13th July'06

one of the hardest thing to do in life.
is to express what you feel inside. espcially to someone who Means alot to you!
i used to get so shy and emo when it comes to telling tt person how much, exactly he/she mean alot to you.
okay, maybe i still am emo sometimes.
but even things as simple as telling how much you Love ur bestest pal and buddy who has been right beside you all the time seems difficult.
but AIYA
if those words really come out, they wld sound so Very mushy n romantic.
so much that it might be quite sick.
haha.
anyhoww,
i realise the importance of You in my life!
You and You and You and You!
in case you're wondering, its Four different blanks.
and i dun feel lyk saying the Names of these precious ppl.
because..what if You and you and you and you read my blog!? or come across it.
i noe you will. and i dun want to think abt how to react later on.
soo, oh well (:
maybe i'll tell you personally some day.

YOU
are really one of my greatest treasure on Earth (:
though it was me who found you.
i thank God for letting me discover this amazing precious little thing.
sometimes you reallyreally Do get on my nerves.
especially when you fail to understand how much i sacrifice.
i just felt lyk screaming,
"You!? MORON. why do i have to put up with this creation of GOD!??"
haha it was that bad.
but then as time went by, i discovered that i meant alot to you too.
and the reason behind why i felt lyk screaming sometimes was because..
you mean alot to me!
sometimes i reallyreally feel lyk i give more than i take.
but really, it isnt abt giving.
you once said before that i seem to always be there for you yet you cant seem to fill my heart whenever theres a hole.
i guess diff things work in diff ways.
because just by having you confiding in me is enough to make me happy.
just ur company makes me happy!
though sometimes theres rrly nth to talk abt.
i feel happy in the comfortable silence.
i am NOT a les or watsoever.
but Really.
i guess i'll hold on to this Very tightly. until eternity (:


YOU
have always been my laughter.
though sometimes i feel so down n horrible n yucky on the inside.
and i dun even share those problems with you.
you just seem so happy in ur own smilely world.
so much that i dun want to burden them with you.
but when we talk, it was enough to make me open up Myself, willingly.
and somehow, i dunno how you manage to do it.
but you ALWAYS succeed in making a fool out of ME!
on a funny way. and den a fool out of urself!
and we'll both be the most embarrasing ppl on earth.
fullstop.
you Idoit.
all ur self-flattering rrly makes me want to Punch you at times.
shut up and stop deceiving urself!
haha that was meant to be a joke.
nah, you're really pretty in my eyes.
pretty as in really pretty. physically n inwardly.
just that i dun tell you so (:
you noee..sometimes i can feel our friendship slowly slipping away.
i noe its my fault.
i really dunno why but maybe thats how it works in the human world.
cause to ME, the other Person seems lyk the only one i'm holding onto and SHE apparently seems to care more for another person. and YOU seems to care mroe abt ME.
this is so confusing.
but AIYA, i noe can alr.
i still love you as much as i always do (:

YOU
have been sucha a Great GREAT listener.
an encourager.
it seems lyk you're the only source of inspiration n motivation behind me.
though i dun tell you this.
but things that you do,..
the way you always talk abt your own encounter with God.
as well How much you long to do for Him,
all the fasting and prayer n everything.
just make me go.."wow" thats it, fullstop.
and then, you leave me all so amazed.
challenged to do so much more.
ppl tell me that they're encouraged by ME.
but i tell them that i'm encouraged by YOU.
sometimes i just acknowledge it within my heart, simply because i've talked lots abt you alr.
but you're so amazing.
i think you're God's sent angel down frm heaven for me.
(:


YOU
are beautiful!
in your own so very unique and special way.
which makes me just Smile and go "woahh" in my heart.
i really wld have to hold on to smth for support if i really have eye contact with you for a longg longg time.
smth tells me its gonna Burn.
and theres gonna be sparks.
well, i'm not easily swayed as far as i noe.
but i wld be happy if things were to remain this way.
of course i'll be dishearten if things arent getting any better.
but it wld be better than nth.
hearing abt you, laughing at ur stupid things and seeing you makes the world go round.
yes it does.



i thank God, the lovely one frm Above (: