once again i pour out my life.




i just read sandy's blog and it made me Smile!
these are really, the kindof things which keep me going.
"it's a new start.
and they'll be jealous of ur smile(: "
she said that too,
and i think, its really meaningful (:
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everyday, school has been like a mini challenge to me.
but after one week,
i feel like i've accomplished something.
and i really do like that feeling.

perhaps its really biting in.
and that explains why ive been determined to stay Strong no matter what.
just this week alone,
people around me have been crying, crumbling, feeling stressed.
ive seen E,X,C cry.
and receiving a 1Am phonecall from P only to hear her crying non-stop made me feel so horrible on the inside.
theres really, nothing much that i can do but to direct them to the same helpline i turn to,
Abba Father.

imagine having to face and hear negative statements everyday.
lines after lines of words that are Not edifying at all.
i know its all meant to be a joke.
but maybe sometimes, it just gets carried a bit too far off?
and theres a reason why they say
theres a limit to everything.
for the exact same reason which make C teared that day.
i feel so ARGhH.
i feel like punching someone upside down.

i'm a human,
i do feel something too.
and i managed to control everything and lift them all to abba father today.
releasing made me feel so much better(:

forgiveness is unconditional.

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of course
School was PLEASANT too
(:

studied with stinky and sooon ytd.
and stinky will always be my good friend despite being so smelly.
(:
am so glad to be roaming the streets with AH SOON ytd,
i miss YOUR company alot
though i see you ever so often-ly.
we,
bought MY BAG :D

Beng has been giving me the cold shoulder lately
i dont know why
but it makes me feel so uneasy on the inside
it makes me so not at-ease without all those "insults" and "scoldings"

i hope things will be better soon.
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i've never really took sermons and sunday messages seriously before.
but now,
i see that its starting to influence my own life.

change is needed for growth.
love, is essential.

and i dont believe that
love cant melt any cold heart.


give me some time to prove to you that my God is Real.