25th June'06

YOBOSHIYO
somehow, i'm kindda excited going back to sch tmr.
i dunno.
maybe its because i've been missing them.
but
i really thank God tt i Live in an All Girls environment.
its all the same isnt it?
since pri sch.
and now, cell's mostly packed with Females.
of course it Brings out the Unfemanine side of you.
but who cares.
its FUN.
maybe its because some areas where i've placed my hopes in have let me dwn.
and tt made me realised tt I, myself have let ppl ard me dwn too.
and right now,
i just seem to see things as.
i'll just go back to the ones who's always been embracing me and maybe take a break frm the other situation. where i have to Always be the one doing all the things.
just let Go and not care for awhile.

they say you Will make a Good housewife if you worry Alot.
i dun want to be tt!
sounds so old lar.


monday-LIT
tues-PHYSICS,GEO
wed-CHEM

we'll i guess liyun has said all that i wana say alr.
just tt, mine ENDS at 11am instead of 9am.
haha.
after tt theres chinese O's oral.
but I'm still considered FREE.
FREEDOM is BLISS


sch tmr!
i want to hug ppl Whom i wanna hug when i see them tmr!
but i think they're say tt i'm siao.
AND
i guess all the other ppl in sch will just stare lar.
its true okay.
i hugged n carried liwen in sch the other time and so many heads turned.
my gosh.
even the teacher.
mayeb its because i had short hair den.
hah.


anyhow, you noe who i wanna see in the train tmr
(:



i've done my part in slacking, in reading, in studying as what i can.
now, its time for prayers.



i like you for who you are

24th June'06

i hereby declare tt studying is So Torturing.
and if you're not careful, it can Kill you.
i woke up with the Determined spirit tt i'll study lyk Crazy today.
i wasted my whole morning on Half a Stupid chapter of chemistry.
):
i didnt understand a single thing lar.
why is it all so difficult.
HUH
i noe its my fault.
cause i havent been listening, only sleeping n stonning.
but still, it doesnt have to be so tough.
HUH
pure lit is lyk on Monday.
and i havent even touch anything on it.
i need to become an Emo person By Monday.
by hook or by crook.
if not i'll never be able to sit for tt paper.

everyone's so panicky over the exams now.
well. not fo me.
Until Today.
wah CRAP.
i havent even touch geo.
and its on tues.
my sciences are failing.
God, please help me!
i noe i'm lazy and i dun deserve Anything.
not even a single thing.
but please Help me. Please show me a miracle.
i noe you're a Faithful God. een more faithful den me.
please please be with me. please please please.

i saw my friend's blog.
"..10 more weeks to prelims. 17 more weeks to O's.."
wah best.
just what i need.


i used to be a smart kid.
whatever happened to me?


i think i complain too much.
):
but i cant help it.
byee.


when i was seven, they said i was different

22nd June'06

my God's not afraid.
no, not even a single bit.
He's my warrior in the Silver armour.
He's my Hero with the six pack n solid muscles.
He's better than a HUNK.
He's the one whom everyone will just say WOW to.
yea. tts Him.
i wanna marry Him for life (:


hey now, you're the one who's dreaming.


AWESOME: but tt makes me want to ask Even more!

SANDY: i'm here. hush, everything's fine (: God's protecting you

ME :) :hey woman, i'm trying hard to. haha i hope you're studying hard too (:

22nd June'06


i was jogging alone one day on the streets.
past the many shops with glass windows,
and past by the faceless mob of creatures.
of them, i saw some familiar ones.
some smiling at me,
because of the warmth tt existed between us.
a few frowning at me,
or rather, trying hard to avoid eye contact.
because i failed to go deep enough and sustain tt relationship.
perhaps i did, but it didnt last till now.
because of the many things tt came out of ur mouth.
and the totally different accent tt we both spoke.
i saw the sweet side n took it in.
but maybe i failed to last long enough.
and tt let it all go.
and then i saw another familiar face.
of all the others which were smiling,
yours was the brightest.
i stopped, looking at this amazing creation before me.
and i smiled back too.



because you make my life worth while (:

21st June'06

to me,
the happiest thing on earth is to see ppl ard you Happy.
and,
i'm Happy
(:


oh yar, i just rmb smth.
i had a nightmare last night.
cause we're so stressed up lately.
all abt exams n studies.
and i dreamt tt i was Superb late for exam.
uniform too Big, everything gone wrong.
thank God it was just a dream.

i've been missing a couple of ppl particularly.
all that i can do for now,
is to recall those lovely memories we had.
and maybe dwell on them for awhile.



i just want to die in your eyes



CHEUK: i relinked! haha i'm starting to find wordpress rrly cool!

