4th May'06


hey world, i'm back alive n kicking (:
firstly. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to SARAH LEE
i thank God for princess Sarah!
i rrly rrly hope you lyk tt present i gt you.
i explored this rather old but cool christian stall and
after spending a long while staring at those Beautiful stuff,
i decided to get you That.
(:
someone just bless me with those pretty little spiritual gifts frm there.
i wld so Love it.

anyhow, i feel so free
did i mention my heart has just bloom a flower?
i feel so relaxed
Rejoice. my tests are over. at least for this wk.
leave it to some other time to fret over the results.
its time for a little break now.
i can seriously feel all my pimples popping.
you see how stressing this can be?
its not even That Near O's and the ppl ard me are scaring me.
some stop coming online.
some stop blogging.
some start mugging lyk some siao nerds.
and some just remain cool and calm the way the are.
like me.
and i think i'm crazy.
cause' i Ought to Feel smth.
why aren't i feeling Anything??
i'm gonna spend my days in the library as the exams draw near.
its gonna be my second hme.
i realised. it can be rrly productive.
haha. i in love with studying.
right

its been a while since i hit the streets.
its present-hunting tmr with ah Soon.
i kindof miss tt place!
hah

sharing of devotion in frnt of the whole sch was rather okay i guess.
guess wat
of all days, i had to oversleep on tt day.
so well, i rushed to sch.
and Of Course, when you rush to sch, everything will be in a mess.
my rather long hair was flying everywhere, messed up.
socks were low. forget to remove my unmatched earring.
den Just befre my sharing in Front of the whole sch.
the discipline mistress came up to me
she was lyk:
"fiona, your hair is rrly long, see me later. i'm gonna cut ur hair for you.
and buy a new pair of socks.
throw away ur earrings. and ur nails!"

Rah! of all times!
i was fretting lyk crazy while i shared the devotion.
i think i sortof screwed things up.
but anyhow, thank God she didnt cut my hair.
who noes wat i'll look lyk now.
anyhow, i've got to tie it frm now onwards.
and tt earring is in the dustbin!
it was a gift!
i'm gonna save up n buy the exact one back.
i dont care!


my dad was talking a Whole lot just now during dinner.
he was talking abt occupation n ur grades blah blah blah.
den my brother mentioned smth abt his future career.
and my mum said smth abt a pastor and she was laughing away.
i just went,
"i want to be a pastor"
Woahh.
you shld have seen it all.
the entire atmosphere changed.
you cld practically see their faces and their emotions.
i shld have just shut my mouth up.
i shld have just zip up my stupid mouth.
but inside me, my heart was overflowing with excitement and joy.
of course, they all started lecturing me and watever lar.
they think that i've been influenced.
and they said pastors are for chosen ppl. anointed ppl.
i rrly rrly felt lyk saying,
"how do you noe tt God hasnt spoken to me? you dun noe how much i've grown spiritually.
if only you wld just care n listen."
well, i tried it before.
i tried sharing with them abt all the amzing encounters i've had before with God alone.
but the refused to listen till the end.
they just shook their head n refuse to admit tt God did smth great in me.
they think i'm too young.
tt i'm just a little pea.
but hey, my saviour can use anyone.
Anyone.
why wont they listen?
sometimes, it rrly hurts.

anyhow, i'm fine.
because i rejoice in wat the Lord has done.
she's really improving.
and now tt i see it all happening.
this is So COOL.
i'm so glad tt i'm actually the one witnessing this all happening.
she's growing, i can sense it.
and soon, her bible study's starting.
she's been coming back more n more often for cell,
for service.
i thank you God.
its another princess in Your kingdom tt i will see being added soon.
(:
yea.
this is so cool.




i still think that you are lovely
fret not, baby