its been AGES since i last joined them for outings like dinners and lunches. now that i do think about it, i feel quite bad for always not turning up on basketball gatherings. sigh, i got to manage my time more properly. what to do? going through a technicolour phase what. got to master the art of balancing!

typed a whole chunk, but backspaced everything in the end.

when ppl say they want to care, how genuine is it,

how long are they willing to actually stay and wait and care?

"human beings are selfish. they need their needs to be met and most of the time, at the end of the day despite what they say, its still 'me, myself and i'."

on a sidenote, i managed to survive SEVEN AND A HALF HOURS of tuition today with char and yuanyuan. An hour and a half of literature and the rest of the day spent in our underground tuition centre stuffing ourselves with tidbits and econs.

bs with Godfrey n Sharmaine before dinner with the rest tmr.

but before everything else im gonna spend some time alone studying and mostly, to re-charge(:

good nights.

caught the movie "Obsessed" today! the show featuring Beyonce. was really good (: wah, that guy's body is SUPER BUFFED. i dont know how to describe it man. lots of upcoming movie clips that i wanna catch.
Donated blood for the second time a couple of days ago. having tiny dizzy spells these few days whenever i get off the chair or bed. doctor says that i have low blood pressure. gotta exercise more to keep fit!
kept dozing off in GP tuition today. oh boy, today's not a productive day at all. ah soon says that prelims are 50 plus days away and charmaine counted the number of days left to A's.. only abt 188 =/
goodness, think i need to be much more disciplined n hardworking.

'been reading my twilight books again the past couple of days. i think its Amazing how some authors really can write. find my own heart thumping nervously at all the exciting parts and those romantic moments just make my heart melt. Stepahnie Meyer is really Goodd. wah i dont know which will be the next book i should read now.
was dozing off during long hours of econs today. bumped into so many people at the tuition centre which made me realise that lots of ppl from SR are retaking. mm Ms blur sotong queen is gonna give me wake up call tmr morn. i better get off the comp soon.

i am going JOGGING tmr!!
my first cardio exercise in 4 weeks plus.
haha yes, ive been that unfit. shows how busy and lazy ive been.


going through a.. technicolor phase.

taylor lautner is much better looking!

--

Breathe.

for all the times ive lent a listening ear,

i just need a shoulder to lean on when my stormy seasons come. i can take the pain.. but i need to let loose, let loose. wish i listen less and take more and then find myself hating what i wished for.

breathe.

"Set me as a seal upon your heart, as a seal upon your arm;
for love is as strong as death, jealousy as cruel as the grave;
it's flames are flames of fire, a most vehement flame."
-Song of Solomon 8:6

myGoodnessGracious me! woke up late today and i was supposed to book seats. rushed to church and was sharing with ah soon and jicai abt my 'nightmare last night. i, dreamnt of GORILLAS. my gosh, dreamnt that i was a gorilla and there was this other pokemon who plucked my hair to eat and it evolved and after becoming so Huge, it came after me in my dream. my Goodness, Superb Scary.

anyways, am so looking forward to having bs with Godfrey (:
i MISS LEILA MAMA. feeling so honoured that im the first person she actually called from UK!
which reminds me of the great time we had KTV-ing together before she left.

headed down for an event after service and a few of us went dwn to a flea mkt.
Superb packed and hot and stuffy but can really get good deals there if we DIG.
i regret buying a couple of them though. but am so Looking forward to the next flea market with my beloved shopping buddies! (:

this week, i wanna learn from Jacob.

what matters most is being at the right place at the right time.

my conclusion of the day:
People need the Lord. Even though they hardly ever show it, even though they are always constantly searching for something else to fill that empty hole within. At the end of the day, people still need the Lord.

and that includes me.

watched bits of Finding Nemo on channel 5 today and i actually teared!

