hey world.
i've been told tt some ppl reads my blog.
its not exactly a bad thing though.
but its just a warning to you, my entries may be depressing at times.
i cant garuentee much. but since you've found encouragement frm here so far, it wldnt mind abit if you continue visiting.
yups.

i'm not exactly in a mood to smile.
its not lyk today hasnt been a great day.
No, it has been.
you have no idea how much i miss service.
just how much.
i missed it terribly.
i almst forgot the feeling of worshipping in tt auditorium.
i realised, tt if you were to separate me frm church, i dont think i will survive.
and i miss the ppl there too, of course.
i hugged liwen lyk some retard today!
i almst wished i cld bring her hme with me (:
and yesyes i miss sandy too (:
i'm glad to noe tt tt woman misses me too
HAHA
anyhow. there was prayer meeting ytd, with so much other stuff going on.
i dun noe where to start.
life has been taxing.
and i've rrly tried to juggle things the way i can.
but things dont always turn out the way you want them to.
My mum called leila today. again.
i was wondering, wat if i never find out all these stuff happening.
will i ever noe tt she calls?
i feel lyk i've missed out so much.
So So Much.
i feel lyk i've fallen short of so many things.
things tt has got to do with my own spiritual walk.
i've been missing cell, the fellowshipping, tt celebration
N293's birthday, blahh and so much more.
plus the duties tt i used to have, the things tt i used to do.
it just seems lyk i cant be trusted on anymore.
or maybe i've become less approachable.
i think i am blubbering rubbish again.

i realised.
you cant do Everything right at the same time.
one moment you are accomplishing smth,
and before you noe it.
you've screwd the rest.
AIYA maybe this is just the pessimistic way of thinking.
i sortof broke dwn in the toilet a couple of hrs ago.
but i'm all right n clean now.
yea.

it Feels good to have ppl praising your faith.
praising the way you've pulled through your times of struggle.
its nice to noe tt wat you've gone through has encouraged others.
but the thing is,
i have yet to fight my fight of faith.
as you seee,
theres still so many things coming my way.
and i HATE it.
but in case you're wondering, i'm not giving up.
hah
hey Mr Satan, for your info, i Love kickboxing.




i have lots n lots n lots to tell you.
oh Man.
if we can find the time to just sit and chat.
i'll tell you EVERYTHING.





follow HIM