14th Aug'06

i skipped school today.
arh, i know lots of ppl Will react and some will start 'lecturing' me after knowing my reason.
i have personal reasons. haha
i havent touch my physics yet and the test's tmr lar ):
and if case you dunno, i have a Phobia of physics, theres so much to study.
and mrs tay's face always makes me feel so guilty cause i've never passed nicely for my physics ever since last yr.
i dun want to let her dwn again, by failing this time.
someone once told me that diff ppl react differently to stress.
some work even harder and go all the way, some run away.
for now, i'm working hard, and running away a lil i guess.

but do you noe smth?!
the feeling of guilt is so heavy. and..rather intense for me.
i kept waking last night n the thought has been flashing in my head since this morning.
is it me or is it other issues? yes, it rrly makes me feel so guilty, but i rrly need the time
plus, so many other ppl's doing it now a days.
skipping sch to buy time.
i dun think i'll ever do this again though, the feeling's horrible.
clara must be sitting alone during A maths today, without any partner.
i can almst imagine her saying,"i'm gona kill fiona Quek!"
and rachel must be hanging with shrooms all day.
rachel saying,"i shld have pon sch with her lar! that slacker!"
shrooms saying,"i'm gonna scold her!"
mk understanding why i skip sch cause She herself Skipped before.
jue,"that fionaa arh.." and she'll shake her head a lil, but understanding my reason.
althea! arh, i wldnt dare to tell her my reason for not going to sch, cause i'll feel lyk i let her down in some way.
haha, it rrly do sounds lyk i've committed a big crime huh?
actually, i think i miss them more den i suppose they wld think of me.
funny how much sch has affected my life, esp the ppl in there.
though we arent that kindof close close who'll actually hang out 24/7, i guess its the link in the heart whereby, you just dun have to meet up and be close all the time. its an acknowledgement in the heart.
annnnd, theres laksa in sch today! haha, i noe lar, it sounds so dumbb.
But, its been smth that i've started to like recently. yucckk, they dun sell it on other days.

you noe, how nice wld it be if we all have a chance to make wishes.
this way, the world will be such a happier place.
i want to do smth great and meaningful after finishing my big O's.
i dunno how, i dunno what, but it'd be so amazing to fill the holes in ppl's lives. and, everyone's gonna be happy!
if i have the ability to do so..i would,
elana-remove all your doubts and fears that you have. and really, let you be happy on the inside, the exact same way you appear to be on the outside.
liyun-help you in ur spiritual life and boost it all the way up. cause i believe you really can do great things!
sandy-remove watever thing thats has been restricting n obstructing n bothering you for so long. i just hope for you to be yourself and do what you want! trust urself, n dun let others control you
weide-heal your sickness and seriously, Feed you with lots of food lar. you need more Food haha
hansheng-remove ur doubts and troubles in life and see you Happy!
rachel-take away ur slacker attitude and be behind you, supporting what you do in ur church (:
shrooms-help you in ur spiritual life and tell you tt you're really awesome!

lets face the facts, the world is sucha broken down world lar.


HAHA, rachel just called me. that woman skipped sch too!
oh wells, what can i say?





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