterday.
i'm gona miss him.


You're everything that i ever needed.

and i, just cant see you.

its been a long long week for me emotionally and spiritually.
i guess theres really lots of areas of things thats left unsaid.
and this christmas season,
much as i had wanted it to be an awesome amazing one
i couldnt feel much of it.
maybe not yet,
and maybe its cause' of the absence of getting presents the way it was for the past few years.
nevertheless,
i'm really greatful for the presents received (:
as well as those food haha.
i enjoyed myself with sandy's presence today
and its amazing how we can still understand each others' feelings.
had quite a talk with hs
and you knoww, i'm Really honoured by how much i'm valued.
thank You so much,
i am Touched (:

isnt it unfair,
to always seem to neglect those who value you, and pay close attention to others who value you much less instead?
its so Ironic.
yet sometimes i find myself caught in this too.
--

STILL,
its an amazing feeling,
to know that both pam and joby are out somewhere
(:
i guess, it really isnt about quantity but Quality
afterall.
-

i just want to see you smiling today

have been studying with stinky recently.
i like to make fun of my brudda!
(:
we caught "alvin and the chipmunks" last night tgt with Joby.


ALRIGHTS,
i'm even dozing off as i type this.
Haha
time for some real Rest.


trying to keep all my promises

as the days draw nearer,
my strength and faith,
they are affirmed by Him.
i Love both my spiritual, social, and blood-related family.
:D






AYEEE, i dont have ELANA's beautiful picture posting with the umbrella ):















now the tables do turn

to find a heart that belongs to me



current song thats really REALLY nice and reminds me much of lana tan!
"over the mountains"

--

NIC!
sorry if i havent been texting you much,
cause my phone bill's almost Exploding already.
but i want you to know that i'm REALLY GLAD that you're here with me too!
for all those encouragements which has spurred me on,
my fire is kept burning (:
and i know you're so busy,
dont tire yourself out too much alright,
learn to give urself some rest too
i wldnt be able to take it if you breakdown so Please TAKECARE
(:

WOOHOO!

the past few days have been spent with people like jicai, bryan, elana, alan, nic
AYE,
i'm really REALLY nervous about our christmas party and svc actually
but i know its gona be GREAT :D
yesterday we went over to lana's place
and my interest in pool has birthed forth Haha.
i still prefer my house's PS2 anyhoww haha cause i dont lose that often.
Surprisingly, mum allowed staying over
and woohoo! i slept with the tan family last night (:
lana tan looks DUPER cute when she sleeps haha
just like a teddy Bear.
i miss PAM alot alot ALOT
and her mum msged all the way from aussie last night.
anyhoww, i dont know how things worked out
but am allowed to camp in her place too
:D
GOD answers prayers!

spent hours of conversation on the phone last night with stinky,
hurry get well soon huh!
OKAY,
am so Excited.
gona see TOFU's fat face and MAGGIE's curly hair the coming week.
together with CHRISTMAS..
(:

i know its just for a few days but i cant wait to see the SOONS rolling back from hk
haha they must be eating happily over there now.
--

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER
(:
i LOVE you.
and i really admire the fact that you're willing to obey and listen,
without the rebellious nature that i have.
also,
for being a nice enough, decent brother who cares and is gentle.


okie dokes!
GOD please help me with my studies
)):

my SAVIOUR is bigger than these history essays to -be-done.
i can do it!

you can cry on my shoulder

MISS MISS MISS.
)':

--

for the past few days and days to come,
i've been reminding myself to focus on the things unseen
and not those on this earth.

i really need the strength and patience right now.
God knows how much we're trying
and how it is within.
Love people fervently.

with SOON gone,
i'm feeling a little handicapped.
and
God knows how much i'm Missing her company already.
but i wish for her to have all the fun deserved too
(:

its gona be one busy and Challenging week
NIC, we can do it!


