sighh! was just browsing through old photos and i think i really put on weight! recalled my first yr in J1 when i could still fit into my small skinny jeans. now its just lying around in my cupboard because i cant fit in man! ): thinking back, those were the times when we had Crazy basketball trainings. we used to run At LEAST 10 rounds around the track before drills and basketball trainings. and when its nearing the competition, we trained THRICE a week! Wah, that must be lots of calories burnt. and i rmb that crazy BEEP TEST. keeping up with the timing which the radio set for us and running in front of so many other basketball n soccer guys. now, even running 2.4km makes me feel all worn out! =/

i have so many things that i wanna do. ive ALL of them planned already (: first of all, GET FIT, STAY FIT. BE SLIM! haha next, i really wanna get a good guitar preferably frm MAESTRO and a nice, hard, solid guitarbag. haha. was running to get into the train the other day and the door closed. it left a slight dent on my current old one. )': and when i get my new guitar, wanna learn how to play favourite songs like 'breakaway', 'no boundaries', 'this is me', 'you belong with me' and many Many more(:

but for noww, STUDYY.

some issues bugging me recently.. i think i need to solve my existing problems before i can move on. its like, if i just ignore and cover it up then just one day when the worm comes, all the bottled up stuff will emerge again right?

moving on..
(:

was over at charm's place today, working on nationalism and chatted quite a bit (:
sharilyn just sent over lots of lit notes, i think she's so Sweet!
my next few days' are Crankyy. having tuitions almost every other day!
feeling that, i need to build healthy relationships. my assurance n value doesnt come from people around me but from God above. ive been reminding myself that recently. shared discipleship on sun morn n was inspired by my own sharing! felt that Daddy was assuring me some things. Anointing attracts people. i wanna be more honest to myself n those around me. wanna be who i am and not what others want me to be. felt Daddy telling me that i dont have to worry, because his anointing will do the works for me. i just need to find Joy in what i do and be happy, everything else will fall into place eventually.
"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." -Matt 6:33

many unsaid desires in my heart. dear God, only you know my needs.
dear heart, dont make haste. Pray trust wait.


i know when it comes it wldnt be too late.

ION with maggie today (:
i miss her so much! bought a shirt which i like alot. superb Broke to the maxx now.
cell and then study session, fed lots of mosquitoes today! ):
Excited for tmr's discipleship session now, feeling for the msg(: HEH HEH

im too lazy to blog. GOOD NIGHTSSSS (:

i used to have someone always proudly declaring to me that i was her bestest friend, though i've never assured her that she held the same position in my heart. there were so many close ones, i cant tell who's the best. to me, best means always being there without fail and sharing all my happy and sad. because that specific person is different from the rest, i set very high expectations of that someone. its like that little action she does can make me alot more happier or sad just because she is my Best friend, the one whom i care most about. i dont want to unconciously set all these standards in my heart and wound up disappointed. that is why ive since stop the idea of having a Bestfriend. a circle of close friends would be good enough.
we are Worlds apart. i just cant find the right way to express it. different environment different beliefs different interests even. honestly, ive thought about letting go manymany times. but giving up isnt and will not be an option for me. wish i can forgive and overlook like i used to. wish i was more understanding and assuring too.

i studied at the library's cafe today, bought hot chocolate n a muffin. guess the lady at the counter was really bored, she kept looking over to see what i was doing even though i was just studying. yes i sat at the table near the cashier, should have chosen a better spot. midday, bumped into yoke kuan n weatherly, they were having bs! time is running out, i tried to study today but my short attention span really isnt helping. only completed maths n the basics of nationalism AGAIN. keep going back to the start of the book because my memory keeps failing me and ive to read, understand n memorise all over again. ): left the library and i was really intending to head hme. but i noticed the newly opened COTTON ON in the shopping mall. haha God must have heard my desires. because i was really thinkin abt heading to woodlands just to look at Cotton on for clothes. -this is called desperate shopping when you've got no time Okayy. and woah, the shop just appeared in front of me. it was never there before. i know it because i go to the shopping centre often. it must have opened a couple of days ago! so anyway, tried lots of stuff but many werent that appealing. bought a couple of pieces home. feeling a tad happier, now (:
should i visit the lib again or just stay home?

my plans to exercise and loose the flabs keep failing because im just too lazy to vist the gym. gym's much more effective because i always end up walking when i jog at the park. aiya, thousand and one excuses building inside my head. what if its crowded and full of guys? need to bring towel, sports shoes, bathing lotion and all, superb troublesome. but i know i cant keep procrastinating if not i'll really turn into a FAT POTATO!

sighh, God please help me solve my friendship, family issues and deal with my worries appropriately. aiyo, such basic things in life.. i really need to have better control and live life to the Fullest.
Hungryy. craving for long john's grilled chicken wrap.

"but we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us. We are hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed- " - 2 Cor 4:7-9

"just keep swimming, just keep swimming" - Dory in Finding Nemo.

just keep going.

ignore the video. LOVE the music! (: p.s, guy is handsome!

what if God allows me to go through all these just so that i can impact someone else's life for a short moment of time? then it would be very foolish of me to keep dwelling on the fact that im taking a longer route and miss that opportunity.

like pst kong's daily devotion blogpost on Amazing Love(:

THE SANDS ARE RUNNING OUT. (new phrase which i learnt today)
i better make full use of whatever time left.
this year's full of many changes. Really wishing that i can do my best and say the right words of comfort to a dear friend. wanna fight the good fight of faith together.
AH, i keep zonning into the post-exam mode, thinking of shopping, wrking and all the korean shows which i can watch already. need to FOCUS.

feeling ))))):
SIGH. at times like this i got to keep reminding myself that its not man's approval which im looking for but my Heavenly Father's.

sometimes a little resistance is good. kites fly against the wind, not with it.