Cos if one day you wake up and find that your missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

--

JOGGED.
discovered this long stretch of running lane beside the huge canal and park at my house.
(:

kept dozing off today in the library.
how? ):

re-read about Samuel today.
he is so Cute!
if Daddy were to call me in this way,
i think id be such an honour for me.

OH did i mentioned that i watched "stage beauty" on youtube the other day?
"KEITH" will be next
:D


but you're already on your way.

am into the song "Feeling This" by Blink 182!
haha Yes, im slow.
the chorus keeps playing in my head over and over again.

fate fell short this time,
your smile fades in the summer.
place your hand in mine, i'll leave when i wanna.

--

i need some motivation,
some motivation.
someone to tell me that its still not to late and that
miracles do happen.

woke up from a very Bad dream last night.
evil spirits and ghosts haunt my dream ):
so CREEPY. but im so Glad that im up and wide awake right now.

made a wasted trip down to riverwalk ytd.
but its alright Pork, i dont blame you, its not your fault (:
took an almost 2 Hour long bus ride hme.
my GOSHH. and tofu was entertaining me throughout with nothing else but
Her singing.
):
hahaha.
i dream of so many things aft the A's!

im am turning YELLOW.
due to the lack of exercise and exposure to the sun.
hahaha okay i sound like a sick patient.
gonna meet FAT TOFU today.
we were Supposed to jog. ): ): ):
that LAZY BUM.





im lucky im in love with my best friend,
lucky to have been where i have been.
lucky to be coming home again.


someday,
All of my dreams will come true.


need to keep seeking and knocking and waiting.

close my eyes, shut my ears.
i hear no sound now, its peace at home alas.

had quite a good day with church and other related stuff.
Daddy, i miss you so Much.

think it more than just receiving revelations and seeing visions on my part.
the blessings dont count as much if i dont see the Blesser face to face.



Abba Father,
i wanna be yours and Yours Alone.

ive been suppressing much of my feelings recently.
perhaps its the studies stress and from what i get at home.
a particular someone came up to me some time this week,
its nice to know that you care but i Dislike it when all the wrong perceptions of me are being formed.
i rather you not care about me at all, for both the good and bad.
no wonder they say that there are some people whom you will really have that desire to be friends with. while others, it isnt the same.
i cant possibly befriend the whole world anyway can i?

sometimes i wish my life was more transparent.
E walked past and gave me a rough pat yesterday,
seeming to say "gear up your spirit"
thanks Much (:
it meant Alot to me.

our prayer group in the morning has grown.
(:
with the merging and all,
i feel Happy that we are all gathering tgt.

MM, am both Excited and Scared about prom.
after much persuasions and thinking for so long,
decided to join my class for it.
(:
MM, holiday doesnt clash with Prom
and this time,
im really looking forward to my holiday
and Enjoy the outside world!

Leila has gotten me all so Excited about TWILIGHT.
that romantic vampire story.
AH! i wanna do so Many things right now.
want to watch films like "Stage Beauty" and "the crucible" right Now too.
haha i think literature has gotten the better of me.
if only i score as high in it.

STUDYING.
ive been a little kindof off-track recently.
but, dont knoww. ):

heading to the lib with blackspot today
im determine to Conquer "challenges in southeast asia" !

everyone around me is on some kindof slimming down programme.
i Wish my heart and mind would just Stop craving for food!
but i dont wanna be slim, i wanna be Toned!
and having said that, i shall JOG today after my library session,
i PROMISEEE.