more of You and less of me

"ANGEL IN DISGUISE"

i think the lyrics are VERY meaningful
(:
it reads,

take a look at the ordinary,
dont need to look for paradise.
you could be next to an angel in disguise.
--

seasons come, seasons change.
there were good times and of course, the bad.
looking back,
i Always find myself complaining or questioning Abba Father
"why me?" or "give me a guardian angel here on earth"
but who knows,
i've already had lots around me here on earth,
just that i havent opened my eyes large enough to see them.
(:
and for ALL the BEAUTIFUl Friendships that i have,
i am eternally greatful.
i wanna be someone else's Angel too.
(:

after Years and Centuries,
i finally received a call from HUDS today from Malaysia.
it made me Flyyyy to the sky
:D
i MISS you so MUCH!
and like i've Always said,
i'm here for you All the time (:

and MAGGIE is finally "rather" or "quite" free from her poly workload.
blackspot just msged today.
and ILA's gona meet up soon!
WOOHOO
:D
its the season when everyone's free again!
i am so Determined to plan my time well this time.

of course,
study, study, STUDY.

i had fun with LANA tan and FIONA tan and MALAO at macs today
(:
and DP, DP!
being a friend is Not a tiring thing, Elaana tan.
you know what i mean :D
-

i've been dreaming ALOT recently.
last night,
i dreamnt of Pokemon and i rolled off my bed in the middle of the night.
landed so painfully on the ground.
HAHA, this is EMBARRASSING.

band concert's tmr
ALL THE BEST
soon li yun and yel and sheree (:

--


i remember the times when i was young.
i would sleep soundly as he piggy-backed me on the way home
and as the world revolved, i felt so safe and secured.
it used to be easy pecking his cheeks with my kisses
or simply just running into his arms and throwing a big warm hug.
and the times when he praised me in front of everyone,
i felt so proud.
now it seems so difficult to just do the same.
i've grown into someone with my own stand, not wanting to rely on anyone.
i've built up my own personal walls wanting both freedom and trust at the same time.
i'm sorry that my words sting and bite at times.
but its a different feeling on the inside.
sometimes i wish i could express my feelings better.
but i love you still,
please take care and hurry come home
safe and sound.


fill my little world

i'm not very pretty, nor am i perfect on the inside
but i feel just as precious.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! to,
Patson, Daniel, Junle, Malao, Alan, Zhaoyuan
just look at the number of december babies!
--

CAMP was Great!
it was good Bonding time.
i have so Muchh to say,
but in a shorter form of saying things..

i LOVE my CELL alot alot alot.
(:
SOON, LANA, SARAH, NIC, ANGEl, DDS, EUNICE, LIWEN
i realised that everyone is different and thats what makes each one as important!
of Course,
not forgetting JICAI (:
Hansheng, with that heartwarming late phonecall
and those little BOYS like MOEN and SHAUN who Love disturbing people.
plus the Marist gang! Alan, Zhao yuan and Winson.
they are reallyreally nice people (:
together with the other new friends,
camp was FUN!

though catching raw chickens was Sickk
and eating bread thats smeared with Our perspiration and face oil was GROSS.
HAHA,
but i had fun waking ppl up in the middle of the night
and laughing my way through with lovely people
:D

--

my GOD is Beautiful indeed.
that, when i opened my mouth to testify, i realised i didnt know where to start.
simply because theres too much to say.
on my way home alone in the dark yesterday,
i opened my mouth to pray.
and i found myself saying a prayer full of thanks instead.
i couldnt stop saying "thank you"
for all my friends and family, for the never-ending grace and unconditional love showered over me.


i lifted my eyes to see the wonders of heaven,
pouring over me.
and i felt all so perfect inside out.

true love knows no fears.

you Really blow my mind.

had cell group today :D
PEOPLE make me :DDDD

OKAY,
there is so MUCH to do tonight!
but i am ALL so EXCITED for CAMP,
WOOHOO!
and so Duper Many Friends
:D

NIC was telling me about all those spiritual encounters they have during SOT
i Cant wait to be in there.
--

went to j8 at bishan
to meet JOBY :D
and bumped into Oh so MANY PEOPLE!

