Delay is not denial.

today i learnt that when Daddy delays your plan, it doesnt mean that He has denied them. dont ever doubt God's happiness for you life.

and thats exactly what i need to constantly remind myself of everyday. havent been meeting up with my friends recently, wanna do some catching up this week.. and easter is around the corner too!

oh Daddy, im so tired.

please multiply my sleep and give me the strength.

thankyou, Amen.

oh God, more of you and less of me.

SOT is good (: i really need to slap myself wide awake, still drifting inbetween consious and unconsciousness. even though i see other people dozing off at times too.. this shouldnt be the case!! im working and paying for it, really got to make it worth it! anywaysss, i REALLY NEED a RETAIL THERAPY ): i wanna shop carefreelyyyyy!

sometimes in my heart i feel a thousand and one emotions that i know i must constantly crucify.
why like that? why they dont respect me? when is the breakthrough coming? i cant do this alone?!!
but most of the times i just ignore these thoughts. because i know i need to stay focus. if Daddy can do it, i know i can love these people too. just keep giving and giving and sowing into their lives. sometimes i just feel so tired, i take a break to stop and rest. but i know i musnt stop for long. someday.. they will love me back.
i cant wait for that day.
(:

AHH DEAR GOD,
I REALLY WANT TO GET INTO NUS.
PLEASE?

Hello (:
SOT has been good. really happy to be living one of my goals for 2010! this 6 mths, i am going to toally enjoy it, work hard and grow from it. and look back with smiles (: not easy though, been dozing off a little here and there in between, think i ate at least a hundred mints alrdy! need to re-adjust my body clockk.

very busy week! but for the upcoming one, ive a few goals:
-finish applying for uni
-buy sports shoes, hopefully!
-find a new tuition assignment
-adjust body clock
-visit the gym!


im Loving my sheep(:
inspired my them. sometimes they are my biggest frustrations. but also for most of the time, they are one of my biggest motivation (:

"This is the day which the Lord has made; i shall rejoice and be glad in it."
-Psalms 118:24


even if my heart breaks and cries, i will still sow these seeds of love. because in due season i will reap.

i am tired out to the Max. slept at 4 plus last night oh mann my body clock is rather haywire.
tuitioned at sengkang today after sportsday. super tiredd. svc tmr then nus open hse and tuition again. monday's sot orientation day plus meeting at night.
i need to catch some serious sleepp!
my interview is tmr. oh God, please help me!
Tiredddd.

been so busy this week travelling from places to places, i can feel the hole in pocket growing bigger n bigger already! and what a blur blockk, i counted wrongly on the amount of prizes i need to get. now ive to travel to ikea again ): seriously feeling very tried from doing so much without pple's help. sometimes i feel like superman. i just want to have my own time to worship and really wait on God as well.
But i will not give up. they say that when you find yourself complaining, its when its time to increase ur capacity.
well let it be to me.

thankyou for always believing in me even when no one else did.
thankyou for always having faith in me even i doubted my own abilities.
and thankyou for always doing the work for me even when i dont deserve it.
sometimes i just sit and stare blankly at things, thinking that i will not breakthrough this week. but you always do the works for me and show me that it is so easy. that there is in fact nothing to be scared of, nothing to contemplate or even worry about. as long as im willing, all else will fall into place. because you're Jehovah Jireh, God you're my provider.
so why then am i still hesitating? a moment im in and the next im out. and then im in again. i am such a timid, foolish girl.
i need to start leaving fear and living faith.

Dear God,
THANK YOU SO MUCH.

feeling so nervouss. its the feeling which ive been trying to escape and avoid for months and tomorrow is finally the day. its scary how time flies, now is already march?!
dear God, please help my unbelief. i want to leave it all in your hands tomorrow.

sometimes i just wish that the earth beneath me will open up and consume me so that i can hide in there for awhile until im ready to come out again.