Manymany random thoughts in my head today.
dear Daddy, come and make my life so much more interesting than this.
(:
breathe life into these bones of mine.

i am feeling very Blessed to the max for Loving leaders over me. closer ones like leila and nic and the even bigger leaders like pst Kong in church. (: so much words to say, but words cant express how inspired i am to be a very good leader myself when my season comes.

feeling Super Zombifieddd due to a lack of sleep the past few days. am so drained that i fell asleep while typing on the keyboard halfway.. but this wk has been a pretty fruitful week. feeling closer to some ppl after sharing "close conversations"(: and, Daddy has been answering my prayers on having greater compassion and more Love towards others. On a personal level, i really want to be able to say with All my heart that i agape God and not just phileo Him. im not there yet, but i want to be and i will be (:
thinking of the discipleship msg to share tmr, hope it turns out great!

okay the Z-monster keeps attacking me, AH!
hopefully i can last long enough to do some studying tonight or tmr.

till then.
:0)


deeper in love with You.

havent really blogged in awhile that ive lost the gist on how to blog posts! boy oh boy.
mm think my econs tuition is a really cool place to study in. underground bomb shelter with Lots of snacks (: haha am really glad that i signed up for it.
saw a bag that i really liked at bugis street but its totally sold out now ):
MM, my whole world seems to revolve around studying recently. besides the usual meet ups with friends and hanging outs i dont know what else to talk about anymore. Studying has become my priority.

think im really Slow. but loving this song(:
they lyrics are very apt.



Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever
If you feel you’ve lost your way
What if my chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away

so here I am — still holding on!
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breath its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing just
When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit to
Stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don’t know where’s the future’s heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down

Jumped every bridge
I've run every line
I risked being safe i always knew why
I always knew why

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

weather the hurricans.

after every winter season comes Summer. right?

lots of things going on the past few weeks! attempted going back to the studying mode today but i was too worn out, kept dozing off in front fo my notes in the lib. shall try again tmr (:
been praying for more wisdom and love. also the desire for a particular calling.
on a side note, ive been eating Too Much! SOUP SPOON's Soup is really YUMMY (: quoted from leila, "im exploding with fatness!!"
):

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
*I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on
Cause...


really Loving how this song speaks.
was feeling Extremely excited and positive about things until someone's different attitude and thoughts got to me. ah, Cannot like that! i must learn to be less affected by other people's passiveness, to be able to listen yet not affected. wanna contain this excitement and keep it living within.

it's in the journey.

WAH. thanks to bryan and cheryl's conversation i am Super nervous for tmr's youth band audition.

i better go practise now!

Dear God please take these feelings away. help me to feel the right things and think the right way.

Esplanade library has become my second home. Studying is my new hobby.

Getting into this routine ..

and surprisingly, i feel more confident and am beginning to enjoy it.

TMR,

i am finally gonna hit the malls!

It's okay to tap on God's grace. But its not okay to exploit God's grace.

gosh, my Eye-Bags!

i caught the flu bug! ): and syptoms of cough are following.
youth worship band audition the upcoming week, really hope that i have some voice to sing and sing..well! am quite sure of my own standards.. we'll see how it goes(:

just sorted out my GP notes today. i have Super Duper thick files waiting for me in the cupboard to study. gonna do my studying with lana tan's Dear friend- sharmaine from tmr onwards. looking forward to it because she really Motivates me to study. i feel like i have this Huge gigantic mountain to climb. signed up for GP and LIT tuition already, left econs and historyyy. sometimes i still go to sleep and wake up the very next day, wishing that my appeal would be successful. hahaha, i guess thats how life is. the past will always be around to haunt us. at least, i know that im not alone. have a Good studying partner now (:

on a side note, a part of me really needs to stop running away. i rmb pst saying before:

"if you want a vacation, dont take one away from God. take it with God."

a short vacation with Daddy is what i really need.

had a very special and exciting encounter today, i hope this thing is here to stay (:

its Sunday, had a very long but fulfilling day (:

woke up a little earlier to have bs with bryan before svc. service was just Great today. im so glad that i didnt just head back to my seat straight after a failed attempt of being prayed for. Serene grabbed my hand while i was backing away from the stage and she offered to pray for me. There was no wailing or struggling but i felt much better after crying out my bitterness n unforgiveness. today i learnt that amounting bitterness can come to a point where it actually hinders one's relationship with God. im so Determined not to ever let such silly nilly things affect me anymore. feeling greatful to serene for just allowing me to cry and cry today (:
today, i let go of all my past bitterness and unforgiveness both towards Daddy and myself.
--

was just reading my cousin's blog. He's a cellgroup leader from another church:

"Once again, ive reached a part in life that i almost give up. If you read the bible, you wld probably be familiar with this guy called Job, he is a man that God finds him righteous. Satan tested him 3 times? and he did not fail the test despite the loss of his everything. My point is not that i am like him or what. I am no where near that man. The point is that whether will i be like him during the period of testing. I thought i could, most certain i could. Then came the test. This test puts my pride, my money and my time on risk. First thing i did, i questioned God.. .. .. but i constantly reminded myself to praise God and give thanks for what i receive. i sat there and thought to myself how can i give thanks for this, i asked God is this what he intended? May your way be done and not mine. At that point, i wanted to cry.. .."

such raw feelings and it exactly expresses the way i feel at times.
i feel that, the Faith that we have in our difficult circumstances is the most Precious form of Faith. (: am glad that i just so happened to blog-hop to his page. Really encouraged by Job's perseverance and sheer faith. sometimes its so difficult to understand, but surely God's ways are higher than ours! haha pardon me, ive been talking to myself lately.
--

played 3 long worship songs today for SPIZZA event. i am having five really hard finger tips now ): feeling EXCITED for our upcoming chalet and t-shirts (:
am really beginning (and also learning) to LOVE my own people more and more everyday. chatting with vera and sharmaine online now. Vera suddenly asks for biblestudy and requested for hmewrk! am gonna test her on the book of Esther this wednesday when we have bs(:
want to be a good leader and support to the little guys in cell but i dont really know how to. need to pray for wisdom!

Lots of people around me, talking about relationships recently. it made me realised that.. how come i dont seem to think of such stuff anymore?! HMMM maybe its because i have other priorities in life right now. i hope im normal (:

Alrightos, my GET-FIT and STUDY HARD plan starts tmr.
very interesting and packed week ahead.
Excited (:


You're the love of my life.

"hey, thanks for the talk last night. Feels so different after talking to you.. in a good way. hahaha.. it's really a gift.. You sound so happy on the phone.. hahaha.. joy is contagious too."

one of the things that keep me going..
sat at my house void deck just to lend a listening ear to a friend last night. i cant do much and i dont have many talents. but this is the only thing i know that i can do best.

feeling a little encouraged too. Thank youuu
(:

" If there is anything that a man can do well, I say let him do it. Give him a chance."
-Abraham Lincoln.

goodness, this song's stuck in my head! at least its no longer "thats not my name! thats not my name!"

ohmygosh, im influenced by kate perry/lady gaga/pink

super catchy Mannn.

i had a dream last night and in it, we were all back to school again. how i miss those times when we sat side by side in class, trying our best to solve mathematical sums. and Someone was there beside the whiteboard, actually guiding and teaching us how to do it. most of all, there was the company. people whom i could study and laugh with both at the same time. it doesnt matter anymore who calls me by that stupid nickname or who's the next irritating person to hit my head and wake me up. started my maths ystd and it really is tougher than how it looks. i forgot everything! i always tell myself that though its a high mountain, i can and i will climb it. but those little thoughts of failure always come back once in awhile to haunt me. i still hope that somehow my appeal can get through or perhaps a miracle will happen and i'll land in NUS? haha..
studied a little ystd with lana tan, Thanks for accompanying me(:
realy glad to be going for the meeting with lots of them last night.

many little events making me feel bitter on the inside, wish i could be better understood at home and have my own ways.

on a lighter note, im at episode 24 of Boys over flowers! yay so Fast (: perhaps getting over it is better too. less fantasizing and welcome back to reality man!

was singing 'love story' at 3plus am while walking to rachel's house and xinrui sent this through fb! very Nice piece (:

i attempted studying history today over at esplanade after service. but insufficient sleep made it so difficult to absorb anything.ended up reading new york issues of SEVENTEEN instead. it so makes me wanna go Shopping noww. so many things that i wanna get! cant wait for my next pay check.

met pam at 6 plus. goodness, we shared a 46 dollars meal at kenny rogers today. their macoroni cheese and pork ribs are Very Goood. :0) gave her her bday present which i wanted to pass her a million years ago. turns out that maggie bought a shirt and bikini for me. my Goshh, the bikini was on sale for only 3 dollars. she grabbed two sets man! haha aunty power.

i like music. really enjoyed worshipping today. feel like signing up for guitar classes so i can improve my skills but im not sure if i can balance so many things. forseeing a very packed week ahead.. i hope to expand my own capacity and lean more so on Daddy's understanding this week. and still, im awaiting for a miracle. (:


to err is human. to forgive, divine.

its been awhile since i last updated. feeling really groggy from insufficient sleep for the past few days. met up with my secondary clique on friday night :0) we ate swensens and decided to catch Angels and Demons at midnight. my gosh, we had 4 hours to kill so we just slacked at cafe cartel after that eating half-priced cakes and free bread. Haha. the show was alrighhtt but i was expecting better. walked all the way to rachel's place at 3 plus am, cooked maggie mee for the THREE Lazy bums, played tithi! ( however you spell that =/ ) and then xinrui and audrey left at 5:30 AM. played the guitar and learnt from rachel's bro while she slept all the way, left at 7 plus. i slept 3 hours and rushed out for jurong svc then cellgroup today.
Feeling really Tired!
"Boys over Flowers" is really nice to watch!! i think the violin guy is super Duper sweet.
my oh my, its 1:20 AM. got to wake up early to book seats tmr. i hope my eye-bags dont show!

meeting maggie mee the curly pok hair woman tmr, Excited. (:

had a very Awesome biblestudy at riverwalk, practised discernments today. Felt super surprised and embarrassed both at the same time to open my eyes and see the Teacher standing in front of me!

i guess this is my route, i need to study hard all over again.
oh God, how?
):

one of those nights when im slightly discouraged by past failures. and then geared up and encouraged again because i know that my Daddy works wonders.

06 Dont Forget.wma - Demi Lovato


feeling Duperb encouraged after hanging out with blackspot(: ystd's biblestudy at riverwalk was so different! our lesson ended much ealier than usual and my teacher decided to do some 'hands on' practical. we spend time just worshipping and waiting on the Lord which really reminded me of my first love. and, to love Daddy for just who He is and not for what He can do. my teacher later went on to lay hands on us. im, so Excited for my next BS CLASS! wow, Pst phil has a blog too. check out www.philpringle.wordpress.com

studying ystd was a like doing warm-ups before a 20 km race. wow i really need to get into the mode of studying and discipline myself Everyday! explored the wonders of make-up with nic's make-up set. Fibers really make my eyelashes look so much Longer!

alrightos, i shall sutdy today before visitation
:0)

i LOVE the tune of this song.

Hello World (:
its been ages since i last updated. everything's pretty much going fine. ive really been enjoying my holidays by slacking and going out. its Nice meeting up with people like rachel ho and blackspot ((: wanna thank my close buddies for listening to my constant whinnings and questions. feeling really happy for eunice and sarah the mushroom for their acceptance by unis! ive pretty much decided to retake my A levels. manymany doubts and thoughts going in my head by i can really do it if im totally hardworking this time round. i figured that its okay. im not in a hurry to get into a uni anyway. what matters most is that i take the right path, at least one that i know where i am heading to.
im going back to my place of failure but with a different attitude this time.
finally caught 17 AGAIN today with blackspot, i wanna watch Taken!! haha i know im slow. hmm, GAP called me down today, asking me to start work tmr. but i guess im gonna concentrate on my studying!
alrighty, my sorting out of lecture books and notes starts tmr! and then the search of good tuitions.
studying at esplanade and nic's gonna join me later on. Nice ambience with company. havent caught up with my Boss for ages and centuries. im gonna get into the studying routine now!
(:

Dear God, my future's in Your hands.

Skipalong - Lenka
so tired of feeling blue, such a heavy weight on you.
so shake it off and make your way to somewhere different,
to somewhere different.

i feel.. so many various things right now that i dont even know where to start when i want to pen them all down.
standing and believing firmly in my own actions because what ive done was the right thing to do. trying real hard to ignore what other people think or say or maybe even the new impressions formed of me. letting those opinions not get to me. and whilst i listen to the ministries or worries about other people, i try my best to keep my cool, suck it in and just listen. wondering how it feels like to really pour out everything to someone close and let her pamper me as i crumble and have my bawling moments. Missing my dear buddy so much who is so busy with school. Thank God theres still lana around.
ive come to realised that actions mean alot to me. and though my current journey may be a little rocky, im also learning and understanding myself more each day. it is also a journey of self-discovery. its a good thing because there is just so much more to learn. being a helper or having very advanced bs lessons doesnt mean that im good enough. if i were to ever have my own cg.. there is really so much more ive to do now. having a good burden for my own ministry and connectgroup. i guess theres a reason why these are my people and why those arent my people. why my people react this way and not the other way. sometimes i really dislike certain thoughts in my head. and at times i can feel the 'taker' in me giving myself reasons to feel the otherwise. but i know this life is a walk of patience, faith and Love. and i keep telling myself its okay, i have the love from above which will be sufficient enough to fill my whole heart. of course there are extreme times when i asked myself if ive been too giving or 'soft' on a friend, to keep doing the TLC way even though i myself can get so frustrated at times. but then i think of Jesus and i guess He would do the same way too. Love is caring for others at the expense of yourself. this i need to remember always. being humble and not to be trampled upon is something i need to master. i think every once in awhile, its good to show appreciation to those who have done a lot for you and not take them for granted too.
Wah, a million and one thoughts in my head, i just ranted them out in one chunk above.

feeling veryvery greatful to have Eunice who is always okay and fine with my thoughts and decisions. one sentence which she said to be the other day, "fiona, if you become cellgroup leader i be your helper and help you okay". simple statement but it felt really warm deep within to know that ive someone supporting me. i literally felt like crying on the spot. haha, not that i'll become a leader overnight but Thankyou Euniceee. i Wish for you to have your own dreams and visions too, thats a definite. (:
running my own race of faith. honestly, i dont really know how. but if others can do it, im sure it cant be impossible.

The Show - Lenka


i'm just a little caught in the middle,
life is a maze and love is a riddle.


met up with a few close buds this week. very inspired by my visitation leader. though she doesnt talk or joke much. but deep inside i can see a very warm and giving person from the way she interacts and takes such joy in wrapping goodies for the kids. it really reminds me that having Passion in what we do is veryvery important. having a calling or finding your purpose in life is good. but having Passion is even better because only when i truly enjoy what im doing will i not feel tired or even unappreciated.
was feeling really disturbed and used initially but i guess these kind of incidents would be inevitable. its okay, im really Glad that along the way ive people who reasserted my identity and worth and self-esteem. i need to be more sure and confident of who i am and what i do. felt so hurt and manipulated but its Okay now. sticks and stones may break my bones but words cant bring me down. go fiona! :0)

just a day ago i applied to work in Ben n Jerry's. had no idea that they only hire pretty girls (just like NUM hires only goodlooking and muscular guys) unitl angeline n jicai told me! my goshh, HAHA oh wells if they dont hire me its alright. i'll just go looking for another one (:

ThankYou guys for everything (:
i appreciate it when people put in effort to do special things. words are good. but action speaks louder than words (:
had a very Great dinner with my childrenchurch leader tgt with her bf recently. SUPERB LAME n RETARDED but i think they make a very good couple!
im gonna experiment with my new guitar tmr. THANK YOU (:

feeling so zonked out that ive even dozed off a couple of times in frnt of the keyboard!
good nights.