Consumed much calories with that white TOFU
CAKES and FRIES!
bumped into her brother and gary in the arcade.





Miss those day care DAYS.
and i felt so Loved today(:
-

ALRIGHTY,
Sweet Dreams everyone.
i am Oh so EXCITED
:D

is it a crime to want a little space to breathe?

MY GOSH.
you will never believe what happened on my way to school today.
i took the WRONG bus from khatib,
boarding 853 instead of 854
and i landed at yio chu kang station.
So, i was left with no choice but to take the train to bishan and den a bus from there to school.
BUT,
guess WHAT.
i boarded the WRONG bus again man.
got into bus number 13 instead of 55.
and that made me land at yio chu kang station once Again.
MAN.
i Dont Know what in the world is/was wrong with me.
maybe i was too lost in my thoughts
OR i was Distracted.
but its not like i've an IQ of Zero RIGHT,
and its not like my first time going to school.
i arrived in school ONE HOUR FIFTEEN MINUTES LATE
felt so DUMB.
HAHA.
AYE, i Wonder how things like this can happen too.
OKAY, i Finished complaining.

vented my frustrations on the poor basketball in school.
but THANK GOD i wasnt stranded in some ulu pandan place,
but instead, roamed around yio chu kang station TWICE for Nothing.

HAHAHA.

this is So Embarrassing!
--

morning basketball made me burnt
i Dont Wanna grow darker, NO!

met lana tan in the library
with gradys and her sis.
they both have long curly hair extensions!
haha girly stuff.
ANYHoww,
lana and i drew and edited on my sketch of those two females.
its now our very own MASTER PIECE :D
am rather proud of it!


turn off those feelings

i dont know about you
but when i read the e- mail "the smell of rain" from soon li,
i felt shivers after shivers, non-stop.
its inexplainable and i was looking around me to see what was causing those shivers
till i recalled,
its another sign of feeling God's presence.
how could i have forgotten that?
just like some cry for no reason, and the inexplainable happiness that one feels within.
and then i recalled the story of the bus driver which nic told before
it brought shivers all through my body too.

and this morning,
as the worship song is playing.
i realise how BIG my God can really be.
and how much i Want and Need Him.

you know,
its so Amazing how my SAVIOUR can work at times.
its amazing how God can give me special people as friends,
people whom i can laugh and go crazy with, and people who are patient enough to put up with me at times.
its amazing how my parents can still love me silently despite my rebellious nature.
its amazing how i've grown much more patient over the years.
its really amazing how people never gave up on me.
and when others tell me what a great friend i've been,
i think its only because someone else has been this loving towards me.

and, i am amazed by how my prayers are heard too.

like praying before trainings.
HAHA, Okayy this is Embarrassing.
but my Saviour really does hear them OKAY.
God, it doesnt matter how people look at me, it doesnt matter, no, its Shant bother me. i'm playing for You.
--

mixing with soon li's classmates was good company (:
after prayer meeting,
went to school and played with darian, guanjie and kaifeng for awhile.
liwen joined in too! (:
mann,
her classmates talk ALot
haha,
and it seems like they never run out of topics to talk about while we're at heartland.
but its cool(:

i am Missing Clauds,
studying together soon!
--

PTL!
gradys' might be coming for camp and pam, christmas service
i am OH, so Excited (:
ESP for our CHRISTMAS PARTY,
cause i know its gone be Awesome!

soons family! hurry ROLL to hong kong and ROLL back
we'll be Missing you MANNNN.
esp FIONA QUEK.
):
LANA's ROLLING back today!
wanna see if she's brought any vietnam culture in her back.
hahaha.





HAHAHA. will you just Look at the last photo?!
her Expression makes me so WANNA LAUGH.
imagine her in love! haha

i MISS you LAH stupid MAGGIE noodles.
and i'm stuck with these 'old' pictures as memories,
hurry UP be free so we can take new ones TGT (:


glory of God makes me beautiful inside out.

we had many arguments, but i couldnt remember any of them.

training days are UP!
5,6,12,13,14,17,19,21
and just when i thought we would all be free.

