Haha you've got to watch that. it's actually pretty amazing and weird both at the same time.

The song which has been stuck in my head for quite awhile:

And when you smile, the whole world stops to stare for awhile.

Stressed )':

Omg, my nutrition book is such a killer. So ironic, here am i studying abt healthy eating n the body etcc and im stuck here eating candies to keep me awake. 5 chpts to be tested tmr and im only at the 2nd one. The chapters are so thick?! I keep flipping and flipping but the chapter is never-ending. Camping at starbucks now but i keep dozing off even in Public?! I really salute myself. Stressed ttm, i am officially stressedgurl90@hotmail.com )': boohoo, somebody save me. I wish i'll dream of all the qns tonight.

It was sport fest ytd and i signed up for trials for touch rugby and netball. Wanted to join a cca so much but looking at my tight schedule noww, i really dk if i shld.
Ah okay la, study study studyyy!!!!!!
GPA of 3.2 and above come to me baby pleaseeeee!!!
):
i can do thisss.

Bee-sy like a Bumble bee.

UB's timetable is so different from other unis in SIM.
There is so much verbal diarrhoea that i want to let go but..
)':
God please help me.
I wish people are more understanding.

feel like getting a tattoo with my to-be baptism name!

because the process, this journey has been such a meaningful one for me.

was just thinking about the goals ive set for 2010. last year was a super bad year for me and i rmb proclaiming out loud before the new year started that it is going to be the best year yet.

and i realised, that ive achieved almost all the Major goals i set for myself! (except getting into nus)

SOT, mission trip, cgl, water baptism

ive tried searching for tattoos with this word but the results arent much- shows how common/unique it is (:

but i dont know if my parents would allow ):

oggay, one step at a time (:

Mum helped me 'makeover' my room by shifting my bed to the other side of the room and my table to another. my room looks so different now in a good way, its more spacious.

my family's going to China again this year, to a different region. mixed emotions, happy to be on a holiday, out of singapore to somewhere. winter season! but i wont be able to spend christmas here ):

Preached for the 3rd time during cgm. felt so nervous. but im so greatful for this bunch of lovable people. i need to have more confidence. got to have more confidence fiona, more confidence, more confidence, more confidence, more confidence, more confidence, more confidence!

So much work to conquer. need to write journal entries for my music and english classes and write blog posts for english blog as well. i cant believe that im still blogging in here. how many journal entries can a person write?! so many! Cant stop looking at clothes online. i seriously havent bought any accessory/clothes for the past one month. for myself. okay la, except last week. there is so much that i wanna buy!!! walked through the lanes of bugis st last week to look for a hp cover with sliyun and my eyes seriously Cant stop looking at all the clothes! but there was no time and i had to leave super early bcause of math paper the next day. im so shopping-deprived! wanna get a new bag, heels, make up set..watch me splurge when i have the chance mann.

like this quote- "Shopping keeps me sane plus, its cheaper than a psychiatrist".

it is SO TRUE.

it just looks and feels so right to be together as childhood friends again (:

oggay, i was typing and blogging a whole chunk down.

but i kept dozing off in between and realised that i didnt save.

TIREDD, shall continue tmr.

sweet dremas (:

i got my first EGG for my math paper today.

EGG= kosong= ZERO ):

studied and practised but in the end only ONE question came out for the paper. ONE simple question which i just couldnt see the trick to it. )): ahh saded. i really hope i can do tomorrow's paper. its a little terrifying to be studying and practising math and to know that only ONE question will be coming up. a question that determines your grades etc. haiyooo! i rather do 50 qns please!

skipped math lecture ytd afternoon because i felt really really dead tired. drained all my energy during the weekends and i needed to recharge real badly. plus, we had a 5 and a half break before math. i think i wld have become a living zombie by the time it started. very grateful to benedict who willingly offered to scan my card n take attendance for me. and my other friends who kept asking me to cut down and rest more. i felt SO BAD for skipping lecture but really re-charged after having a long nap. laura's bday is coming, excited ((: thank God ive understanding uni friends (:

