21st July'06

friday! i was Happy until a few moments ago.
one of my good friends called and gave me a reality check. just minutes ago.
it was more like a Tight Slap in the face.
i'm really trying okay.
really!
everyday i go to sch and face the white board.
"52 days to prelims.. 102 days to O's (i think).. and blah blah days to Cambridge dinner..blah blah days to freedom"
if this is meant to Push us.
its really working.
too much in fact. i dunno where to start studying!
i got my report book today.
and they didnt believe me when i told them my class position.
their unbelieve only made things worse.
Eee. and jue was flipping thru my bk today. she said i used to be some smart kid. really.
i looked thru. and woah. seriously, i Really was doing well.
i mean lyk, 3rd in class, those A1s.
i wonder where they all flew to.
AIYA

God will Really really make a way right?

right now i just have to figure How am i going to present this report bk to my mum.
how am i going to put up with her Voice when i'm alr having trouble doing so.
i noe everyone wants to help me.
thank you for offering up your precious time and for all the times i've bugged you guys for much that i dun understand abt.
i pray that God will look down and see all these now. and Help ME.
i know He will. i just need some assurance frm no one actually. but frm Him only.
i really feel like crying ):
someone make me smile.


schoool.
seems happier and lighter esp when we all make an effort to be cool abt it.
chem prac was funny!
blame the class for the register order.
my bench was occupied by Nicole, Me, rachel and ms sarah lee.
and my left, right partners are Sotongs lar.
sarah is so far away ):
teacher called on me today. i looked to the left, and den to the right for help.
that was when i realised.
wah, die. both of them are equally as bad as me.
haha but it was funny.
cuase of the way we all screwd everything up.
practical. rachel ho, that woman mixed all the acid and solutions wrongly.
she titrated the stuff. and i had to help her to catch up.
it was really funny. you've got to be there to see it all manz.
so we were all laughing at her.
when..i realised i too was doing the wrong thing.
was supposed to add only lyk wat, 2 drops of starch sol.
i dunno how, but the instructions got mixed.
and the starch solution just kept adding on and on and on. and soon enough, the whole flask was Black.everyone had a shocked when they saw tt black stuff.
it was hilarious!
plus, titrating a coulourless sol so that it becomes colourless!?
it doesnt even make sense!
i told you we screwd everything.
Then it was sarah lee's turn.
i told you we were all sotongs lar.
She screwd up her chem prac too.
she added the wrong stuff as well.
hopeless, hopeless, hopeless!
i thank God for these bench mates anyhow.
it makes lesson more interesting!




i'm falling for 'Jars of clay' (:
and it was really nice singing in class today.
Mon, i'll bring my whole file of guitar scores.
and we'll sing and sing and sing.
that had be amazing.



farewell, fair cruelty