YESTERDAY i met leong for guitar
and BOY,
he never fails to Amaze me
he can play both the bass and melody on a single acoustic guitar
can you beat my shifu?
i Wanna be like that Too.
and i left river walk with much home work to do,
practice pressing those BAR CHORDS which make my fingers Hurt so Much.
aye!
but no pain, no Gain.
--

stupid STINKY kept making fun of me last night over msn.
and HO.
he really appeared a number of times in my dreams last night,
so Scary
HAHA
dreamnt of the SOON family too and
JICAI and my dad.
-

dad,
i just want to say
Thank You for trusting me.

i had a talk with my brother yesterday
andd he might be coming for one of the Christmas services!
with Melvin :D

i want to be a big sister whom my brother is proud of.

--

Joby's busy working
Pam's busy schooling
and i Should be busy studying.

i Cant wait to spend CHRISTMAS with people i LOVE
(:


LANA TAN hurry roll back from vietnam!
we're missing you over Here.

loving people more fervently

Thank You ABBA FATHER
(:
for happy things/sad events

i have been receiving blessings recently
and they are Unexpected ones.
Blessed with a nike bag :D
and my new MP3 :D
a pair of nike shoes :D
-though it isnt my taste, its still a blessing you see.

JEHOVAH JIREH,
my provider.
--

today's eating event was FUN
HAHA.
soon li, alan, winson, daniel, zac, darian
with all these people in the group
of Course we'll win
:D
watching them gobble down FOOD makes me wanna Laugh.

i am looking forward to our NACL2 CAMP!
-

it wasnt that easy to let go and let God.
but i attempted a little here and there
and made an inner decision with myself.
so here i am, already seeing the wonders,
its one of those times when i feel Secured with that Peace lingering in my Heart.
(:
take me to the house of God.

--

Happy Birthday MUM.

i wish i could express my feelings much more openly.
but deep down in my heart,
i do love you alot, Alot.

and i'm only grateful for the things around me.
CHRISTMAS, is COMING
:D


author of salvation

though we lost like crazy
it was a good experience.
saw so many Bungs and Butches,
they were so Cool.

i've to admit that they are good.
--

GREAT eating COMPANY at marina bay.
just the right choice of people to share food with man.
HAHA.
i felt so sick after everything.

hand in mine, and mine in yours

this has become my latest favourite song
:D
though the mtv is really quite meaningless.
joby says it sounds like the prince finally meets the princess kindof thing
and it sure does.
got to know it a Long time ago through hansheng!
--

it feels so Good to be Praised.
coach pointed me out yesterday
and i didnt know a few sentences could make that much a difference.

the 50 push-ups we did was Crazy.
as well as staying in that position for 2 mins Plus,
Jan was practically screaming beside me for the rest to finish running so we could recover.
made me Laugh so much while still in that Awkward position with my Aching Back.

went to look for soonli, jicai and brenda for awhile after training.
i Want jicai to teach me BBALL after this wk of trainings!
some people, have just found their talent.
its so Cool and it makes me wonder,
whats my talent?

Brenda's Nicee to talk to
(:

i had no reason for going down to j8,
but i guessed i Missed Soon li ALOT
and Definitely, ELANA TAN too.
i MISSED out so Much Again Luh, during their Sleepover.
but considering the odds,
i wouldnt have been able to make it.

thats why i so Look forward to TODAY.
swimming with Soon Li, Lana and our dearest Liwen
: D
den rush back to school for a friendly match with TP
afterwards, meet up with Lana and gang again for Dinner!

TREKKING! with MAI was cancelled today
):
cause schedule's already so full
and we decided to explore Bukit Timah after she comes back
instead of Scary Buang Kok.
which is known for all those scary stories of ghosts.
and many construction workers.
come to think of it,
its Really Dangerous.
what made us want to go there in the first place?!
thank GOD, its cancelled.

whichh leaves me time to study in the morning!

so Packed, i know
BUT
i Really do Want to spend this day with LANA TAN before she heads off to vietnam
AND
i havent seen Any of them since this week started.

OAKTREE:
please TAKE CARE in Vietnam you hear me? must eat those sticky rice that we hear about in "Clay Marble"! and YEAA hurry ROLL back ):
everyone's gona fly overseas
when my family isnt this year.
i kindof miss CHINA hahaha.
everyone Please hurry Roll Back Safe and Sound!

the match was comfirmed on a last min basis
and i'm left with no choice to be there or Not.
theres so much problems already,
i just want a really United and Bonded team.

saw gina's and sharon's tears.
they made me realise i wasnt the only one who wanted it So Badly
-

i EAT like a COW.
please Save me.
):

--
am considering about giving tuition to k2 and primary school kids!
for A&B.
looking forward to drawing those p6 models for Maths!

now that i finally have the time to settle down
and thinkk about stuff,
i realise that theres so Much to juggle.
STUDY
church
friends
basketball

i seriously Need to sit down and plan my time well.
and sometimes everything clashes
makes me end up having to sacrifice one party or the other.
i Hate it when it happens,
having to miss out so much fun.
but i guess this is life.
God, help me to expand my time.

i shall use the comp Less often from now onwards.
Dun believe its the only source of communication to the outside world while at home.
and
i Shall and Will Try to make my Saviour and the bible a very Big Priority
in my life.
bible shall be the first book i touch,
and prayer shall be the last words i mention everyday.
-wanna be a prayer-warrior!
and at least understand whats going on in the whole bible inside out by end of next year.
OKAY,
i have Much to work on.
hopefully, all these arent just empty talks.
-

have been dreaming of lots of people again.
Love Sleeping
(:

--
AM currently reading a book on emotional literacy
it Is very Cool and Interesting.
wanna be a PSYCHOLOGIST
the Rest of the World,
PLEASE Dont copy me
):
i really wanna get IT.


saving the best for the last.

please wait for me

went over to joby's today
we went all the way to redhill just to apply a job for her
caught BRATZ!
it made me feel the importance of whatever Friendships i'm having right now.
(:
THANKS TOFU!
for the bag, for blowing my hair and taking care of me!
and Maybe we should Stop saying thank you to one another
Haha

STUDY tmr,
i Promisee.

distance makes the heart grow fonder.
and i sure hope its true.

i KinDAA regret not going over to lana's hse with soon li
and have fun!












dare to try

sometimes, i find it so difficult to cater to Everything.

how do i even fulfill my own wishes when so much's taking place?

and behind these shoutings,
the music's playing.
i try to focus on what i want to.

its singing,
" He's the rock on which i stand. He's my fortress."
"He is, my life"

its one of those nights.
but
its alright,
i've got a strong steady shoulder to turn to.

mighty to save me.

learnt the drums ytd
:D
Elananana is Good at keyboard-ing (:
i like it when she starts figuring out and playing those worship songs.
soon lili's well with drums n guitar
MAN,
i am so going to miss them when they fly off for holiday
):
i LIKE jamming with cell!

am SO, SO looking Forward to BIKING at BUKIT TIMAH with MAI (:
our little expedition!

sometimes,
its so difficult to express how one feels
or even tell the person how important he/she is important to you.

i just, dont show it.
-


spreading the love that i have received

WEDNESDAY:

basketball has become part of my Life.
BUT
why is it that i cant dunk any balls properly?
my coach says i can do anything except dunking.
which basically means, Zero.
whats an athlete when he cant run?
or a soccer player who cant kick.

cant they see how hard i am trying?