SANDY: you are rubbish and childish! but tts the way you are and i lyk it haha

JUNLING: hello (: i didnt exopect you to come here. i love you Many Many too!

AWESOME: oh wow. i'm gonna ask! Why are you feeling tt way??

20th June'06

i woke up so early today just to get to sch.
half way through, my stomach flipped.
and it hurt so Much.
i had to Bomb at bishan!
oh best.
cause i was alr late for sch.
and by the time i finish wat i was supposed to do.
cmk told me the audition was over!
no point going to sch alr.
my beauty sleep was disturbed for nth



i need you here tonight


EVAN: wow, i wld love to dream of pastor Kong haha. tt wld be so cool

SANDY: mine was 100 bucks too! plus so many tithes. haha but anyway, God is good!

AWESOME: you better be there when the devil attacks! den you'll be my hero! haha

[na]: Yea, i'm glad tt my leader is strong too (:

LIWEN: hello tao hui water! i'm much better!

19th June'06

12:00am sharp (:
i like this kind of 'late' feeling.
it makes me feel lyk partying.

this morning went rather fine.
all until i received a call frm my mum.
smth rather chaotic happened at hme.
my dad found my receipt for building fund n tithe.
and all the crap comes pouring out.
i was petrified.
and i was controlling my tears.
when i cldnt take it.
hey jicai, i just want to say.
thanks for wat you did today.
its made me feel better (:


i'm okay.
like i said,
i wont let things pull me dwn anymore.
prayed n prayed and things werent tt bad when i went over to grand dad's place.
At least there wasnt any violence.
i cld feel the both of us trying hard to be patient.
there was so much i want to say you dad.
just too much.
if only i have the guts to get them out of my mouth.



just ytd i nearly blurted out the idea of getting baptized to them.
i wanted to, by this year.
but i didnt.
maybe its God, knowing it isnt time yet.
cause today, after all the commotion.
he just shouted out of the blue.
tt i wasnt supposed to get baptized in that church.
Never. ever.
it wldnt even happen in my dreams.
tts wat he said.
man.
i heart sank all the way to the bottom.

but i figured it out and it aint bothering me now.
like i said again,
frm today onwards
everything tt happens Is a Blessing.
Will be a blessing.
i will Make it Turn into a blessing.
if not, this whole will only be filled with sorrows n emptiness.
that, is so meaningless.




there we go again, we seem to go in circles every now and then.

18th June'06

its sunday morning.
and i'm at the comp.
Mainly because i fun feel lyk trying those skirts in my cupboard!
HAHA
but we all striked a deal ytd.
everyone's gonna wear a Skirt today.
and tt includes Anna.
hoho, its gonna be interesting.


i dreamnt of someone last night!
and it was amazing.
totally amazing.
he made it into the auditions of some Guitar thing.
and became an Awesome guitarist And Drummer.
oh manz, so cool.
i wanna lead a life like that.

prayer meeting went quite well ytd.
SANDY WONG, do you noe tt you're so encouraging at times,
just by the words you say?
you just make me want to pinch ur cheeks and smile.
HAHA
no lar, seriously.
i think my voice cracked ytd during prayer meeting.
the pitch was so high.
it was tough singing.
but all went well i suppose.
and thanks for saying such Nice stuff.
haha YES i'm gonna teach you the GUITAR


one more wk till sch reopens.
shoots.
and we have all the fun stuff coming up nxt wk.
oh best.
wat happened to studying??


its 7:37am
i got to go change!




life's full of turning points. i hope i'll meet you then.


