my supervisor cancelled my shift on sat night
that meant one whole free night for joby n me
things werent going occording to plan.
but i was so glad that i had her
and she was glad that she had me

thank you for your LOLLY!
(:
it the first time someone gave me a big one

i think i might turn les for a short period of time
just KIDDING.
haha

we strolled ard clark quay after cell
and den headed for expo
we sat at the big windows in the library
the sight was Beautiful
round the corner, i cld see my workplace
i cldnt help but acknowledge tt i'm gona quite my job soon
do people really come n go in life?
and
i must admit i've not been a perfect friend to Everyone.
but i tried and the sometimes the going gets really tired for some.
why do i seem to feel tired lately?
is there even an end to it?

MAN. i see a pile of problems lying in front of me.
and to think that i wanna be a Psychologist.
someone once told me tt a Psychologist's got to have a Strong mind
be able to take one problem after another
and not let these burdens affect yourself emotionally.
seems like i cant even handle my own problems,
what about others'?
i Might die of depression Man.
-
and i feel it for Joby.
that stupid guy of hers,
i ever Do get to see him, the first i'll do is really to throw him hell lots of qns
and if he cant give a proper ans to each of them
i'll be sure to Kick his Butt real Hard.

thank God i'm single.


I AM OKAY.

and i'm going out today! with lana tan
and then i've got work tonight
(:

Soccer t-shirts are very very Cool




the way that i want you to know

hello world!
okay firstly, i've said it personally to my dear friend alr
but i want to shout it in here Big and Loud:


HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOON LI YUN! :D

see, its GREEN buddy,
thankyou
for the happy and the sad,
the sweet and the bitter
i treasure them all
its been Six whole years, and still counting yea?!
i hope you'll like the present that we got you.
theres still a few more days till you get it.
i'm so Sorry that its gona take so long man,
but i think you're gona like it.
(:


i've got a few pics frm last night.
theres more to come frm saihoo's camera
its nice to have friends who bring their cams along,
they capture all the nice stuff!

i spent my early hours of the day with JOBY ytd we tried a couple of jeans and guess what, we gave up haha. it was irritating having to find smth that fits you perfectly. so we sat and chat Alot instead. her boyfriend is one major source of a problem. but then again, its also her source of laughter and happiness. Love is so difficult to understand. i really wonder what it'll be like..maybe two years down the road for me? someone promised to be there when i need her Huh. better mean what you say! (:

that stupid woman fell sick today. i think she worries too much. but what i can i say? so as a good friend, i visited her n brought her to the doctor. the hours in the day were long but we entertained ourselves. YEA (: joby feels much better now.

hey sandy wong, Get well soon too! i do care for you, you know.

i was quite free this week. very free in fact, that i started to worry what i was gona do to waste my time away. cause theres no work for the whole of this week. i am starting to Miss it real badly. when i get back, i'm gona flash a Big big smile at the glass window opp.

anyhow, i guess the week's almst up anyway. gona swim tmr with my good old pri SIX pals (:

funny how things work. seriously, its feels much better not having to think of draining stuff.

i feel rather Blessed for now. and i thank my heavenly father for that(:

please dont play with me, my paper heart will bleed

hello world,
its been awhile since i last updated
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! (:

i know its typical,
but my first day of chinese new year was really much of eating n of course, catching up with relatives!
it was until we were half way to my grand dad's place tt i realised i wore black n white today
aha, what a coincidence
thanks goodness my grand daddy was hip enough to ignore tt matter
i wasnt able to make it for the cell reunion steamboat
i'm Sorry sandy, and also the others who put in lots of effort
i felt so bad man, causei know how it feels to organise things
Sorry. hope that we'll all like gather gt n have fun again,
its gona be a long time till then

on the plus Plus side..
met up with my dear maggiemee friend,
PAMELA soh :D
haha, we were supposed to shop for some new year stuff
but shopping can be really stressful man.
and yea, we Dont like shopping
so a change in plans caused us to catch a movie instead
wanted to watch PROTEGE but due to time constrain
we caught follow law instead. some local show
wasnt worth the money
but we did had fun talking n laughing in the freezing cinema
oh yea, right before the show i bummed into Joby(:
but she told me she was out with her family n her brother was around
we said our goodbyes real quick after hearing that
aha
personal issues.

i've been putting quite alot of effort into some stuff lately
hope it pays off!

cant wait for Next Week
-Grins
:D


oh YEA
did i mention tt i played with birds today?
we were at my Goduncle's place n the kids there have baby parrots!
my gosh, yellow n blue ones which looked superb pretty man
and so they were flying ard in the room,
landing on almst everypart of my body every now n then
my shoulders, hear, fingers, hands
if you're wondering, well,
they Did shit on my shoulder a couple of times
HAHA
but thank God, its baby birds i'm playing with
poo comes out dry and a small lump
i hope their still alive next year when i see them again


okie dokes,
see ya



what made God take so much care to make creation glow?
He could have made it black and white and we had never known.

