23rd July'06

in life, theres Aways Always Always a constant circle going round and round and round.
a cycle of sadness and depression.
and then its happiness and smooth sailing.
den wham, troubles again.
Stupid Cycle.

but i guess its really the faith within that gets you moving.
to be honest,
i cant feel God anymore.
not the same way as i used to.
each time i come before God's presence, i dread of the outcome.
and Prayer's smth thats difficult.
not tht i dun pray. but its so tough to, esp when i'm alone. esp when i wanna speak to Him for a long long time.
the tiredness, distractions, watever just keep coming in.
making me stuck in this stupid cycle as well.
just ytd, we were talking abt overcoming our weaknesses.
if others can, why cant i?
but, i thank God for everything.
it really works.
count the blessings when things ard seem lyk curses instead.
and den you'll start to realise that God really does care for you actually.
you just have to be stronger and stronger and stronger.


God, if you really really do care,
please just hear what the ppl on this earth are crying out.
please come among our families.
get rid of all these vulgarities.
take away the violence and curses and hatred.
take away all the misunderstandings and suspicions.
come into our lives and please help us to see the light.
so many times, you promised that you will never forsake nor leave us.
if this is so, i pray that i'll never have to stumble so very often again.
i pray that all we see ahead is You alone and none other.
please just be with us and never let us go.
remember us.
i noe that you're listening.
i noe that you care.
but we arent perfect.
we tend to doubt. we're insecure ppl.
i'm longing to see heaven on earth.


i believe that what i'm believing in is the same thing as what i used to believed.
Lord i believe, help my unbelief.



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