SANDY: now, ur dream is freaky. nxt time got oil again, tell Me haha. i'll fly over n see it for myself

17th June'06


i went shopping ytd with LIYUN
and we got some stuff.
(:
i read a tag on my blog just now and it rrly made me Smile.
i thought things werent gonna be exactly smooth with you.
but, its okay now.
i think i cant live without you either.
you're wat, i can say. one of God's greatest gift to me.
and i hope to takecare of this gift always.

i guess many things happened lately
which has left me in a state of shock.
just a couple of days ago someone told me smth.
it was so unexpected.
i nearly died frm shock.
it only leaves me to qns myself.
do we rrly rrly live in a broken down world?

i nearly lose control and Shouted at him to wake up.
asked me if i was disappointed,
of Course i was.
of course.
because i thought you were Much stronger den you are.
and I've always looked to you as someone who's so Great n amazing.
to me, you're someone who cld do smth Great.
its just the things on this world which have been stopping you.
but i trusted you.
tt you wont allow these things to pull you dwn again.
just lyk wat happened the other time.
cause you promised it wont happen anymore.
and in my heart i was so happy.
i cld see you growing n becoming someone all so mighty n holy and amazing.
soemone whom i'll look up to and say WOW.
but apparently not.
i'm trying hard not to blame you.
all these while i've been trying Real hard to be patience.
to be honest,
i think if you put me through a Patience test now.
i wld pass.
thank God i'm able to control myself.
i swallowed wat i was feeling.
i Thought you were going to help the situation.
i Thought tt after all the stuff you were busy with.
you wld come in n try to make things better.
cause you said you wld.
and you said we're gonna go through this whole thing together.
look now,
i supposed things on ur side werent smooth at all.
and you finally felt so tired.
tired.
until you took the wrong turn.
man.
how i wish i was there to help.
it wldnt be tt bad now.
i'm not blaming you buddy.
but i hope you'll wake up soon.
and realise tt you arent always correct.
esp this once.

i realised.
sometimes you're just so afraid to approach someone and Care for them.
you might think it wont make much a difference.
but when you come to realise,
you found tt if only you had just cared for tt person at tt time.
he/she probably wldnt be in the state they are now.

every little thing makes a difference.


forgive me,
i'm in a state of self reflection.
or rather, this post is meant only for me.

theres many things i have to conquer lately.
fear.
tts the biggest, Biggest thing.
and doubts.

i look at things and sometimes i qns myself.
am i walking correctly?
i have to admit tt sometimes i regret not giving in to myself.
not giving in to my flesh.
this was how things were,
every little bit my flesh felt lyk doing n it wasnt right,
i wld be lyk No.
no. no. no.
and it didnt happened.
soemtimes i regret doing so.
who noes if i ever gave in,
things wld be So diff now.

but i've come to accept tt
i'm not Living for myself.
i'm living for the one above.
i made tt choice.
and its greater is He who lives in me than myself.


Lord, i just need a lil more strength to pull through this.
just a lil more.
if You were able to help me overcome all the previous odds,
i dun see why you cant be here again.


I'M A HAPPY GIRL.
i'm not going to let things affect me anymore.
yups, starting frm now.
i change.
change the world. and not let the world change me.
give me ur support please.





i cant bare to look at you without thinking a million things



LIYUN: of course its good. it gets rid of gases in YOUR body!
ANONYMOUS: its okay. i hope to see yu there. dun be lazy! i noe i'm naggy at times. but we're to be convertionists rmb? WWJD
SANDY: haha tts a COOL dream! oh manz. where did tt black oil come frm!?

16th June'06

things arent what they seem they are.

i nearly regretted saying No ytd.
but then again, thank God i rejected.



cause' you're everywhere to me

14th June'06

i spent my ytd dwn in the library with rachel!
we sat there for hrs studying.
until it was ard 8pm.
my butt was so sore frm sitting manz.
and i only managed to absorb half a chpt.
tts so bad!
frm today onwards, My Revision starts.

rachel bummed over last night (:
and we spent some time praying.
just praying n praying for almst everyone we knew.

today was rather amazing.
i didnt expect God to move tt mightily during pm.
but tts just my God.



i feel lyk having FUN now.
(:
smth lyk spending the night over at a playground.
just talking n looking at the stars.
with my best buddy.
tt wld be real nice!



