the universe will sing.

buried myself in bed last night.
but under the covers i knew i couldnt hide.
much as i was trying to run away,
i wanted that very same person to make my day.
and beautiful is our God,
the universe will sing..
Hallelujah, to you my King.

my heart cannot stop singing tonight.

once again,
i didnt failed trying to find a perfect friend.
i succeeded in proving to myself Again. that
"even though men might fail me, Jesus will never."

--

left the house in the morning for school today.
but half way through my tummy rumbled and fumbled
and it felt all so weird and squirshy on the inside.
so i had no choice but to Bomb in pain at some ulu pandan mrt station.
couldnt make it on time for school, gave it a miss.
camped at macs for awhile
and MAN, their coffee is so Foamy.
okayy, leo says that coffee's supposed to be like that.
but it tasted to horrible.
Haha, i drank abt 1/4 of it only to realised that we're supposed to pour in our own sugar and cream and everything.
anyhoww,
went to get an MC.
and it was so packed down there,
im so gald that i dont skip school everyday.

i miss the people in school today.

i was doing some self-reflection today.
and though its hard to admit,
i must say that im a rather prideful person.
too much pride,
sometimes i need to let go a little and be less headstrong.

was reading on SAMSON today.
it made me reflect quite a bit too.

anyhow,
i received two random messages today which really made my day.
THANK YOU (:

you know my darkest secrets.

ran a good 3.5km a couple of days ago.
currently on a hunt for a nice GYM(:
spent saturday morning in school doing some EL paper
came home feeling Tired.
and my Superb long nap took the afternoon away.

i wishh,
i can DRAW.
and sketch emotions into Life.


anything but ordinary.

"you're good enough just being who you are, and doing what you do."

if i could soar higher,
please take me further.

sometimes i feel so exploited.
or maybe even like a punching bag for others.
but over the years ive realised that i dont hate being in this position actually.
its okay that i become a stepping stone for others at times.
just that once in awhile people will crave for some gratitude.
at least,
enough to know that you're not taken for granted.
its just one of these low-energy, no-battery phase that im going through now.
i felt so foolish.
but its OKAY.
im all back to normal already i guess.
"men may fail you, disappoint you, hurt you. but God will never."


"all these things which you do to others my brethen, you have done it to me."
its Okay.
because afterall, its God's love that im spreading.
no wonder its such a difficult task.
i came across the lyrics of the above song today.
it was so Timely.
just look at these lyrics,
they really reminded me of What i am here for.
and who am i here for.

Thank You

I dreamed I went to heaven
And you were there with me
We walked upon the streets of gold
Beside the crystal sea
We heard these angels singing
Then someone called your name
You turned and saw this young man
And he was smiling as he came
And he said friend you may not know me now
And then he said, but wait
You used to teach my Sunday School
When I was only eight
And every week you would say a prayer
Before the class would start
And one day when you said that prayer
I asked Jesus in my heart

CHORUS
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am a life that was changed
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave

Then another man stood before you
And said remember the time
A missionary came to your church
And his pictures made you cry
You didn’t have much money
But you gave it anyway
Jesus took the gift you gave
And that’s why I’m here today

CHORUS (repeat)

One by one they came
Far as your eyes could see
Each life somehow touched
By your generosity
Little things that you had done
Sacrifices you made
They were unnoticed on the earth
In heaven now proclaimed

And I know that up in heaven
You’re not supposed to cry
But I am almost sure
There were tears in your eyes
As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord
He said, my child look around you
For great is your reward

CHORUS (repeat)

I am so glad you gave.

its OKAY,
i know that Daddy sees it all and appreciate whatever im doing.
someday, He'll thank me personally.
and that is Enough.

Thank you, for using me.
--


have been losing sleep for the past few days
my eyes are gonna POP!
i feel a little like a walking zombie.
overslept and missed my stop while going to school in the morning
and lost my way at some main road at city hall ytd.
but PTL! im safe and sound (:

attending the first session of "hearing impact" was really interesting.
turned out that i was the youngest
and i was hoping for a lonely girl so that i could make friends with her.
Haha. but they were all middle-aged.
so, oh well.
but we learned to understand the deaf better.
its really Amazing how these people can live their lives off so confidently.
some even much better than us.
it really reminded me of this assurance of our own identity daddy has given to us.
im a PRINCESS, living in God's kingdom(:
someday,
i'll be hand-signing praise and worship songs during service!

HMM
time-check: 12:27AM

got to do history trigger notes.
SIXTEEN more sundays to A'levels.
OH MANNNN.

picture speaks a thousand words.

interpret it yourself.

You're the love of my life.


i Wish.
that forgiving comes naturally.
i wish i am magnanimous.
i wish that im smarter too.

i wish this feeling is not here to stay.
--

school was Great today(:
had unexpected conversations with pam and gradys
which really made me want to sit down
and be able to pass all my subjects for once.
AND, they made me miss PL days too.

urmm.
im craving for chocolates
i need a
WHITE KIT KAT CHUNKY
nowww.
):

hearts joined as one.