but i'm glad for existing ppl like sq, gina, zy, jan and gj who make me laugh during trainings
(:
--

i've got to admit,
that he's courage was worth saluting for.
-

left training early and headed to nic's house for PM
and there i was, left Amazed by God himself (:
felt an open heaven over my head,
it was so Beautiful.
we spent an hour an a half just waiting upon the Lord
and it only felt like half an hour.

sometimes when God presence descends from heaven,
it makes me want to cry for no reason.
other times, its this inexplainable Peace that i feel lingering within.
and on wed i felt it so strongly.
i wasnt sleeping,
the calmness just made me want to do nothing but sit there worshiping.
i want to see an open heaven here, on earth.

dear SHI TU:
i wont give up on you,
if you Dont give up on yourself.
you are my Beloved friend! (:

nicolette and soon li, i'm glad we're all in this Big family tgt too
(:

stayed-over
Natalie's cute (:
and i Like her waterBABIES!

soon li and i watched "Evans Almighty"
and i fell asleep at 4 plus,
leaving her to watch it Alone
HAHA.
SHI TU and i caught "Step Up" the next morning
THURSDAY!
i think Hip-Hop Junkies are so COOL
esp those with long metal chains, over-sized shirts, baggy jeans
if i'm a guy, i'd be a superb Cool one
:D

headed for school
but i was all zoned out during literature.

went off to meet ILA in j8 after that
my DEAR sec TWO CLIQUE (:
and to think i knew aud and rach since pri One.
we settled in cartel
and my dear friends' AUD, RUI and RACH
were so Irritatingg i tell you.
we didnt have much money so we ate Lotsof bread
Haha
but everytime we asked the waitor for more bread
they Just have to add in one more line stating that I Want them.
the waitor probably thinks i'm the GREEDIST woman on earth.
cake I want, bread I want, main course also I want.
but he gladly served us bread and bread anyway
HAha,
he was too bored. we gave him something to do!

went to dunk balls at rachel's place
it brought back Much memories of how i used to go there so often.
saw her Bro, dad and sis!
we had KFC haha
ILA's still the same (:
though a few cldnt make it.
--

i CANT stop EATING,
somebody Please Stop ME.

cell's going for cycling today
and i Cant make it
):
training's on.
please tell me i've made the right decision over here.


MAGGIE and TOFU called
:D
i felt their love radiating from the telephone wire
Haha.

sometimes i find it so tough to read your mind.
know that, i Do care.

havent forgotten abt Ian tan.
OKAYY, you always claim that, but i'm a loyal friend!

CHRISTMAS is drawing nearer,
JESUS' BIRTHDAY is COMING
:D


what a girl wants.

MAN.
monday's training left me with another bruised knee
SCAR-FREE knee!

was talking to mai today
and Oh-so COOL
:D
i finally found someone with so much interest as me
we're gona go Biking at bukit timah hill
plus those trekkings,
i'm so EXCITED
:D
was practically Grinning while walking around school man
i Cant Wait!

and i Made up my mind
that before i die,
Must give white water rafting, hiking, trekking, wake-boarding a go
so COOL.
--

met tofu aft school today
THANK YOU (:
and
LOVE!
-

promised me not to drink again

i feel so busy nowadays
so Much to do and so little time.

but i'm still here, alive and Do Care no matter what.

thank you GOD,
for my friends and cell and family (:


and there i find You waiting

THANK YOU so much, soon li and nic!
i cant imagine what ytd's event would be like without the both of them.
i think, theres so many things in life which can serve as challenges to me.
and ytd, my introverted side was challenged.
its Not that i do not want,
i just cant seem to do it thaat easily.
BUT, am still learning, am still trying.

i sprawled out my time on history today.
drawing maps after maps.