tts my lovely squad.
i kindof miss them.


























i was born to make you happy

13th June'06

how can things be when all you can take is just a little dose of it?

i woke at 7 plus plus today
but i was so tired.
beats me why i'm waking so early nowadays!
i think its a habit which my body has been going through everyday before the hols.

so i Forced myself to carry on sleeping.
HAHA
i had a very Weird n Scary dream.
it was smth abt the end times.
oh my mama.
i woke up with a Major headache
cause i was trying so hard to recall my dream while i was slping.
i wanted to rmb it so i can tell others wat i dreamnt.
and hopefully, someone can tell me the meaning behind all these.
so much for rmbing.
BIG Headache.


so here goes on wat i dreamnt.
it weas nearing the end times.
and just abt everywhere, there were ghosts.
my family n some church ppl were staying in this hotel.
but it was haunted n i had to slp in a room by myself.
No one believed me tt there were ghosts.
Just No one believed me.
how sad was tt.
i was Petrified.
the evil spirits attacked my mama.
wats worse was tt my dad didnt even noe abt the evil spirits.
and he Just embraced them.
i spoke in tongues, trying to chase thsoe monsters away.
but nth worked.
): i dunno why!
i was Damn scared lar.

so my dream continues.
we all went to this mall.
and woah.
there this Humongous stage in the middle of the whole mall.
it appears tt praise n worship was going to take place there.
its lyk everyone's going to gather n worship God there.
just lyk in the end times.
where everyone gathered n sing.
and den God came down.

but before the praise n worship started,
there were so many ppl roaming ard in tt mall.
including demons.
ppl were chasing demons.
or rather trying to reach out to anyone they saw in the mall who wasnt a chrisitan yet.
because there wanst much time left.
so many faces appeared in my dream.
faces lyk ppl frm cell, rachel, her church ppl.
my classmates.

there was this point where i saw this lil indian boy.
he was So cute.
and i tried to reach out to him.
but His dad rebuked me.
i felt my heart sink as i saw him walk away.
cause' he wasnt going to make it b4 christ came back dwn on earth.

i dunno why, i dreamnt of weide.
ahaha
he was trying to reach out to this friend of his who was demon possessed.
when i suddenly barged in to talk to him.
his friend ran away.
we cldnt find him after tt.
we never did.
and he never got saved.
it was all my fault!

wat am i dreaming leh?
someone please enlighten me.
i dun think i ever mention this before.
but there was once when junle appeared in my dream.
i dunno why or how.
but he was a black cat.
and when i stroke the cat, PROOF.
he became junle.
and he started attacking everybody in cell!
):


i noe its hilarious.
but scary too.

okay, enough of those thoughts.


gonna study n pray with rachel today!
i hope i get an explanation for this today.




words are limited

12th June'06

i just read smth.
and it was So Touching.
ARH!
i cant take things tt are too overly emotional cause it gets me all affected.
i just want you to noe tt i treasure you as much as you do.
you will noe who i'm talking abt.
you're my BLESSING too
(:
praise God for everything you bring along.

funny how some ppl rrly Love you as much as you do towards them.
and how others treat lyk dirt.
or rather they dun even noe.
or maybe care.

but theres more to these.
its just too bad if they dont get it

this world is indeed colourful

12th June'06

i wanna be Your hands,
cause' You complete my world.


hey world, the weekends have come n gone.
time Really does fly. and so quickly too.
sat's cell grp msg was just awesome.
many ppl thought it was too.
it has been a lil while since smth great impacted me.
the msg was smth abt True Friends.
as i was listening, smth hit me real real hard.
like i said, i'm so blessed by all these wonderful ppl ard me.
i think if i were to count my blessings i wont be able to finish counting.
and den theres this other thought,
cause' i've been lyk a "mother"/sister/confident/counsellor
however you want to call it,
to quite a few ppl.
theres no denial to tt.
and i felt so tired.
because it always seems lyk i'm giving n giving n giving, yet not receiving anyting back in return.
sometimes it just seems lyk the other person benefits everything while you rrly, actually lose out alot.
i'm serious.
but maybe its some thing i'm called to do.
cause i've got ppl coming to tell me that things tt seem to parallel wats happening in my life, together with wat God has spoken to me.
this aint bad.
i mean, rrly.
though it Really is tiring but i learnt tt theres always ppl out there whom God has specially sent for you to lean on.
whatever it is on this earth,
i'll embrace watever is to come.
have i ever told you that this world which my saviour created is So Beautiful?

sunday!
Sheena came for service (:
after so long, i didnt expect she wld actually set a feet into our church.
but hah, My God does great wonders

the ppl behind us were just So noisy throughout service.
thank God for smth call Love n Patience.
if not i wld have turn ard n shouted at them
it was Freezing inside Hall 1
and i think its Damn hilarious watching ppl
this guy in frnt of us, (i dun wnat to say his name!)
he was so cold tt he removed both hands frm his sleeves and hugged himself in the shirt.
you noe, the way a turtle does when it gets touched?
ahaha it was so funny, you got to see it for urself.
and he just kept shivering n shivering non stop.

Evan pay was another one.
she wore Three t shirts!
tt kiasu kiasi woman.
she wore Her extra tee n my tee
i had nth at all ):
so i placed my hands under my butt for Warmth.
it rrly does work okay
but a lil
HAHA
Sheena n i were laughing lyk crazy.
nxt week, i'll bring a Huge Jacket.

after service smth cropped up.
cause' we had to appear in Mufti for sec 4 farewell.
oh best.
wat a Late notice.
we were all alr in church.
and the only choice? go hme n get it.
boy, we were sulking lyk crazy.
hme's so Far! and i wanted to fellowship with my cell.
you noe, its been so long since we actually did. Together.
after all the rubbish commotion n scolding
we made our way hme.
we had No choice.

to be honest, i didnt feel a single bit lyk going.
cause i wanted badly to spend some precious time with cell.
plus, its not just N293 but N330 too.
its combine.
and the last time we went to east coast, i wasnt there too.
why am i missing so much?
maybe i'm such a fool that only i care abt this kindof thing.
but i realised how much cell actually mean to me.
i dun rrly care if i'm the only one.
but i realised the impt ytd.
though we arent exactly the perfect thing.
and just abt everything seems to be falling apart now.
plus, ppl frm all over the world wants this, wants tt.
theres to much needs to be met.
tgt with all the commitment.
i want to cling on to wats left.
its been six mths alr, and we dun seem to be growing watsoever.
but, God please do a miracle.
i noe smth great can come out frm all these.

went hme for Only 15 mins and den out again.
rush to sch n i was late!
i felt lyk a moron larh.
travel so much n so far.

but everything was great after tt.
its sec 4 farewell.
they changed my mood n everything.
i look at my squad ytd.
and rrly, they are Beauiful ppl.
and as i think back
i realised they did put in so mch effort, trying to help me out with the squad.
i noe i was so anti-social frm the beginning.
now tt everything has come to an end,
i realised tt i Love my squad (:
love is so commonly used by almst everybody.
but i rrly mean it.

thanks a million for always being supportive.
be it punishment or scoldings.
you guys just pulled them through so happily.
and i'll never forget thsoe times we succeeded.
when ppl thought we cldnt.


i feel lyk i'm gonna die soon.
cause' lately i've been appraciating just abt everything tt revolves ard me.
its lyk a thank you speech i'm writing everyday.
smth is wrong with me.

arh, but who cares?


i look at my life n count the blessings
each day it just seems fantastic.

the way He healed my throat.
the way He stopped the weather.
the way He change my friend's heart.
everything, just everything.

prayers work great wonders.
and one of my greatest barrier is praying.

i have tt phobia.
cause each time i close my eyes i'll start thinking of all the rubbish.
plus, those kindof spiritual n spirits stuff.

but
everything He has done in my life is SO AMAZING.
i feel so flattered n unworthy of them.
makes me want to bow down n sing of Your love forever.


i'm just an ordinary girl who serves an Extraordinary God.
and i'm loving it


sandy: you have no idea how much i miss you too. (: you make me feel comfy! ahaha
liyun: hey DUDE, great minds think alike! i was too lazy to care abt the font haha. keep
praying abt wat happened, God can tun things ard! you never ta bao the bbq food for me
HUH ):

10th June'06

you took me out of control


you said that we'll all pull through this together.
dont lie.
cause i've never stopped trusting you frm the very first day.
i trust tt you wont fall the way you did sosososo long ago.
and i trust tt you're big enough to noe wats right and wats not.
though i wont deny tt i myself am not sure at times.
but at least the path you're taking now is the right one.
dont turn back.
its not for selfish reasons.
but i dont hope to see you falling again.


aloha.
hey world.
today's great (:
i like tt warm n fuzzy feeling which i've been missing So Much.




show me how to LOVE more and more and more and more


mk: yea! she's the Man! :D i wnna catch it with YOU guys
liyun: haha i'm glad tt i did. you mean lots to me too. you noe it
the GReat: yea, you are. cause' God's creations' always great! haha you are?

9th June '06

"if love is a game, then i never won"

this was said by someone.
i think its rather dumb.
Haha.
lose den dont play lar.
why do you still keep playing den?
it doesnt make sense to me.

alright.
its a friday! (:
and you noe wats so great abt today?
no more sch for the nxt Two weeks.
the weekends are Here.
and the past few days have made me feel so Loved by ppl ard me.
this is Rather cool.
thank you once again,
for making my day!

i didnt go to the library with Rachel today.
i didnt have the mood to.
but i felt so bad n guilty leaving bestie alone.
tt woman has been So Extremely Lazy for the past few days lar.
despite all the morning calls i gave her she still cldnt come to sch on time.
she woke up when i called.
and guess wat, she fell back asleep after hanging up.
how useless n dumb can you get larh.
wat a Moron.
just ytd she told me she blogged smth abt me.
but smth happened, and it was gone.
just when you're getting all sweet n nice it disappears.
oh wow.
haha but i really thank God for you (:
i've been rather emotional now a days.
not my fault!
these emo feeling, i believe is not easy to control.
so oh well,
lets just say wat i want to say
i didnt expect us to get so close.
but i guess its all God's plan cause' we've known each other
7563026980029205 years ago.
lyk since primary one!
its not coincidence.
its purely planned n crafted put by God.
wats more, you've been sucha great encourager to me.
yays!
i dun want to say anymore.
i feel so Weird.
ahahaa


its time tt i hit the books and do all i can to brush up.
these lousy results wont do.
and wat sarah said made me wake up.
who wants a Stupid pastor?
or rather, who wld believe a stupid pastor?
and even though its not a pastor tt i'm gonna be,
who wants a stupid missionary? or a counsellor.
nobody.
i think i better do smth.

i like the feeling of standing on top of the bench table in science lab!
ahaha
i noe i sound so Dumb.
but it was so fun.
i cant help but do wats done.
:D
i miss Jue and Cmk
though i see them alsmt everyday in sch.
i miss their company.
cause those stupid ppl.
i dunno why or how.
or maybe we're all too senseless in sch.
it seems lyk we're always so near yet so far.
ahaha
tough to explain.

anyhow, praise God!
my hols officially starts Here.
i decided to think only on the bright side.
think Happy thoughts n not those sad ones.
think think think.

just a moment ago while i was crossing the road.
i thought of someone's smile.
it was so beautiful.
maybe i'll show someone some day.
and you've got to agreee with me.
it makes my heart melt.



no one really knows why this is happening.



liyun: den we'll come up with a New Name. sounds great right!?
liying: it took me a while to figure out who you were! haha hey there (: i still rmb you
[na]: hey, let me ask you a qns. who are you? Haha

8th June'06

every princess has a knight.
and you still need to qualify.

i need to pee real badly.
HAHA
seriously, but apparently i am too lazy to get up frm my chair.

i realised my blog's rather dull.
so here goes some colours!

and more colours
and More Colours!
hah.
a little change will do the trick.
(:


praise God for Everything!
just abt Everything in My Life.
so here goes wat happens/happened:

firstly,
we had prayer meeting ytd!
and yea, i forgot to mention this ytd in here.
how cld i forget?! just how cld i.
i was having sorethroat ytd and it was real bad.
but after prayer meeting, guess wat!?
it was almst gone.
just how amazing my God can get?
and it was after prayer meeting.
everyone noes tt you need ur Voice to pray.
yet instead of getting worse, it got better.
(:

secondly,
it happened today in the morning.
i was on my way to sch when i realised it was pouring heavily.
oh great.
i didnt have any umbrella.
Of course i had No raincoat either.
so i prayed.
only a little.
and wats so amazing was tt when i stepped out of the train,
Proof!
rain's gone.
everything's gone.
its was bright n sunny.
i felt so happy manz.
i almst jumped for joy!


you seee
just look n see.
i feel soso flattered.
theres this song that goes,
"to think that the universe cld withhold ur Glory. still you chose to live in me"
its not lyk i've been an Awesome servant lately.
to be honest,
i havent exactly been reading the bible lately.
plus, theres so mnay times i nearly gave up.
its just tiring at times.
plain tiring.
but My Saviour is so faithful to me.
no matter wat happens, He's still there.
makes me want to press on even more.
makes me want to bow down and worship Him forever.
thank you so so much.



i went shopping with ALTHEA today (:
shop for sec four farewell gifts.
we toured n toured n toured.
frm ps to bugis and then we were too lazy to get anywhere else.
all the stuff were just so expensive and we did not have much.
we nearly gave up.
but woohoo
praise God, we found smth Nice n Cheap in the end.
cause' Althea prayed!
and i didnt even noe tt.

Althea, Altheee.
you noe sometimes, i rrly thank God for such a friend lyk you.
for being such a Great encourager all the time.
the way you're so on fire.
and how you're just so gifted in guitar.
for teaching me how to play all this while.
and tt cheerful character of urs which never Fails to light up a smile
these words are frm my heart.
you better listen up!
cause' i dun do this often.
heh
i've been rrly grateful for someone lyk you all these while.
(:





people always tell me that this is part of the plan. and so it is. bring it on.

liyun: hah! i dun want to change tt word. cause i miss those times! soso much
Althea: hey there (:

7th June'06

a whole new world
a new fantastic point of view
no one to tell us no
or where to go
or say we're only dreaming



i Am TIRED!
i'm like a working horse. i feel so tired!
plus, it matches to wat they call me in sch.
my nick name.
HAW HAW
anyhow.


i realised i havent gotten a single day of rest yet for the whole week.
emerge, sch, bball, shopping, prayer meeting.
and i've got to get sec four presents tmr.
you see the result of enjoying urself too much.

i dun feel lyk getting stuff tmr.
i am BROkE ):
and i dun feel lyk going for the farewell thingy on sunday.
they're gonna get dwn to east coast.
i like!
but its sec 4 farewell.
so,
tt beats everything else i guess.


did i mention i saw this Beauutiful skirt at ps?
NICE
i never thought i wld come to the extend of blogging on Skirts.
HAH
everyone's got to be girly someday right?
oh well.
i need to save up
uh huh
my grp's decided on the dress code for the music marathon thingy alr.
they want to dress ALL WHITE.
as in, WHITE top, WHITE skirt.
imagine 20 plus of us perfroming in millenium walk lyk tt.
its lyk a funeral ceremony!
and how can you possibly wear a skirt if you're playing guitar!?
eh! i object!
Rachel and i want to Cross-dress
oh manz, tt had be So SO COOL.
why doesnt the world have Nice taste lyk Us?



HAW HAW
i lyk those two words.
so cute!
tts wat jolene has been saying non-stop online to me.
tt funny Woman.
(:
you make me smile




i feel rather weird on the inside of me.
why am i letting myself feel this way?
this is so terrible.
i feel so weird, i can just drop dead and die.
either tt or encounter a black out.
tt way, i dun have to face this anymore.
i'll just stick to smiling and laughing.
cause i realised tts the best cure for almst anything and everything under the sun.
i wanna get out of her. NOW
):

6th July'06


hey stars, if i make a wish tonight, will you hear it?

6th June'06

the past few days have been more or less, great.
many things happened. both good and bad.
i realised tt after the many days of sessions n hanging out together,
we clicked better.
i felt the bonds attracting each other.
and yea, lets agree together,
this is so cool.
haha

i realised that its been 6 mths alr.
Six. time flies pretty fast.
if given a choice, i wld definitely grab the opportunity and start it off all right.
but of course, its impossible.
so i guess we'll just do it off frm here.
if everything is God's plans, all Will be fine.

God touched me in a diff way this time.
it so amazing. (:
i've always had this image of the whole world worshipping my saviour.
and my saviour brought me up with Him,
to show me the whole world. and there i saw how great He is, how Awesome my Saviour's power is.
though i've yet to see it.
His promise, this i've kept.
i noe i'll see it one day (:
for now, i'll just keep my cool and keep believing, while allowing the other part of the world revolve ard me.

during this emerge,
i had no parental objection!
if you realised, i guess i've more or less overcame it.
usually i wld have to sleep over and probably rephrase my words in a way they wld accept.
soemtimes, even lie.
but it wasnt the same this time.
somehow, it wasnt tt tough anymore.
though smth cropped up on the second last night.
they were so furious and mad, they wanted to stop me frm attending the last session.
but God's presence was just so powerful during the morning session the day before.
He told me to pray and pray and pray and believe in Him cause' my prayer walk hadnt been good.
and so i did.
and prayers change things.
i was able to go for the Last session (:
wats more amazing was tt i heard Him speaking,
right into my heart.

" my child, i noe you questioned tt why is it things were going so well, and then all of a sudden you cldnt go for the last session. but you noe wat? everything happens for a reason. i allowed it to happen because i wanted you to pray. i wanted you to be an overcomer. pray and revive your own prayer life. and just look at urself. you Prayed. and now you've overcome. i'm so proud of you"

i was so amazed tt i didnt noe wat to say.
i just dwelled in His hse, giving thanks.

had sch ytd and i had hardly any voice left.
i woke up with those songs going on in my head.
it was beauutiful.
we got back our results for mid year.
oh Boy, it wasnt good at all.
i failed A maths. --38 plus plus
i had a C5 for english
and a B4 for maths i think.
so many ppl were crying.
and when i found out Why they were crying,
guess wat.
they Passed their A maths and they did so much better den me.
and there they were, crying.
and i was sitting with some crazy ppl laughing away.
we had Lousy results and we were alughing away.
i think smth seriously is wrong.
i didnt noe if i shld laugh or cry.
or maybe its the assurance tt everything will be fine.
as long as i trust God.
haha
anyhow, i made a Deal tt i'm gonna study Damn hard.
lets do it together.

smth little happened ytd.
cause' i was with Rach n liyun at j8.
we were walking when i suddenly had this thought:
" what if we bumped into tt Catholic High guy?"
he was this guy whom i Always see in the train in the morning.
he's..Nice.
haha
you noe wat i mean.
but the amazing thing isnt him, its wat happened a little while later.
guess wat, we rrly bumped into him.
i was so shocked.
of course, you noe, all the rubbish.
i pointed to the two reatards who he was.
and they just kept insulting my taste.
AIYA.
i have a diff taste okay.
anyhow, That Isnt the point.
the point is, i dunno.
maybe its Guard feeling, or instinct, or maybe, even God.
theres a second part to it,
so here goes,
after a while, Rach left for home.
liyun n i decided to walk ard a lil while more.
and i had this other thought:
"what if we bumped in to someone related to Rach? lyk her brother?"
woah guess wat.
a few steps later,
we Bumped Into Him.
it was so scary.
i almst screamed and ran away.
but at the same time, aint it cool.
i am so amazed by God's power.

after these years of studying, maybe its bible sch.


i've been having dreams lately.
dreams of some ppl, mostly the same ppl.
dreams of some ppl's secret
but i dun seem to rmb any of them clearly.
wait till i'm able to recall each of them clearly.

i realised, that i'm an introvert!
haha
yes. i'm not kidding.


we went to Dunk balls ytd.
and we played with the little kiddies.

now tt the hols are here, i've been enjoying Tons and dreaming lots.
theres so many places we want to go for mission trips.
Africa.
Cambodia.
Thailand.
Zimbabwe.
we'll get our own team. hike our bags and go off together.
tt had be Real cool.
(:





at least now i noe what means to me and what doesnt.