Finished reading "the last song" within 4 days! im sooo tempted to buy another book but i knw i wld be so distracted frm studying if i were to get it now. Love nicholas spark! he has this ability to leave a strong image in your mind, picturing the exact storyline and evoking tears as the readers' hearts are moved. haha seriouslyy. love this phrase,

"Life's like a song. There's mystery in the beginning and confirmation in the end. But its the middle where all the emotion resides"

So anyway,

tomorrow's math. all you who are reading this, please pray for me!!

hope for a good dreamless sleep tonight as well. or even better, a sweet dream.

been dreaming alot of nonsensical stuff, mostly towards the dark side. i dk why ):

last night i dreamnt that my friend and i 'kidnapped' another friend by hiding her in a luggage and 'throwing her away'. a couple of days ago, dreamnt abt sth along the line of corridors, staircases, dark cloaks, guns and blood.

Sweet dreams, Sweet dreams!!

okay, time to sleep.

good nights

(:

this book is AWESOME.

now i feel like keeping what ive rented from the book store.

my mum says im addicted. spent 3 hrs just sitting down reading and reading when im supposed to be catching up on all my work.

i think ive really become a Nicholas Spark fan overnight!

been' bumping into lots of random pple recently, and a couple of super duper coincidental moments.

why do i always bump into people at my CUI moments when i feel as tired as a walking zombie? decided that i'll start putting more effort in dressing for school. i realised i look so sloppy!

ate my first snow skin mooncake of the year today from Bakerzin today.

YUMMS (:

ive concluded that, blogging keeps me sane. It's a form of releasement.

And so, i managed to complete 10laps ytd and had no more time to continue. Plus, i was too lazy hahaha. Bumped into Daphne and xueshan when i was drying my hair in the bathroom and bumped into Ruo en at sembawang while heading for tuition. And last night i was looking through fb, found out tt this particular classmate of mine is frm plmc, we have quite a number of mutual friends. No wonder he kept looking at me and no wonder he always looked so familiar!
It's a small small world.
If only i could coose who i want to bump into, that wld be Awesome.
Bodyacheee frm the swim. But it feels good to be exercising(:
seriously SO MUCH things to do and so little time. Ah fiona, you need to stop creating more time!!!
I made extra efforts to wake up early to complete my assignments but i keep falling back asleep again.
A million and one things on my mind, thinking abt W543, W543, W543, W5433333333.

Last night i had a nightmare ):
dreamnt that i was in this bike race whereby the last person to complete wld be eliminated n cannot graduate frm sot (i dk why i dream of these kindof stuff). My friend and i were the fist two to complete and so we parked our bikes but only to realise that we had no locks to lock our bikes. So i just placed the chains first and ran off to search for locks but when i returned, our bikes were gone bcause our opponents had used acid to dissolve our bikes. So tt the judges wldnt knw tt we won. And my opponent took out this gun to shoot at my friend but i defended her in time and shouldered the shot and started bleeding, bleeding.
That's where my dream stopped.
Seriously, i dk where these dreams come from, i think i can be a script writer or movie director already.
Tireddddd, didnt sleep well last night ):
tonight will be bettter!!

now that You're here, everything's so different. Everything's so different.

Never knew that new age music would really appeal to me.
In the quietness, there is a kindof peace. And a peace that surpasses all understanding.

On my way to school earlier this morning, i saw a book rental shop and went in to take a look. Rented 'the last song' by Nicholas Spark. Its so cheap im so happy!! Cant wait to read((: finished his book 'dear john' a few weeks ago. It was so Awesome that i cried while reading it.
Happy bcause tday is my so-called Sabbath day. Finally done w the quizes and test for the week. So much workload waiting for me at home but i really need a break to recharge my soul first.
Must feed your soul(:
short day in sch tday (ended at 1:30pm), met claudy for awhile and now im gg swimming!!
I Finally have time to swim. Hahaha, love spending these kindof moments w myself. Allows me to entertain my thoughts and tink abt stuff as well.

MUS113 is so fun. Loving my music and society mod.
We are going to a GALA concert in the later part of the month to watch the best Er Hu player in the world perform.
And the best counter tenor singer in s'pore is coming dwn to perform for us as well!
I think this will probably be the best mod i will ever take.
Stressed abt our individual presentations but loving the mod as a whole package!
Thinking abt taking an advanced mod in music in my following sems.

Fell down in my sch's toilet just dwn. Ouchh, luckily nobody saw, i felt so retardedd!!!
Okay i really need to stop multi-tasking.

Cant wait to reach the pool(:

Regin In Us

Oh great and mighty one, with one desire we come.
That You would reign, that you would reign in us.

have been into this song ever since the Lei muzos had their competition and won it.

Awesome Song. love the bridge.

please reign in us.

slept for 7 hrs but the person in my head is still banging the GONG ):

ahh, maybe i'll pop a panadol or two later. woke up to do a process essay before my music module in school later. thinking of camping at starbucks till night for effective studying.

dont study finish, no sleep fiona. seriously looking forward to the end of my first sem in 20th Dec and enjoying christmas.

i really wonder what christmas will be like this year. with so many of my close friends already attached. haha. its okay, i keep telling myself that good things in life are worth waiting for. knowing that someday that person will appear at the right time (: for now i'll just enjoy my singlehood and 'freedom' that comes along with it -like what my close friends always say.

okay, its gonna be a fruitful day ahead. Smile (:

Q

"but seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you" -Matt6:33

you spin my head right round right round.

feels like theres someone banging a GONG on the inside of my head. you know, not the small kindof drumstick but the super huge kind and my head is the GONG itself. damn pain ):

slept only 3 hrs last night trying to figure out microsoft excel for my lecturer. and been' giving multiple tuitions, staying up to study for tests. i think i over-exerted myself. ahh i Cannot fall sick now. Psy is really quite crazy. so many biological terms which i need to memorise. please ask the person in my head to Stop banging the GONG!!!!!!!!

but on a flip side, just had a conference call with some of my helpers. happy that most of us are finally on the same page now. caught the vision and running after it. very greatful and thankful for such amazing members (: still so faithful in their little ways, despite having 'O's this year, in a few weeks time.

i was just msging my sot mate. from the worship band and on fire for God. and he never knew that i was a pcgl/cgl. This was his response when he found out today(in the exact words):

"Hahaha wow! ure a CGL! Respekt. CGLs are amazing amazing people. Really amazing. My utmost respect for pastoral leaders. Loving people + administration + leading them are just wow.."

In more ways that one, im still a very young leader. and theres so much more that i have not seen and can do. but his words really touched me deeply. ya huh, many times the going can be reallyreally rough and we just need some encouragement or words of appreciation along the way. but even more than that, i think its the impact that is made- which ive never really really thought about. like hello?! what have i been thinking about? these are lives that we are talking about. lives being impacted and changed. and perhaps never going back to the bad old ways again. Never ever underestimate the power of influence you can have over someone else's life.

one thing that i must really add, THANK YOU NICOLETTE NG FOR EVERYTHING. you are truly AWESOME, super power girl and leader (:

Thank you so much, in more ways than one, i feel affirmed and reassured again (:

i was really tired last night but dext kept wanting to Oovoo. it really is pretty cool! miss my sot mates (:

we've moved on from Baroque music to the 20th century music in MUS 113 class.

thinking about what to do for my presentation in week 8, nervous!

its a friday afternoon (:

finally had a long 8hour sleep-which was really needed.

i had a really weird dream. dreamnt that i was the main lead in resident evil, tough woman fighting the opponents and all. HAHA and another part was that eunice was sick so i went to buy ban main for her. but i bought the wrong soup base, i got the super peppery one instead. the dream must have been inspired by the nice peppery fish which i ate for dinner last night, HAHAHA.

im so Lazyyyy to move my butt and leave the house for tuition.

was supposed to be studying this morn but i was so tired that i slept through.