ILA's meeting up soon to eat PRATA
:D
me cant wait!
--

last night, i had a Nightmare.
with cell mates present and stinky and my mum too.
my mum and i were so Poor
and some Freaky woman was after My Life.
she cut my ankle so many times, so Deeply
i was bleeding profusely, and Left to Die Bleeding.
MANN, i woke up a couple of times last night
but that dream kept haunting me.
thank GOD its daybreak now.

i think, there are so many things left unsaid.

but anyhow,
leave God to decide the coincidental incidents
things will be Amazing,
cause i've left it in His hands!


i want to be your close buddy

i love You, i need You
though my world may fall, i'll never let You go.
my saviour, my closest friend.
i will worship You until the very end.

i asked myself:
how badly do i want this.
for that fire to burn again, even Stronger than it was before.
i'm not perfect but i'm gona try.
to have a more willing heart.

managed to meet Tofu today aft service.
we're going shopping on TUES!
:D


the peace that guards my heart

thursday:

was supposed to study with lana n alan
but stinky disappeared halfway for his classes.
had a TWO-hour long bible study with my TU DI
(:
and i must say,
it was really Good.
i never thought there wld be other ppl feeling the same way as i do.
pm was great!
it Reminded me a great deal of my first love and my Main Priority in life.

and though at times the world seems to have vanished.
and i might seem to be the only one keen on studying,
Or running this christian faith alone.
i was reminded that walking this path is not me alone,
but with my saviour right by my side.
i had forgotten to look sideways whilst busy complaining how tough its gona get.

i've got a 24/7 companion.
LOVE JESUS CHRIST.
--

there were maths n lit lectures today.
PRIDE n PREJUDICE is COOL
:D

my face is Disfigured by basketball.
or should i say,
my Body has been disfigured by bball?
i feel like i've joined some MUAY THAI cca mann.

while running for the ball,
i crashed into jan straight at the head and we both fell backwards on the court.
it happened Not once, but Twice
exactly at the same spot.
mann, i thought nth much about this incident
BUT since ytd,
a blue black has formed at my right eye.
haha didnt realised it until sq and my team mates pointed out to me
i looked like i was PUNCHED in the eye man!
tgt with the ulcer that has formed on my lip
all thanks to that ball
):
BUT i still LOVE my CCA alot
and aft wat happened during training today.
i'm beginning to feel more for it.
there was tension during cca today
and i saw and experienced few tears here n there.
but we're gona get stronger as a team
everybody just wait n SEE.

stupid gj was making fun at My Body today.
haha
but her spare tyre provides me with a chance to get back at her.

stupid stinky made so many comments too.

MANN.
why do ppl Enjoy commenting so much on my physical appearances.
i am GOD's creation,
i'll start loving myself!

HAW HAW
its alright fiona, its alright.


a whole new world, a new fantastic point of view.
let me share this whole new world with you.

my guitar string is FIXED backk
:D
thanks to MR LEONG
andd soon li, i dun blame you la
haha i was kidding all along.

i spent my evening at riverwalk
learning a few chords from Leong!
and BOY, that guy sure has Improved ALOT.
all those melodies
and playing both melody n chords single-handedly all at one go
i am Amazed.
he's my SHIFU now (:
after today,
my future assignments are back to learning the basic strummings first
):
BUT i'm gona be Really GOOD one day
HEH, cause now i've got a Shifu.

went to school today for History.
NINE bucks down the drain for cabbing
)))))):
first two ppl i SEE,
alan n timo jogging on the track haha.
thanks LANA for taking care of my guitar (:
sat beside shawn wee, that Stupid BENG for lecture.
that guy just went for one and a half hours Non-stop, making Fun of Me.
he said that this Huge poster of this canoeist girl look so much like me.
in LT 4.
no offence, but Wat an Insult MANN, cause i thought she wasnt good looking at all.
and he just had to gather joel n patson along to humiliate me.
plus all the extra scoldings frm stupidd BENG
and asking me all the General knowledge questions which i Couldnt answer at all.
BUT surprisingly, i didnt sleep a wink during HIST lec today.
thanks so MUCH (:
it really does work afterall, haha

i LIKE Frequent random phone calls
from both maggie and Tofu
(:


BS with lana and soon li tmr
and studying with alan too!


ALRIGHT,
i feel happy tonight, know not why
haha
perhaps its my GUITARR.


i signed a lifetime contract

i've been having trainings lately
that a day without it makes me feel rather uneasy
with this little urgency in my mind tugging at me that i must be Better,
better than what i am now.
having trainings with the guys around is such a stressful thing
and ytd my ball rolled over the other court for the upteenthh
darn Embarrassing.

i browsed upon claudy's blog just now
ayee
of Course i'll be there for you.
thats what friends are for (:
your DINGY song is stuck in my head now haha
"i love it when you call, but you never call at all"

how come classes seem so empty nowAdays.
maybe its cause of those cliques and all.
tgt with so many missing ppl, mind you
with like THREE absent from our clique.
Man.

but i still thank God for ppl like char (:
and dear patson.
though he seems to vanish into his own world most of the time.
yet at times when he shares abt spiritual stuff,
it seems like he's one good bud' whom i can rely on anytime.
ytd, i said something hurtful while protecting my friend.
and i've yet to apologise.
i suppose he'll understand.
with all these complications going on in school,
it isnt easy for me to say anything that openly.

sometimes i feel so tough to express my feelings.
that i hope they can all feel it without having to see through actions.

G has been struggling lately.
and i wish i can list out fully to her the advantages of being a single carefree woman.
with no strings attatched.
if i ever see him face to face, Mann.
he's gona be my first guinea pig for kick-boxing.

i've been studying a little here and there.
got to meet up with studying buddies soon
my books are calling out for much more attention.
pride n prejudice sounds reallyreally cool,
i think i'm gona love LITERATURE all over again this year
(:

and in the midst of it,
i know that P and J are out somewhere too.
busy catching up with things in their own lives.
though our schedule Always clashes,
i'm happy enough to know that they're always there when i need a hotline to call.

But, i still wish to see these faces everyday.
am a greedy person.

God please give me one tough guy buddy to arm wrestle and be violent around with.
my bro's vanished into his own world lately.

i'll stand with You when faith and fear collide

had lessons in school today
and for the First time,
my econs notes were filled with so Muchh Handwritten notes
:D
i felt so Proud of it!
i cldnt help but dozed off so many times during history though
its another hurdle which i've got to conquer
WILL go through it Fine (:

i felt so empty during lessons today
it just isnt the same
and i know its so Dumb to say it,
but. i really didnt treasure it when we had the chance to be studying tgt
and now that its all over, we're feeling nostalgic again.
how come its Always like that??!
saw huds in the afternoon,
and natural instinct made me give her one Big Hug today (:

felt so cheated by clauds' water babies today.
and my dear friend is so Cheapo,
she doesnt want to give me a few!
HAW HAW, i'll go grab my OWN from popular.
they're these colourful seeds which you throw into water and they'll grow Bigger and jelly-like
so COOL
:D
claudy actually really placed those INEDIBLE stuff into her mouth, on her tongue
just to fool me
to think i just followed blindly
haha that was so Dumb and hilarious man.

WHAT am i gonna do when he asks?
tell me what am i supposed to do.

training!
have been doing mental imagery.
God, please make me to look beautiful on court.

basketball brings me life.
(:

i was so tired on my way home that i dozed off.
and OH MAN.
the same thing happened again.
the bus went all the way to interchange and was already parked.
NO ONE woke me up again!!??
thank GOD, i woke up just on time and ran out of the bus before
that driver locked up inside.
this is so Scary.
i'm Never gona take heavy naps in buses Anymore.



church camp's Clashed with bball chalet
)):
WHY ohh whyy


wanna go White Water Rafting!
SO COOL
:D


everybody loves that attention

ytd, SENTOSA with cell mates (:
my studying ended with only Half a chpt of maths.
BUT, am gona start Hard-Core on MONDAY
seriously.

i've just returned from MALAYSIA
with PANG, SOON LI and SAIHOO a few hours ago
it was FUN :D

THANK YOU dear GOD for
Everything
(:
today was one good holiday,
off from the outside world.