How Deep Is Your Love - The Bee Gees

it was a great day today.
Exciting morning session and then wildwildwet! (: free complimentary meals which came along with the tickets and a little ride on the ferriswheel. (:

very Busy day tomorrow. gonna visit clarice with angeline n eunice and biblestudies with both eunice n vera. followed by visitation n dinner with my leader. but im feeling EXCITED because i feel like i havent hung out with my yuppsie doodle buddies in AGES. as well all our long lost bs-es!!

i think ive a very serving cellgroup leader. its true that she can feel restless n uncomfortable when theres nth to do. but she really does serve ALOT. i salute you Boss! its very inspiring (:
currently feeling very worn out after bobbing and splashing around in the pool today. good nights (:


God's grace begins when human ability ends.

simple plan- i can wait forever - simple plan

reading patson's blog really made me realised the importance of treasuring what i have in my hands right now. both the good and bad. im glad we had those wonderful memories (:
had a good biblestudy session today over at riverwalk. i think my teacher is really good. cause' he never fails to answer all the doubts that we have. i wish soon liyun can be here taking weekly biblestudies with me so we can ask him questions after questions together. i Miss my biblestudy buddy alot alot alot.

finally managed to draw up some plans. looking forward to bs with vera and eeter :0) and our pyjamas party this week!
feeling touched by my childrenchurch leader because she is especially nice and even asked me out for dinner after visitation this week. i know that its to celebrate my birthday -hee. makes me feel loved (: and i know tt eunice,lana n angeline are doing sth for my bday tmr LOL. they are really bad in hiding. looking forward to the coming weekend(: Thankyou
gonna do some crashing tmr. am so Excited (: i think its gonna be refreshing.


close my eyes, cross my fingers
im praying for a miracle.

Sticks and stones may break my bones
but words cant bring me down.

am so gonna put aside my mondays or sunday nights to plan my week ahead. so everything will not clash. need to start planning well!
i always find myself enjoying a couple of free days followed by fully-packed ones.
i am sunburnt. after jogging and spending my afternoon at the stadium with lana tan today(:
worked at mr lai's afterwards. im beginning to enjoy what i do there.
almost half the week is gone.
most of the time i battle with myself in my brain.
i need to constantly remind myself to take joy in what i do.


JOY of the Lord shall be my Strength.
even when all's not seen or rewarded. JOY of the Lord shall still be my strength.

stopping in my tracks in the midst of the road,
just to take a breather and lighten the load.

this was ystd(: we ate sushi and hung out before i went for children church visitation. received a msg from Red Cross ystd, saying that they urgently need O Blood donors by this friday. was thinking of going down by i just cant seem to find the time. i even dreamnt of donating blood and hitting the gym last night. =/ i Cant wait to play tennis with tofu next week! very busy day today and tmr. i need to visit lala land!

and im Still waiting for a call from NTU..
cant wait for things to settle down.


out of the darkness and into the sun, but i wont forget the ones that i loved.

make a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway.

tuesday:
met up with gradys! (: had lunch together and we caught up alot. visited iluma too, she bought a really beautiful dress there for 72 bugs ohmygosh. but it was really pretty. wanted to catch a movie but there were no nice shows screening. we spotted a crowd, queuing up for David Archuleta's autograph session. which reminded me the day when i saw Mr lee kuan yew face to face! it was on a sunday at esplanade area, felt so surprised yet happy to be seeing my singapore hero HAHA. we had some coffee at coffeebean afterwards. i think it was vanilla latte that was so strong, gave gradys and i headaches afterwards. invited her for service, am praying real hard about it(: wish i could work with her at her work area but the working hours are Crazy. 6pm-3:30AM on fridays,saturdays and sundays. woww.

i am really gonna start saving and bottle up all the money that i have so i can enroll into SOT for sure next year. i CANT WAIT.

meeting layho today then childrenchurch visitation.
praying for open hearts, open hearts!

heavy schedule this whole week! plans to meet up with close ones and plans to meet up with friends for easter, together with work and childrenchurch. means ive to forgo class gathering this friday again. ): i think my class is fairly well bonded! some of them just met up last week and they are meeting again! ive seen claudy's uploaded pics from last year and patson's too. making me miss school even more. they always say that we only start to treasure things when its over. i think its so true. but im glad my JC years were great ones! (: though im always the one known for late-coming and sleeping.

