24th Sep'06

hey world, today started off really great (:
i was in the train, on my way to church
and i was listening to christian songs, playing on my mp3
before i knew it, i was soaking in God's presence
the feeling was so Strong all of a sudden that i started tearing
i was controlling them as much as i could cause there was just so many ppl ard me

and i heard the one frm above speaking right into my heart, at tt moment
it went smth lyk this,
"hey my child, here we go again. here i am speaking to you once again, just lyk the last time i spoke to you. whats all these about? come on, its not lyk you dunno that I will never fail you.
its not lyk you dunno I can wash your sins, have you forgotten tt I'm your merciful Abba Father? whatever happened to 'standing strong' no matter what happens? whatever happen to the amount of trust you used to have in me? oh why dun you just trust in me that I can make you perfect. in my eyes, you're beautiful. Very beautiful indeed. if you will only believe "
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and then i saw smth as my eyes remained shut
i saw myself kneeling before the Lord, but my head was bowed low
i felt uncleaned within. unworthy to face my saviour, the one who died on the cross for me, the one who loved me for who i am
but He stretched out His loving hands towards my face and lifted my face as i stayed, kneeling before Him
and in His eyes, i was perfect.
right at that moment, i was flawless and most of all, Beautiful.
there wasnt a single blemish on my face, neither was there anymore unpleasant feeling in my heart
the heaviness disappeared and
everything was just plain perfect and pleasant


Man. it was really amazing.
just the day before, sarah told me abt her encounter with her handphone and stuff
and i was thinking,
if i really needed stuff and i cant afford it, why not just pray and ask God for it
and leave it to Him to provide?
its gona be a challenge to do so, and lets see how's the mighty one gona work when He decides to move (:
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theres so many things tt i wanna get
i want a new Bible!
i want to start afresh, and anew

i started cleaning my whole room ytd, and am still half done
haha
wow, i didnt know i owned about 4 written diaries before
but they all fill less than half a book
no wonder, it never works out haha
and i saw so many alr-forgotten neoprints
they bring back all those happy memories which make me miss those times so much
arh! growing is a happy and sad process

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we're gona collect the rest of our results tmr
its quite expected wat the outcome will be, what the scene will be lyk
for now, lets just not think about it
and have a happy night tonight!
(:





"by the roses of spring, by maidhood, honour, truth and everything; i love thee"!