Jesus, i miss you.
come and sanctify my room, my heart, my life again.

that blow landed Hard.
i guess he wasnt aware of that.

wish i've got a heart that heals real fast.
wish for people who care,
but not too much till they interpret things differently.
for people who care. and then again for them not to care so much.
wish for listening ears but not those who form their own judgment when it ends.
wish my life was more transparent.

in short, God i just wish that theres an angel here on earth with me/for me/by me/to walk this route with me.

no one's perfect, and im not too.
--


HAHA okayy.
cheryl and hansheng just did something online that really made me smile.
THANK YOU (:


okay okayy,
"if not for yourself then for those around you"
guess it will be my personal motto for the rest of the year.

tomorrow will be a better day
(:

cause' its all right, theres nothing to stop us.
if it feels right, then everything's fine.
for just one night,
then you go back to your life and i go back to mine.






its 8pm, gonna go for my evening jog.
:D




"she sat like patience on a monument. and let concealment like a worm in 'th bud feed on her damask cheek".

im not here to say im sorry.
im not here to laugh at you.
im here to say im ready.

came home and i was so reminded of my greater calling and purpose.
excited for praise and worship tomorrow (:
its been quite awhile since i last played for cell.

cant believe my econs teacher spoke to w about my condition.
im touched by her worries and actions of concern. but also Scared about letting her down.

AH!
i feel like there are so many pairs of eyes watching me,
watching my grades falling and rising and vice versa,
watching my tutorials,
my studies, my behavior,
Everything.

i Musnt let them down, i cant.


if not for yourself, then for those around you.

cant remember when was the last time i had a good sleep.
people around be have been still falling sick.
it scares me how fast time can fly
and how we can seem to think that theres still much time to spare as each moment pass.

i know how it feels like to be the only one standing alone.
Thank You so much for being my firm support
dear God,
they dont understand.
and i know that no one's perfect.
Thank you for being Unfailing.
for being the strong arm which i can lean on
Always.


you become the meaning the of my life.

watched clips of the show tofu intro-ed to me.
i got so Grossed out by it :/

fever and headaches have spoilt my studying plans.

but i am better now,
only left with a cough.
thank JESUS for making me strong, i always recover fast (:

soon's still quite sick.
i hope she recovers soon.
Missed service today
and i know that the sermon's exceptionally good ):
the buffering was so bad online that i couldnt watch it,
its okayy, shall watch next week since they'll load it up on the website!

H had a breakthrough.
i am nothing else but Happy :D
for him!
and THANK YOU JESUS,
for giving me this chance again.
i miss giving bible studies and serving through simple ways in cell.
i miss those regular ppl i used to have for follow-up.
not that they are all bad,
but its just that their lives have been 'stagnant' for a long time now,
they need a breakthrough.
and i need a breakthrough too.
i Cant wait to start serving in my very own ministry again.
but for now,
people have been telling me
studies first, ministry can wait.

YAR.
so MUCH to study.
i dont know where to start ):
oh God, if only im half as smart as you.

PROM!
my family's going for holiday,
to TAIWAN. china again!
but, the date clashes with prom.
i Pray that it wouldnt be comfirmed yet.
if not, MAN.
its just like history repeating itself.
i couldnt make it for my sec four prom because we were away for holiday in China too.
AH.
not exactly excited about the prom dress and heels part
but more of the bonding and fun

HMMM,
have more important stuff to think about
come what may!


need some motivation.

so TIRED,

after a long school day.
with different surges of emotions coming from all directions.
i wish i could make my exam scripts look Prettier.
leaders' meeting just now was so Great.
i havent been so honest to both me and Daddy for so long.
shall blog more about it sometime soon.

for now,
goodnight, sleep tight,
dont let the bed bugs bite.
(:


just like one of those foreign beings misplaced in society.
i thought i knew enough, but apparently i do not.

i FAILED my MATHS.
):

but on a lighter note,
i managed an E for GP for the first time in so many months.
im just one point away from a D man!
didnt know talking about Nick Vujichic and Michael Jackson could help me pass it.
thank you Jesus! (:

caught up with ALTHEA today.
:D

read this great christian book called "the secret place" today.
MM, i realised that im so Far from perfection.