after one whole day of commotion,
my head starts to spin
i feel really dizzy and i was(Am still) a lil sick since morning
with a little of cough n block nose
there was just so much to take in today

if you're wondering,
i didnt do that well.
it wasnt up to my expectation nor was it smth which i have been hoping for.
strangely, i wasnt surprised though.
my dream came TRUE.
man, i really duno how to put how i'm feeling to words
but i guess i just cldnt accept it.
i mean, its freaky you know.
having dreams and den once in awhile having these weird feelings that they wld come true.
and They really DO come true.
its not a bad thing, i know its the Holy Spirit at work.
and the past few times it happened, it Amazed it so greatly.
so i really asked God to use me again, in some way or another. just similar to the times when He wld simply speak to me through my dreams.
but
How wld i know that it had smth to do with my results.
and how wld i know that it had be so soon?!
i was scared, i didnt know what to do man.
i mean, i cldnt bring myself to accept the fact.
the fact that my results tallied with what i dreamnt.
for days i've been telling Him,
"this is not what i want, please give me smth better. just give it to me"
and i've been trying to hope tt somehow i had dream a better dream to cover up the bad one.
well, i Know that God has a purpose for everything to happen and since He even told me beforehand, there surely has to be a Big reason for me not getting into the jc i wanted.
right?

forget it if all of the above doesnt makes sense.
it doesnt matter anyway.

anyhow.
it was Superb scary today i tell you.
i cld even feel the tension before getting my results.
and when i got my paper, i refused to tear it open
Jean sihui n soon li were ard me, telling me to open open open
all the struggling got my result slip so cumpled now.
i've thought long enough
and
i kindof accepted what has been done.
i really should trust God more shldnt i?

words are really just mere words when compared to actions

i realised that theres still a long route to growing n learning
and boy,
do i have to be Strong.


tell me that its gona get better

SEVEN more days to valentine's
i guess this year's gona be one of the most boring year to celebrate it
for one thing,
no more cookies or presents or sweets frm all my Girlfriends
we're out of PL alr
and we dun meet up so oft anymore
arh!
last yr was fantastic man
just seeing little presents pilling up on ur table sends the joyous feeling
i'm Determined to not spend a lonely valentine's!
--

OH yea
TWO more days to the results day
i've dreamnt once tt i had 30 points
den i dreamnt my Physics mcq was 13/44, sec B n C full marks but prac was real bad and i failed overall.
and Then the recent dream was about getting 16 points
i want to have pleasant dream about my results before getting them
maybe 13 r 14?!
at Least i can get into AC in my dreams
it kindof makes me feel better you noe
you get wat i mean??

boy, i think before that we're gona go somewhere n have fun before facing reality
i Cant wait to see all my PL friends again
but the atmosphere is just so Wrong Wrong Wrong.
i am Scared.
--

went for a swim today with eLana n joyce
and den for prayer meeting

the JOY of the Lord shall be my STRENGTH

not gona allow other sorrows or sadness to pull me down
i know i'm in the right track n thats good enough


i have work today.
TADA (:





when i grow up i wana protect the ones i love

hello world,
i am Superb filled
new year cookies make me very very full
see lar, all the exercise for nth
i think i might find time for much exercise soon

so
i went for JAMs church with sandy ytd
and the ppl there are very hyper
in fact, they're very friendly too
i think its kindof expected that i'd be touched or smth
and i really was
it really encourages me to see these ppl so happy
and, a part of me envied them for not having to worry abt anything at all
-
i compared JAMs n CHILDREN church
and after thinking alot alot
i'm gona join JAMs (:
you can see that they need ppl there too
i wanna be the one who gives that extra love to especially extraordinary ppl
--

dear God
i dun wanna quite my job
help me to convince my parents please?
i wanna do well for O's
help me to be able to smile when i see my results please?


and God,
help me to Love you more
i do but i tend to ignore it sometimes
i wanna be More than this



love is unresonable

yo world,
i played badminton with lana n soon li ytd
andd HO
my Kick-boxing class is starting in April!
:D
YEA it had be perfect it were to start earlier though

--

will be trying out JAM's church today with sandy
i wonder wat it'll be like
well, not that i've never had any interaction with this grp of ppl before
but to stay in a ministry lyk this for ..years?
i hope that amt of patience n love
which those ppl in Jam's church have
-

man
you know, what can i do?
i'm not blaming anyone for telling me their sorrows or problems
and no, i'm talking abt this Particular person
its, a few ppl ard me
i cant help but feel lost.
and i question myself,
what can i do to help?
truth is, i cant do anything much
except to lend a listening ear.
and perhaps jus keep praying n hoping
up to this point, how am i supposed to know the direction when everyone else is lost too?
i need to be told what to do as well.
perhaps the storm's gona clear soon
i feel Sorry that i cant do much to aid anything.
but i hope this pair of ears help alot.
and for whats to happen, we'll pray n wait n see


i'm the girl who's kicking the coke machine