10th Aug'06

today was (:
i met rach, James and Amos in the morning.
i was Supposed to study with rachel. we had lyk four chapters of chem to crammed into our brains, plus lit essays.
who noes, they came along too. haha
but it wasnt so bad.
we hung ard in the arcade n travelled all the way to esplanade's library.
for wat particular reason, i know not.
someone please tell me why were we so dumb?
it was no diff lar, it was as crowded.
but i guess we study better under pressure.
i sat there for hours straight. and after the whole thing, i really jumped for joy manz.
though i'm not done with another chpt or so, it was such an accomplishment.
three heavy chapters okay!
to us it was lar.
i came hme rushing lyk some mad woman.
theres so much to do ):
theres lit eassays to type out, and another Two huge chpts of chem to go.
and somehow, all the ppl i want to talk to or have been longing to talk to always happen to chat with me at my busiest moment.
makes me feel so sad, and guilty and argh,
unpleasant feeling.



i can Really really feel the stress all coming up.
there IS/ARE O's LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL tmr.
there's Chem test tmr.
there's lit test tmr.
i can just drop dead and die lar.
i never thought that blogging abt studies wld be interesting.
but, its seriously snatching the joy frm me.

Praise God! cause still, there's always a silver lining in a cloud.
you just have to look closer.
someone told me that we dun have to study the last chpt for tmr!
thats one huge chpt gone.
EEE praise GOD! i'm smiling lyk crazy now. cause its just so amazing lar.
((: wooohoo, i Knew it! i knew that God is good!
i cant afford to fail. i'm so sorry, but if i do, i wld be letting Ms ferngy down, my parents down, God down, myself down.
i've seen everyone's disappointed faces already.
its so torturing to see them.


my mp3 is exchanged with James' one for a WEEK (:
thats so amazing. cause it has Beautiful songs in it.
(:


tmr's friday, i'm think i'll love it still.




i realised that if i dream hard enough, it'll come true