OKAY,
everyone's studying.

this is so Scary.
but i shall start being a Mugger too.



obedience brings blessings and rest.

you make it real for me.


wish i could start working at this point of time.
i'll slog my butts off and make Big money
so no one will be in the position to comment about anything.

ive gotten myself a Pretty moleskin notebook.
its my new diary come notebook for sermon notes.

wish i could fly to new york with tofu.
boy, do i need a break from everything.
-

want to invest in a particular series of books.
the first book starts with "twilight" (:
its time i start reading again
Love to read, but havent got the time to do so recently.

school reopens TMR.
i dread it.

think i better grab my study notes and start hogging coffee bean or the library again.
mm. realised that i study better with gradys and blackspot because they would monitor me.

grand mama's birthday tonight.
we are gonna eat CHICKEN RICE!
all the way at Boon Keng.
oh man,
OKAY. today i eat. and enjoy for the last few hours.
and when school reopens tomorrow, we'll cut the slack and the drilling shall begin.

TADA.


i wanna fall in love with You.

ive got too much to blog about.

oh, my family thinks that i've got a boyfriend.
HAHAHAHAHA.

got some of the pictures from Mai(:
everyone was squeezing so tightly, didnt even know who we took pictures with!
haha, spot us if you can.
ah soon and i were standing beside the principal in the second pic!

was listening to gradys share about the movie she watched - 4bia.
so Scary, it worked up my wild imagination last night.
i tried to control my bladder because it was so dark outside my room,
at 2AM!
but bladder was bursting, so that left me with no choice but to sprint back and forth.
--

really needed a moment with Daddy yesterday.
came home, locked myself in the room and had some private moment.





not alone anymore.

let it roll right off your shoulders,
dont you know the hardest part is over.

i was messaging ALTHEE in the day today,
YAY! we're gonna meet up pretty soon on the coming monday.
me cant wait (:

we went out to check out our class sweaters today.
im so Excited about it!
its gonna be WHITE with GOLD fonts (:
but it costs approximately 41 bucks,
gonna start saving up.
i'm so Darn BROKE.
):
went to check out at the bus terminal today,
carrying hopes of finding my long lost wallet.
but to no avail.
made me so Upset.
i dont understand. i mean, if I were the one who have found it, i would have returned it.
surely, there must be some good people existing in this world.
ive been refusing to make a new card or terminate my cards totally,
because i believe i'll find it eventually.
Yes, i know it sounds Dumb and Naive.
but, surely, there must be something more than this.

TOFU's starting school tmr.
HAW HAW, no more bumming around.
(:

--

MAN, all along
i didnt know that you smoke.
i guess, i have so much to work on now.

flames to dust.

after reading Althee's blog,
i decided to set my focus and priorities right.
to walk the talk and not just talk and talk about what i want to do in my own life.
the next time i share about my own issues,
it shall be of testimonies and not of my future "what- i -want- to- do" things.

its 10:30AM,
and with my current tummy ache and after reading her blog,
i decided to not head to the gym anymore.
Bomb, and i shall spend some time alone in my room
with just my guitar and God.

i want to focus on the right things,
for the right Reason.
not to please or prove to anyone reading this,
or not even to make myself feel better inside out.
no wonder they say that its really Difficult to have a pure heart.

please dont pass me by.


survey in school later.
BAH.
that means traveling.


oh yes,
i miss ALTHEE Alot.
the one who taught me guitar and always believing that i could play proper and nice music someday.
Thank You so much (:
from a tone-deaf singer who couldnt even strum well..
that was in sec one when we would sit at the back of the class and during every free time we had,
we would grab the guitar behind and you would teach me.
at first, our classmates jeered and poked fun at me whenever i practiced my constipated strumming.
but slowly, i was able to play for morning devotions in front of the whole school.
and then, our classmates started finding delight whenever we played the guitar at the back of the class.
and i became the 'guitar teacher' with you!
when there was no music,
they said that the class felt Empty.
and then i was good enough to play the guitar for cell and lead prayer meetings.
not an expert but good enough.
THANK YOU ALTHEE,
you Touched my life.
i'll Never forget you and Blackspot.
(:

and so the saying goes,
that people come and go
but some will leave footprints in your life.

you left your footprints in Mine.
(: