14th may'06



i dunno whether to cry or to laugh.

so it goes, after a greatgreat day in church.
i rushed hme.
bathed, and headed for the library.
i ran to the bustop hoping to catch the bus.
WELL. guess wat!?
i realised my hp was missing when i got onto the bus.
i mean, it Was with me just minutes before.
and the next thing i noe, Proof.
Gone.
my first reaction was wat the!?
i felt superb Lost at tt moment.
in short, i rrly felt lyk crying.
but i told myself Not to be discouraged.
and Most of all, Not to Blame God for all tt happened.
though deep in my heart i was crying and flooding Him with qns.
why me? why of all times, Now!? just before i get to the library n sit dwn and study?!
now i dun even feel lyk studying.

so anyhow, i alighted the bus.
and i rrly didnt noe wat to do.
i just walked ard tt isolated place for abt half an hr.
searching for some public phone, and getting over my senses.
finally, i board the bus Back to my hse.
right.
so here goes the other tragedy.
i Reached my hse.
alighted the bus.
and guess wat!?
my wallet's gone.
i dunno why, how, when. but for some reason. it just disappeared. out of my sight.
i rrly rrly felt lyk crying this time.
because its all so so freaky.
and mysterious.
my first thought was this character in the bible, Job.
God allowed Satan to come against Job, simply because job was a great servant of God.
His properties were taken away,
almst everything. He lost everything in a blink of an eye.
and even his relatives and family.
they were all dead.
yet Job still trusted in the Lord.
and God multiplied n blessed Him even more.

but this is soso freaky.
i dunno if God is testing me the way Job was tested.
but when i came online and i saw Sandy's msn nick.
"Shall we indeed accept good frm God, and shall we not accept adversity?" Job 2:10
this was wat it said.
i was taken aback.
because tt msg seemed lyk it was directly for me.
i think i'm getting paranoid. and very worried.
cause' my whole family's not gonna be hme today.
i was thinking and thinking and thinking,
wat if smth bad happened to them, just lyk Job?
but, i noe tt my God will protect me.
he wont allow anything tt i cant overcome fall upon me.
so i guess, i shld just shut up n stop complaining.
and give thanks instead for all the other goodness in my life.
maybe i just have to learn to get away frm all the worldly things.

it seems lyk i've been cut off frm the rest of the world.


anyhow
i guess i'm gonna pray and keep my day holy.
hopefully an angel will appear at my door tmr morning.
and return my those precious stuff.
and i'm gonna study hard!
nono, watever happened is not going to affect me.



at least, i'll make sure it doesnt