30th June'06

hey world, its a friday! and i feel lyk i'm on a holiday.
(:
this is so totally Cool.
no sch Until tuesday, this Calls for a celebration man.

lets just start off with ytd.
had my chinese O's oral.
Man, it was so tough.
the two examiners were Male. haha we were lyk hoping they wld be female or smth.
cause' it wld be so much more Comfortable in a way.
well, it Does make a difference.
oh best. like tts not enough.
one of them Is frm RI and the other frm China.
my gosh, i almst freaked out.
the passage was alright. it was smth abt ur dad n communication.
when we all saw tt passage, we were All relieved.
cause the conversation's gonna be smth lyk tt.
Who knows wat kindof crap qns was coming up.
"..some students when attending classes lyk arts, and civic moral...have bad attitudes. what do you think abt it?.."
i guess the topic was smth lyk tt.
cause i rrly had no idea wat they were talking abt.
the moment the qns came out, my jaw just dropped in frnt of them.
i was lyk, Huh?! and gave them a totally blank look.
wat was tt "CME" word in mt? its lyk dao4 de2... so CHIMmified!
i made them repeat the qns lyk twice n explain it to me.
haha everyone Was struggling.
and sarah lee went to ask them for the explanation of CME.
haha!
oh well. i'm just complaining for the sake of complaining.
it kindof makes me feel better.


while the exams are over, and its rejoicing time,
i'm gonna start my revision!
Shrooms, you promised to call n spot check on me every now and den.
well, you better!
if i score well for O's, i make sure you'll be the happiest person on earth okay!



went over to rachel's hse with shrooms.
wanted to watch tt korean drama.
but apparently, we didnt noe how to operate her tv.
HAHA
its Her tv and she doesnt noe how to use it.
tts the way she is.
we went to dunk some balls opp her hse.
i strongly objected at first cause theres lyk so many ulu pandan ppl.
all the ah bengs and ah sengs.
i noe i'm rather discriminating.
but stillllllll.
but i think Everything happens for a reason.
cause we were playing when i saw this guy, who's junle's friend.
why of all times ytd? and of all ppl, see him? and of all places, There. he stayed in rachel's condo.
and its lyk she's my best budd.
i dun think its all out of pure coincidence.
YES?
No.
i think its God!
right right right? someone pls tell me.
i was so amazed by how small this world is ytd.
and how God works so wonderfully.
well, there were SO many other outcomes.
lyk we cld have played in Her condo instead of opp. but we didnt.
and its lyk, for all you noe we can all hang out one day.
cause its all so convenient. lyk me, also going over to rach's place n them staying ard there.
No?
i think God's amazing. (:

we played PS2 the whole night.
it was FUN (:
though she was on the phone.
but it was alright wat. i understand and i noe it means lots to her.
anyhow, James n Christine were great entertainers.
haha
i hope christine's hamster wont die.
we bathed it in cold water last night ard 2am plus lar.
there was once when my hamster cause of shock.
i hope its doesnt die!
if it does, we'll just thank God tt we only Bathed One and not All.

we talked quite abit last night.
everyone Has their flaws and weakness.
i think, wats best is tt we say it all out and not keep anyting in the dark so we can pray over it.
rather den allow the devil to have control.
aint it true?
if only things are That way on our side.
sometimes i feel lyk theres so much we can do which can make things better.
well, i'm a human.
i have my flaws too.
i suppose Not many noe abt them.
cause lyk most ppl, i keep them in the dark.
but wat for?
one of My biggest struggle is Faith.
i noe i'm good at encouraging others most of the time
its not tt my own spiritual life is a fake.
but its just tt my Faith gets swayed very easily.
very easily. sometimes, i fear too much.
and i feel insecure inside sometimes.
no wonder she said tt theres no peace in my heart sometimes.
i get easily affected too.
by the ppl ard me.
i guess most of the time it works lyk tt for me.
my heart Will be heavy if the ppl ard me has/have problems.
somehow, its just this burden.
thats why i'm gonna SMILE more frm now onwards.
and though i'll still be burdened by things whethere it concerns me or not,
it wont be that bad.
i know i appear strong spiritually to some ppl.
in sch, in cell, outside.
but i have my flaws too.
lyk any other ordinary being, i Doubt too. just tt a lil More.
i guess its really all in You, trusting in God.
and placing Him in ur heart always despite how much you fear and how insecure you are.

i'm very extremely grateful to ppl like you who can understand my situation.
whether is it personal things or things going on on my side.
though you noe not too deep sometimes.
you still give some comfort and assurance.
sometimes i just wish we belong to the same church manz.
whethere its mine or yours.
or mayeb neither.
tt way we can Relate Even even better.
and make things well.
but i guess God has a purpose for everything.
i just thank Him enough for letting Me be your angel and You being Mine.
i used to pray over this bond tt we share.
you hav ur own comittments n duties n friends and i have mine too.
i used to fret tt one day wat we share will be all taken away.
somehow, someway, someday.
what if all tt i sowed doesnt labour fruit n result in trash instead?
but i saw tt God was in the centre of our bond to which i will call is More den friendship.
i'll look beyond ur flaws though soemtimes i just dun say them out.
cause you too look beyond mine.
and we'll get rid of the childish thoughts.
not be selfish, and share each other with others.
i think i sound so mushy.
but aiya.
Lord, thankyou for ALL these angels you've blessed me with.
i wont dare to ask for more.





what appeared in my vision comfirmed my fantasy




LIYUN: i agree with you! and i saw wat i wanted to see haha!

SANDY: sandy wonnnnnnnngg