had a great sermon on sunday and i met up with tofu and jl. we had sushi and Bens n Jerry's afterwards. makes me wanna work at BnJ now so i can spend the rest of my days happily scooping ice-cream away. i know, i always talk about having more jobs but not taking any action. because i dont think i can squeeze in anymore time for work ): anyhoww, ATE SO MUCH on sunday. went home with a Superb happy stomach. Great catch-up session with both of them! (:

today's a monday. woke up with a very dry throat. went back to bed and woke up around 2 in the afternoon. met lana and liwen at bugis! :0) i cant even rmb the last time we went out. i finally bought my bagpack! for only 20 bugs and im Loving it (: got nice leggings too for only 10! which makes me really wanna go back there again sometime next week with lana tan! met up with leslie for dinner at swensens. i feel Great for not having to worry abt cash for a day. 'been trying to save up a whole lot and giving movie sessions a miss just to save up a bit more. but i've decided to go easy on myself for a few days and just enjoy(:

think im falling sick. got a very dry and sore throat now, i Cant sing high pitches now! ):

i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly, i'll do what it takes till i touch the sky.

Kelly Clarkson (Breakaway) - Kelly Clarkson


really Love this song (:

many dreams, many visions, many unsaid thoughts.
DREAM BIG.

Leaving on a jet plane - chantal kreviazuk



fly fly,
up above the sky.


felt really unappreciated and used for a little moment today. i tried what i could to ignore it. its makes me feel helpless not knowing what to do to improve the situation.

on the flip side, i had a very long but different phone conversation today with a very special someone. i never thought i could mean so much to someone or have such significance in a person's life. thankyou for appreciating me, thankyou for re-asserting my own self-worth thought it was unknowingly. it made me think that all the sacrifices and extra care was worth it.
(:
recently, i keep reminding myself of that little pact i made within. to have more love and patience and going an extra mile into peoples' lives. sometimes it makes me feel so frustrated that i just feel like throwing both arms in the air and shout ' i give up' before i start feeling irritated or angry because i have the right to. but the little pact made me pause a couple of times this week enough for me to doublecheck my emotions, swallow my own irritation simply just to Love people even more. there are still doors that ive yet to open completely. Even so, i will not give up.
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helped out with children church today. they had the EGG HUNT event and the sun was so Hot! woke up early for transportation and i was feeling really nervous initially, unsure if the kids would like me. but they could recognise me from all the house visitations and some even liked me! kept calling my name- YAY (: held the small palms of little kids and looked after their every needs today. there were so Many kids today that even though there were 10,000 eggs to pick up it still wasnt enough. am so excited to be serving on easter too (: got to start shopping for red/pink clothing though (EEEW, pink.) cause' they always assign teachers n helpers to wear red. why cant they just say white instead?? ):
rushed home to take a short break and practise praise before heading for cell and pm. cell today was great. i Cant wait to hear news from any local university. seriously just Any local uni and i'll be satisfied already. so then i can request for a brand new guitar from my dadddd.

1:43 AM. feeling goggy and a little dizzy already. my nose's been running like a tap!
gonna catch some sleep.

good night, sweet dreams.
God Bless.
(:

if you Want it, Fight for it

photofunia-ing at 1:11 AM with claudy.
brings back the good old days!

Realize (Colbie Caillat) [with lyrics] - Colbie Caillat



gathering up the pieces of my faith's remnants
and im still not walking alone. (:

had a morning phone talk with sarah lee today.
ive decided to go to bibleschool next year!
we'll take one step at a time, theres no need to rush. its just like learning to fly, or falling in love.
gives me time to save up and prepare myself too.
it'll be a challenge to juggle many things but i believe!

the worst time to make a decision is when you're feeling down.


missing mostly, the weather in macau.
it was a Great family time. feeling Thankful to God for this short trip(:
i counted the number of places ive been to all around the world when i was in the plane.
think ive travelled overseas more than 10 times, not a very big number but its more than enough.
thank you daddy for loving this family in your own special way.