31st Dec'06

yo world,
where should i start from?
i have kindof alot to say tonight.

the quality hours of 29th Dec was spent with my sec two old buddies
Aud,Hazel,Xinrui,Rach and me
after bargaining and making such a fool of ourselves,
we rented the bikes at a very good price!
6 bucks for 4 hours, can you beat that?
and it came with free bottles of mineral drinks
the uncle was really nice and he even told us to take more water
HaHa
and i Caught them laughing at our auntyness okay!
i have to admit, we really sounded like experts in the market
but it was so funny!
aye, xinruiii you give ppl such a warm sense of security MAN(:
we cycled out of east coast and though we didnt noe the way,
just followed along with rui leading the way
and i Felt so CHEATED by hazel lim
that woman who claims she cant ride a bike for nuts
i totally believed and for Years i've been riding you ard east coast lar!
since sec one and all our class/clique outings?!
who knows she managed so fine on the bike that day when we made her to
have more confidence in yourself, you did so finee
haha now i dont have to ride you around anymore.
it was Beautiful
just riding with an all too familiar company by ur side,
enjoying the gentle breeze
and as you lift up your head, its the sun peeking out of the clouds
leaves swaying above your head as birds flew in the sky
yea, that was what i saw.
yes, now talking abt food. THEY eat so much.
every mama shop we past, someone just Had to purchase smth frm there
and we ate macs too.
so did i on the 30th and today
i am So Sick of macs haha
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30th! and that was ytd,
went out with 6Gentleness'02 to east coast park(:
i must hav been the happiest person on earth this week
within a few days, i managed to catch up with so many ppl in my life
its pretty cool and ..nice!
we hung ard macs for Hours just sitting n chatting about our dear pri six life
aye, there was ang zi, zhiwei, jean, sihui, liyun, elana, joanna, tse mei!
so many ppl, i felt kindof happy and for some reason, i feel really special spending TEN whole years of my life in a purely all girls school
anyhow, guess wat we did to spend our time?
Arcade! haha
we played Para para, it was so funny watching elana play!
and that comp fighting game with soon li was so Hilarious
made me scream n laughed like a retard :D
oh yea. we even bummed into a 'false prophet' as we walked on the paths
i guess you can call him that
he was wearing all white and proclaiming himself to be Jesus, talking abt the judgement day
it was curiosity,
we all followed and questioned him Alot
i was fearful at first. who knows, there might be some kind of demon or smth?
but his eyes werent scary at all. it was Funny instead.
i had quite a fun time asking him questions
but tt incident left me alot to think about.
about the judgement day appraoching, and as more n more ppl claim to be Jesus in the near future
BUT one thing i know for sure,
my God wldnt do anything to harm me
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so i spent two days in a row dwn at east coast park.
after playing with my pri six classmates,
i went to meet joby n junling for our Long Awaited stayover MAN
we just needed time to be alone
she, her and me
i waited super duper long for the bus.
one hour fifteen mins, only to realise tt the bus doesnt come on saturdays
how dumb was that?!
Anyhow, it was crowded dwn at junling's place
with her uncles n aunties playing majong
there was a warm feeling though and it felt like a Real home.
we watched "she's the man" so cool lar.
maybe i'll disguise myself as a guy someday and probably fall in love with some big n macho guy with killer looks and we'd share great chemistry
aha, i'm just kidding!
yes, i ate alot of fruits, all dipped in chocolate.
we chatted n played till around 4 plus
when i weighed myself on the weighing scale only to find that..
i LOST weight! ahaha! made me so super duper happy
and i was hungry alr, so we shared a huge bowl of cup noodles n choc
and we went to sleep straight after that
i think, i 've gained some weight back on alr
haha, Anyhow, i lost weight you know! how amazing is that?!
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my life seems kindof perfect aint it?
well, everyone has problems
and i am no exception
to tell the truth, i was kindof affected and irritated real badly
over something so heavy. its been pulling down all my emotions.
and all i ever wanted to say in here was nth happy.
but God loves me enough to come in and rescue, ME just in time
YES.
i'm talking about today's service.
the sermon touched me very deeply and right now, i'm back on track again
Thank You so much God.
and now, i'm here to share and tell of God's amazing love.

i was tired but i knew i shld jus stay on. thats wat i did. and when things only got worst, i realised tt the firmer i stood hanging on, the tougher the going got. it was crazy i tell you. some stuff were stuck so heavily to my on my chest. i had thoughts of giving up. just taking a break and thats it. period. leave the job to someone else. leave everything to someone else. but today's message spoke right through my heart.
now that i know, at times, i just have to live on my own faith n carve out my own destiny myself.
and stop relying on God so much. stop being a baby, waiting to be protected all the time.
true, i've always imagined mysef hiding under the wings of my saviour.
and He wld shield me frm the harmful stuff.
but really, what good does it make?
its only Then when i really grow and learn.
"still" was so amazing today. its my favourite song and will still be in the future.
today really drew my strength and hope back in.
i guess men can really let you down. but God's words Never will.
at the end of it all, i still find myself drawing strength frm the lovely one above.
not any other.
after running in circles everywhere, i'm still back at square one.
realising that i can only feel secured when i Fall into the arms of my saviour as i fail.
and not any other.


now i do know the answer.
God sees it all, my friend. God sees it all