i've been having trainings lately
that a day without it makes me feel rather uneasy
with this little urgency in my mind tugging at me that i must be Better,
better than what i am now.
having trainings with the guys around is such a stressful thing
and ytd my ball rolled over the other court for the upteenthh
darn Embarrassing.

i browsed upon claudy's blog just now
ayee
of Course i'll be there for you.
thats what friends are for (:
your DINGY song is stuck in my head now haha
"i love it when you call, but you never call at all"

how come classes seem so empty nowAdays.
maybe its cause of those cliques and all.
tgt with so many missing ppl, mind you
with like THREE absent from our clique.
Man.

but i still thank God for ppl like char (:
and dear patson.
though he seems to vanish into his own world most of the time.
yet at times when he shares abt spiritual stuff,
it seems like he's one good bud' whom i can rely on anytime.
ytd, i said something hurtful while protecting my friend.
and i've yet to apologise.
i suppose he'll understand.
with all these complications going on in school,
it isnt easy for me to say anything that openly.

sometimes i feel so tough to express my feelings.
that i hope they can all feel it without having to see through actions.

G has been struggling lately.
and i wish i can list out fully to her the advantages of being a single carefree woman.
with no strings attatched.
if i ever see him face to face, Mann.
he's gona be my first guinea pig for kick-boxing.

i've been studying a little here and there.
got to meet up with studying buddies soon
my books are calling out for much more attention.
pride n prejudice sounds reallyreally cool,
i think i'm gona love LITERATURE all over again this year
(:

and in the midst of it,
i know that P and J are out somewhere too.
busy catching up with things in their own lives.
though our schedule Always clashes,
i'm happy enough to know that they're always there when i need a hotline to call.

But, i still wish to see these faces everyday.
am a greedy person.

God please give me one tough guy buddy to arm wrestle and be violent around with.
my bro's vanished into his own world lately.

i'll stand with You when faith and fear collide