3rd Sep'06

hey world,
yes, about the topic on studying..
my plans for burning mid-night oil have gone all wrong so far
i always end up falling asleep
lets strive for over 50 hrs a week starting frm today
i dun believe i cant stay awake the whole night
if others can, why cant i?
angel was dozing off during sevice today
haha wrong choice on staying up late last night

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just a couple of days ago, i received news that my classmate's dad passed away
and abt a week ago, i was told tt my Godma has to go for kidney dialysis
about two weeks ago, mum told me that my dad's friend Is Still suffering frm Aids, half alive
yes, all these info came within a short period of time
it seems lyk everyone's dying or suffering or death is approaching!
is it just coincidental or wat
everything has to do with death
and i have a friend,
who recently just inhabited some eating disorder
she practically starved herself but she's Not fat! skinnier than meee

i find it especially tough to open this golden mouth of mine, just to speak or tell adults abt Jesus Christ
if i had opened this mouth of mine, she probably wldnt be suffering now
it makes us feel terrible, filled with guilt
God, we neeed the courage

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elana's laughter makes me laugh (:
and sandy, are you seeing this?
it feels lyk its been so long since we last hanged out, i dunno why!
i hope really everything will be fine after the exams

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i was talking to rachel the other day,
wat happens if God approves of homosexuality?
she said by now, she wld have gone with this good pal of hers cause her friend isnt straight
but she's Awesome and superb sweet
even i agree that she wld have gone along with her
and den she asked, "what abt you?"
i thought and i realised, i wld have gone along with this other bung friend of mine too
haha
but then i thought again and i realised tt if homosexuality was approved by God,
i wouldnt even go with a bung,
i Would have been the bung instead
HAHA
relaxxx, i'm Straight and i have no thoughts of becoming a guy
but seriously, i think if the one frm above approves,
many things will not be wat they are now
to be honest, i supposed jue, althea, shrooms and rachel plus me wld have been unstraight ppl by now
haha, its rather funny when you think of it
will, its just cheap fun thinking of things lyk tt
esp when you realise the outcome
anyhow,
since God says no. we say no too (:
cause its so not right n Abnormal.

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the past few days have been good honeymoon time for my parents
without the presence of my brother
and studying is more effective at hme
i sure hope their relationship is getting Sweeter n sweeter
but please, dun let it be shown in frnt of me
i cant take all that mushiness
i wonder what my bro's doing,
that lucky kid's probably eating some delicious italian pasta right now
he better bring some back for me!


anyhow,
we're gonna be some kiasu nerds and wait outside the library before it opens tmr
gradys, me and maybe rachel
because everyone's studying nowdays and everyone's fighting for the tables
and being desperate means you have to fight too


lets get it started (:




i think of you night and day, and you make my heart swayy