PAM (:
today, i feel so tired and drained.
like what claudy said,
theres really such a term as
compassion burnout.

maybe i just need some time to rest and
Re-charge.


love is unconditional.

just hung up the phone with cheryl
i was singing "JESUS" repeatedly on the phone to her as she played on the guitar.
pork can play! (:
just practice changing that F#m chord faster,
other than that i think you're quite good (:
haha

today's an Amazing day.
had bible study with Daphne in the morn and then we headed for heartbreakers.
seeing Daphne responding today really touched me deeply.

i was reminded of God's promise today.

on my way,
i received a call from Talking Hands.
Finally! that phone call left me feeling Ecstatic on my train ride home.
i cant wait to be having my own ministry,
and serving(:


alrights,
history is calling out to me.
i better go.

I asked Jesus "Lord, how much do you love me?"
Jesus spread His arms, and died.

Nic stayover last night (:
we had a Greaat time chatting and sharing and Praying together.
it took me a while to actually realise the significance of
being the Chosen Ones.
it feels like i had a whole new revelation again yesterday.
and as i was talking to nic ytd,
i began to realise that we are really called for "such a time as this".
in PL, it was amazing how the 3 of us got together and we grew.
now that we're older,
i can see how Daddy's plans slowly start to unfold.
its amazing how we landed in the same junior college somehow.
so many lives, different directions but we arrive in a similar situation.
and i rmb the dream i saw before knowing our sch posting results.
surely, it cannot be pure coincidence?
its too Perfect to be coincidence already.
i feel so strongly in my heart now,
that im Determined to do Something right here in this school.
since im already here, and Daddy placed us here,
might as well make an impact, leave a legacy.
i dont want to to just graduate and leave SR behind as a place filled with no glory,
like as if we havent done something in this school.

Dream BIG!
i cant wait for SOT(:
cant wait to be working and attending Bible School at the same time.
life's gonna be oh-so Interesting (:

YES, lana's blog made me realise how much time we have left actually.
i really need to start making full use of every little bit of my time.

chatting with claudy on my way home today made me realise how much i Miss the Company in school.
you really do brighten peoples' lives Darl (:
--

went for prayer meeting this morning
and then Prayer walk at cheryl's school!
came home feeling Tired.
have been losing sleep for the past few days so i came home and laid in bed for FIVE whole hours.
its 9 plus in the night now.
MANN, gonna get down to work.
HISTORY.
):
ECONS.. )':

you're my peace.

this ELEVENTH year,
im so thankful for who you are.
MISSES.
(:

a phone call from PAM really made my day today.
(:
i MISS her tonnes and tonnes.
and it felt so good to be hearing her voice
which reminds me of RACHEL too.

ELANA tan made my day today.
"i shall never let adversity get me down except on my knees."
thanks for that Verse (:
i felt so Happy to be receiving it from you!

mm studied today at lana's club.
im so Inspired after hearing about the brothers' overnight prayer meeting!
it brings back memories of how we used to have our very Own too.
shall arrange out very own one soon
(:
i CANT WAIT.
anyhow, jicai was sleeping so soundly while we studied today.
i Want to go for tmr's PMMMM.

was reading the bible this morning,
and i felt that its really meaningful.

JUDGES 7:3-8
vs 3- "now therefore, proclaim in the hearing of the people, saying,
'whoever is fearful and afraid, let him turn and depart at once from
Mount Gilead'." and twenty-two thousand of the people returned and
ten thousand remained.
vs 7- .. "by the three hundred men who lapped i will save you, and deliver the
Midianites into your hand. let all the other people go..

what happened here was that God was leading Gideon to fight a battle
and Gideon had lots of men with him.
but out of this huge number of men, God was choosing the
Right kind of people to go into the battle and claim victory.
Daddy, was choosing the people whom He thought was appropriate in this battle.
He didnt just allow anyone and everyone to go into the battle.

this really impacted me.
just like the verse which goes:
"for many are called, but few are chosen" - Matt 22:14

its true that Daddy gives everyone talents and spiritual gifts and all.
everyone has it in them
but very few are chosen because of how they react to things.
its their faithfulness in the little things that matters,
and their perseverance that makes a difference.
i, really do one to be one of the few who are chosen.

vs 16- the people here went into the battle Not with swords and amours
but with trumpets and pitchers and torches.
who, in the world would go into a battle fighting with only these equipments for defense and offence?!
i mean, Seriously. i would think that they are nuts to do that.
but its really the FAITH that we see here.
the people just went in a peaceful state of mind,
without even worrying but entrusting God totally.
and those trumpets that they carry,
were to make a joyful noise unto the Lord!
i, really want to be like that the next time i find myself in a battle.

i want to impact myself, and my opponents.
as well as those who are watching this battle that im fighting.


