it isnt "what am i here for"
but instead,

"Who, am i here for."

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today i reflected on myself and my life.
until i can manage waking up on time,
staying awake through all my lectures,
doing tutorials Myself,
coping basketball,
cell and service,
being a good daughter
and a good friend,
then i guess, i can think of expanding my capacity even more.

i was telling and asking Abba Father today.
when can i start serving in my ministry?
why is it that theres still no news for so long?
when is it gonna be my turn?
and then i realised,
i cant even manage all that ive got now.
and to be honest,
when i see friends around me falling ill,
i find myself looking forward to the day when its my turn.
but that day never comes.
perhaps i should stop having thoughts of running away or hiding off somewhere for awhile.
i would really Love to take a break.
but i would want to take a break With Abba Father,
not From Him.


forgive all these talks,
i need a place to rant a little in.


i MISS RACHEL HO so muchh,
i dreamnt of her whole church gang last night.
and i MISS ALTHEE so muchh,
that reading her blog is the only way i can catchup with her life.
i MISS JOBY so much,
but we're both too busy to meet up.
TELEPATHYYYY.
):
well, i THANK GOD for people whom i can see everyday.

JESUS CHRIST,
you're my HERO!
please come and Perk up my emotions and fill whatever emptiness there is.
come and be All the Good that i'm not, and take away All the Bad that i am.
and dear God,
i need more of patience for this coming week.
more of tolerance,
more of Love,
and faith and more of strength.
in short,
i just basically need to be more of You.

Thank You.


and so, my heart sings.