more than love, more than love.
with nothing holding me back.


am not saying that im not in the wrong in anyway or anything else.
im just Tired of watching people giving in to others in one way or another.
i just felt like, things should happen naturally shouldnt they?
i mean like, if you love and care for someone, certain actions would naturally set in because of your concern and all.
maybe im just more free-spirited, needing more freedom.
and no, im not pointing fingers at anyone or complaining.
im just sharing how i feel because this is my blog, my space.
thats the problem with having open blogs,
people tend to read too much into things.
but the more they pry in, the more i back away.
i think, it also requires a certain amount of trust before you start sharing your issues with someone.
the sincerity in wanting to be trusted too.
ive been hearing and taking in alot from the different areas again.
they voice out much, but hear little.
i think, i really need a new home to rant in.
monday's gonna be a better day.
im sorry, hope you're feeling better.

and and,
AH.
i have so much to say to different people.
heyy,
take heart.
you've got to let go of your past failures and dare to Believe that there are really people who care for you in this world.
i hope i get to see you tmr, i need to pass something to you.
--

i need a greater capacity to Love.

Friday,
prayer meeting in the morn before school.
lessons come, lessons go.
cell was great.
i felt my own capacity expanding while serving so much this week.
sharing offering message and playing the guitar.
as i played, i watched how my cellmates worshipped,
i, want to be a worhip leader someday.
i dont know when, but i want to lead people to the Love of christ.
(:
playing for so long at one go left me with a Numbed palm and Sored fingertips.
but i was satisfied with myself for stretchingg.
its an honour to, serve.
friday afternoon, i saw a friend looking down.
wanted to badly to go up and just lend a listening ear,
but i didnt, it was so tough.
i really hope my prayers will extend over and spirit to spirit..
okay yea,
surely, i know will be able to sense it (:





its not a very positive song.
but i like the tune and unique lyrics.
--

studied with blackspot in the library today.
our mp3 died on us,
felt so helpless without music today.
studying is my new hobby.
i miss you blackspot.
though i just saw you today
(:


i've got a timetable to draw out for mrs sim to see.
studying History is just like climbing the Whole great wall of china.

Nic, please get well soon!


a baby's breath.