You are Beautiful to me. (:

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever."
-PS 73:26


leadership conference was so Amazing yesterday.
i feel so Blessed by the word! (:
and so was bible study with Leila,
i felt so thankful that i had it yesterday.

the devil is one smart chap.
he sure knows when to come and when not to.
of course, it wasnt easy for me at all.
having to receive Numerous calls from home,
even as i was listening to the sermon last night.
but im not here to complain or describe how tough my going has been since the early years.
im just here to testify of Daddy's really unconditional love.

it Always has to happen.
everytime i make a personal decision to hang in there for my breakthrough,
or everytime i renew my faithfulness in God,
there wld definitely be chaos at home.
small trifle issues like not closing the main door would spark into huge conflicts.
but its okay,
now that im used to it and know what to predict.
i felt a kindof peace lingering in my heart last night as i rushed out of church and journeyed home alone.
i knew what to expect at home, but its Okay.
because Daddy's with me and true, the devil can be really strong.
but Good triumphs over evil eventually anyway.

"everytime you manage to come out from a trail, there would be a certain anointing."

because there is a breakthrough somewhere.
and i really do want this anointing.
its amazing how my bus took no delay to come and the speed it was travelling at,
those werent the norm.
but i know that Daddy's helping me.
it Wasnt easy not talking back or fighting back my tears or just controlling my emotions.
but i managed to do it last night
and my brother was the first person whom i shared all these with last night at home.
im just thankful for all the little things God has seen me through.
i know, i can never come this far without Him.
--

chatted with nic last night,
busy trying to convince her to BATHE.
that auntie was so dirty and lazy la!
haha.
and then i spoke to steamed pork for an hour plus
(:
headed to bed only at 4plus in the morning.

MANN, i wanna join you guys for PM this morning!
but its okayy, sure attempt for the next two days (:

ohh,
yesterday, i was rushing up the flight of stairs from B4 to level one in church.
there was only this guy and me in the whole flight of underground staircase.
so when we finally reached level one,
he opened the door and left.
while i, on my way up i saw my reflection and went to tidy my hair and everything.
how was i to know that the guy was waiting for me all along?!
he was standing there, holding the door for me
and i didnt even realised it,
while Zi-Lianing in front of that reflection, in front of him as he waited.
so Embarrassing!
i was too embarrassed to face him after saying a thank you.
Haha.

OUCHH.
stomach ache ):
alrighty,
got to BOMB!

i never knew i could hurt like these.

went over to claudy's place today
studied with her and leo.
im in Love with her TOASTED BREAD!
so Addictive man (:
haha but of course, the company was Much better.
i enjoyed the catching up and all those talks claudy (:
we better work Hard to complete our remaining home work!
honestly, i have so MUCH to do,
i need to multiply whatever time that i have left
and start getting to work.

my GOSHH,
i wanna get RID of this Irritating pimple thats growing on my Left Cheek!

lana, pork and smallballhead and nic were studying tgt today.
so Nice to know that we're always hanging out tgt constantly (:
i cant wait for the weekends!
--

sometimes it gets so tiring with you,
i wish you knew how i felt.
its difficult to be patient and giving in all the time.
maybe i do need some reassurance in this friendship at times
to keep giving me the strength to
hold on.

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

this song is so touching,
i almost Cried while listening to it over and over again.
if not for the many conversations popping up on msn.
Haha.

i wish, i could say those words to you.

spends his time alone in the basement with a guitar.

i wanted showed that i bother coming home early today.
but anyway,
happy Fathers' day Dad.

i have a really Crazy cellgroup.
shall let the pictures do the talking (:
haha














dreams and visions are piling on the inside of me.
but First,
i know that it all has to start with myself.
knowing that i cant expect them to be perfect in the different areas when i myself cant even do it.
i see that there are so Many things awaiting for me to conquer them,
breakthroughs after breakthroughs waiting for me to make some kindof move.
i guess,
i am only in the position to Nag at others when i myself have done them faithfully.
things like bible study and quiet time and praying.
leading a christian life can be so Exciting indeed. (:
because, a smooth life's gonna be so Boring afterall huh.

ONE more week left and..
HELP
)':
i havent been studying at all.
im so SCARED.
because everyone must have been studying
and even if they didnt,
this june hols was supposed to be time to catch up with the Average students.
i wanna be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath.

lots of WANTS that i have too.
beloved Brown FOSSIL watch!(:
sling leather bag (:
and straight cut jeans.

wow OH wow.
i just ran approximately 3km just now.
now i really do Undderstand that having ABS is not an easy task.
):
OKAYY, i have so Much to work on.

gonna Swim and then study at claudy's place tmr (:
looking forward!

king lear:


















theres something about you now.