6th June'06

the past few days have been more or less, great.
many things happened. both good and bad.
i realised tt after the many days of sessions n hanging out together,
we clicked better.
i felt the bonds attracting each other.
and yea, lets agree together,
this is so cool.
haha

i realised that its been 6 mths alr.
Six. time flies pretty fast.
if given a choice, i wld definitely grab the opportunity and start it off all right.
but of course, its impossible.
so i guess we'll just do it off frm here.
if everything is God's plans, all Will be fine.

God touched me in a diff way this time.
it so amazing. (:
i've always had this image of the whole world worshipping my saviour.
and my saviour brought me up with Him,
to show me the whole world. and there i saw how great He is, how Awesome my Saviour's power is.
though i've yet to see it.
His promise, this i've kept.
i noe i'll see it one day (:
for now, i'll just keep my cool and keep believing, while allowing the other part of the world revolve ard me.

during this emerge,
i had no parental objection!
if you realised, i guess i've more or less overcame it.
usually i wld have to sleep over and probably rephrase my words in a way they wld accept.
soemtimes, even lie.
but it wasnt the same this time.
somehow, it wasnt tt tough anymore.
though smth cropped up on the second last night.
they were so furious and mad, they wanted to stop me frm attending the last session.
but God's presence was just so powerful during the morning session the day before.
He told me to pray and pray and pray and believe in Him cause' my prayer walk hadnt been good.
and so i did.
and prayers change things.
i was able to go for the Last session (:
wats more amazing was tt i heard Him speaking,
right into my heart.

" my child, i noe you questioned tt why is it things were going so well, and then all of a sudden you cldnt go for the last session. but you noe wat? everything happens for a reason. i allowed it to happen because i wanted you to pray. i wanted you to be an overcomer. pray and revive your own prayer life. and just look at urself. you Prayed. and now you've overcome. i'm so proud of you"

i was so amazed tt i didnt noe wat to say.
i just dwelled in His hse, giving thanks.

had sch ytd and i had hardly any voice left.
i woke up with those songs going on in my head.
it was beauutiful.
we got back our results for mid year.
oh Boy, it wasnt good at all.
i failed A maths. --38 plus plus
i had a C5 for english
and a B4 for maths i think.
so many ppl were crying.
and when i found out Why they were crying,
guess wat.
they Passed their A maths and they did so much better den me.
and there they were, crying.
and i was sitting with some crazy ppl laughing away.
we had Lousy results and we were alughing away.
i think smth seriously is wrong.
i didnt noe if i shld laugh or cry.
or maybe its the assurance tt everything will be fine.
as long as i trust God.
haha
anyhow, i made a Deal tt i'm gonna study Damn hard.
lets do it together.

smth little happened ytd.
cause' i was with Rach n liyun at j8.
we were walking when i suddenly had this thought:
" what if we bumped into tt Catholic High guy?"
he was this guy whom i Always see in the train in the morning.
he's..Nice.
haha
you noe wat i mean.
but the amazing thing isnt him, its wat happened a little while later.
guess wat, we rrly bumped into him.
i was so shocked.
of course, you noe, all the rubbish.
i pointed to the two reatards who he was.
and they just kept insulting my taste.
AIYA.
i have a diff taste okay.
anyhow, That Isnt the point.
the point is, i dunno.
maybe its Guard feeling, or instinct, or maybe, even God.
theres a second part to it,
so here goes,
after a while, Rach left for home.
liyun n i decided to walk ard a lil while more.
and i had this other thought:
"what if we bumped in to someone related to Rach? lyk her brother?"
woah guess wat.
a few steps later,
we Bumped Into Him.
it was so scary.
i almst screamed and ran away.
but at the same time, aint it cool.
i am so amazed by God's power.

after these years of studying, maybe its bible sch.


i've been having dreams lately.
dreams of some ppl, mostly the same ppl.
dreams of some ppl's secret
but i dun seem to rmb any of them clearly.
wait till i'm able to recall each of them clearly.

i realised, that i'm an introvert!
haha
yes. i'm not kidding.


we went to Dunk balls ytd.
and we played with the little kiddies.

now tt the hols are here, i've been enjoying Tons and dreaming lots.
theres so many places we want to go for mission trips.
Africa.
Cambodia.
Thailand.
Zimbabwe.
we'll get our own team. hike our bags and go off together.
tt had be Real cool.
(:





at least now i noe what means to me and what doesnt.