24th May'06

praise God, Praise God, praise Gog, Praise God!
His praise shall continaully be in my mouth.
No, i wont let the things tt happened affect me.
No, i'll let them be.

bball was so fun today!
but i realised i wasnt as rough as before!
its a good thing? i dunno. haha
cause' if i'm rougher, i wld actually play better.
but being rough actually means risk injuring ppl.
and its not lyk you dunno me.
i've injured quite a number of ppl.
AIYA.
anyhow.
i am sososo DTERMINED to brush up my bball skills!
i wanna join bball in JC.
thats a High dream i noe. but hey, who noes?
all the talk on JC just got me rather depressed n worried.
i realsied.
i dun even noe where i'm heading.
i wanna go VJC. but just look at the pts man.
just look at them.
theres a huge gap between mine and the expected pts.
bball! kick-boxing (: and drums!
i wanna learn them.
was playing bball today when my body starting shivering.
and those goosbumps just kept popping out.
they wldnt stop.
i thought smth was wrong with me. haha
oh well, i'm Alive.
how bad cld it get?

praise God for mock examination paper one results.
i thought it wld be bad.
nth will Be Bad with my God. that, i believe.

to tell the truth.
i rrly rrly feel lyk complaining.
maybe its the result of keeping some things here n there inside my heart.
and now i feel lyk exploding.
i'm not blaming God for wat has happened.
i just think tt life is can be so screwd at times.
and look at the way ppl fall.
just look at how foolish they can get will you?
or just how dumb n foolish they can get.
or rather, insensitive.
aiya.
either way, its the same.
screwd.
i'm rather tired of having to be the one calling n asking.
to be Bugging at ppl non-stop.
i feel lyk i'm such a Big Fool.
when no one cares, why shld i care?
tell me why.
wats the pt of falling n den picking urself up, regretting wat you did.
why dun we jus make a strong decision to stay firm n not fall at all.
it will be so much better.






i just want to love you more.
teach me how