Ooggayy, better get ready now if not i'll be late for tuition.

grandmama's bday dinner tonight.

bye world (:

oh gosh, very Xiong week indeed.

this has been my timetable for the week so far:

monday- school from 8:30am-5pm, cancelled tuition

tuesday- school from 12pm-1:30pm, tuition, leaders meeting,

wednesday- school from 8:30am-6:30pm, bday celebration w jiayu

tmr my day will be sth like this:

thursday- school from 12pm-1:30pm, queensway pm, tuition

many friends i wanna meet just to hang out and catch up with. and members to meet up and spend time with as well.

been very fruitful though tiring and stretching.

i MUST really expand my capacity and STRETCCCCCHHHHHHHH.

just took up a new tuition job recently. my timetable seems pretty crazy now.

im practically giving tuition on mon, thurs, fri, sat, sun.

it is Crazy.

only the 2nd week in school and i find myself dozing off in classes and at my keyboard while using the laptop halfway.

ytd was one blur day. i took the bus and alighted at ngee ann poly instead of my school. waited so long for the next bus, only to realize 15 precious mins later that i could actually take any bus. rushed to school bcause i was running late. went to the wrong lt. got so irritated with my blurness that i started tweeting but i kept tweeting pple's names wrongly!

Todayyy. i left house super duper early in the morn, feeling happy in my heart that im gonna be early for school. but halfway through my eyes almost POP OUT. realised that my lesson starts at 8:30am and not 9am. i was already almst 10 mins late. ):

ah this is so Not good.

wanna aim for a very good and perfect student report!

-doing well so far. been praised by my ESL teacher. i think she likes the blog which i set up for the class and she keeps asking me to help her do additional stuff.

hahaha i feel like a tcher's pet please! well, so long as it gets me my class participation makes

and i just realised today that ive THREE TESTS for the upcoming week.

ohmytian! i seriously need to do some major re-shuffling and re-sorting of my timetable.

Determined to make this sem a good and fruitful one. even if it means working hard.

OGGAY, feeling better after ranting things out.

im so tired. its 2:15am and my eyelids are heavyyyy.

gonna catch up on sleep before i can start studying over the weekends.

good nights!

Hahahaha.

i especially like the first video, funny!

touched by all the effort from the cg. especially nic and eunice's (:

just found another route to school. yay, no more having to squeeze with the millions of ngee ann and sim students.

okay im exaggerating!

SKYPING and OOVOO-ing now with dext and lyd. hahahaha funny!

so.. sot graduation came and went and in the blink of an eye, my 1st week of school in UB is over!

i must say that it's been a very transiting period for me.

MISS my sot mates a lot more than you can ever imagine. miss going to jw auditorium everyday and singing in choir, soaking up the presence of God everyday in bibleschool.

quite a number of them are in Malang now. i wish i can be there together with them. plus, i never know when i'll ever see my malang friends again. they must be having a blastful time with their very 1st EMERGE now ((:

it's okayy, got to know my priorities in life.

School was okay. friends are fine. just that the textbooks here are reallyREALLY EXPENSIVE ):

cost be a huge Bomb, okay no its MANY BOMBS just to buy those books.

my lectures and lecturers are okay, except that one of them is a little monotoned and her talking stamina is really good man! she kept postponing our break time bcause she wanted to carrying talking on and on. the others are great! great passion in what they teach.

one of my mods this sem is on Music and Society. my lecturer's gay! hahaha i find it really amusing to have such a funny and different teacher for the very first time. loving his lessons alot (:

anywayss one of the requirement to gain class participation marks is to upload music videos on our fb class. i know, like that also can right?! any idea what i should post? (: surprisingly, there are Lots of interesting stuff and nice music which others have posted. guess you'll see more music videos in my blog posts. inspired by the fb group and music lectures.

i really regret giving in to my itchy fingers.

my fringe was getting in the way and there was no time to visit the hairdresser. i got so irritated by my fringe that i took the scissors to cut it myself.

ARH my itchy fingers ): shouldnt have risk it. now its so short i really wish that it will grow back overnight.

i have so much to rant on about but its getting late.

been feeling sleepy very easily nowadays.

tireddddd.

good nights!

Ive been such a cranky person recently.
On my way to school on a friday afternoon, not in the best of moods.
Ahh, i need and i will stand strong.

God, only you understand.

this is Amazing:

all your expectations bury me.

i am tired.

not literally.

):

it shouldnt be this way.