TAIWAN was Great (:
freezing cold weather for the first few days cause' of my insufficient wardrobe.
the weather was unpredicted.
saw snow when we were up on the mountains!
breathtaking scenaries and a couple of visits to the temples.
last two days were shopping with prices similar to those in singapore.
but their night markets are Huge and packed and interesting too.
ate my first piece of smelly tofu, i almost Puked.
haha, but its a delicacy over there. something which i cannot comprehend.
im Missing taiwan already, looking forward to the next trip abroad.
let the pictures do the talking (:




where they shot "meteor garden" too


flowers!






my dear tour friends!

resort where we stayed up in for the night



HOT TUB:
mountains:

they're all marble!

kay, these are rocks

marble again!





dined here (:





HUGE sausages:


amazing toilet bowl (:




they've All left for genting.
im so gonna miss them so Much. ):
hoping they'll have all the maximum fun and enjoyment over there anyway (:



service and pm ytd was Greatt (:
i missed it badly.
met PAM after that.
we had a great time catching up (:
i window shopped while she shopped.
saw beautiful wallets!
i Need a wallet badly ):
the ones from ripcurl and quiksilver were really nice.
we, got my first TWILIGHT BOOK!
:D :D :D
with a good price of only 10 plus bucks.
wanted to hunt for the one with the apple cover
but i gave up! after seeing how rapidly those books were selling.
its like sold out in Manymany places.
everyone's reading My book. ):
haha
got hooked onto it last night (:
saving money for the next book.



"do not fear, for i am with you; do not be dismayed, for i am your God. i will strengthen you and help you; i will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
- Isaiah 41:10


my comfort, my refuge, my shelter, my strength.

almighty, eternal, my Friend.

AH!
my Thunder thighs above.
sometimes i dont know if exercising can be a good thing or bad.
muscles make me look Chunky!

my arms are aching.
swam quite a bit today! (:
not bad for me considering that my swimming is Superb lousy.
swam while nic and aw tanned.
HAHA they both look so funny, Desperate for sunlight.
i took picture of their KEBABS
wore a bikini out for the first time with them
THANK GOD theres not much ppl roaming about at the pool.
haha i have this strange premonition that im gonna become much more girlier with them plus cheryl in our new cell.

leaving for Taiwan this friday and my luggage is less than half packed.
not enough jeans!
didnt get my scarf ):
swimsuit if half wet
songs in mp3 unloaded
AH! everything is in a MESS.
day for tmr is Packed.
gonna swim in the morn then prayer meeting and bs then meeting tofu for awhile.
i. better. rush. home. tmr. to. pack. my. luggage.
im gonna miss Singapore and cell and People Alot.
but im looking forward to Taiwan tooo
just fearful of the food part.
ahahaha.

been' having a load of things this week.
LiWen's birthday (:






this is CLASSIC:


this is the MOST CLASSIC:
look how round it is!






HAPPY BRITHDAY SOON LI WEN
and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMYY!
i Love my Mum.
she's the Bestest Best Mum in the whole wide world despite everything.
because she's been so giving for our family and without her,
my family would be nothing.

--

some issues cropped up today.
i pushed aside temptations and distractions.
but it was really coincidental after what, 2 years of absence?

and
to be more loving, i need to give up my right to get even.
not taking revenge or harbouring bitterness
or bearing grudges.
cause' love knows no boundaries.
but loving isnt easy, thats why im still trying and struggling to love certain people.
but of course, there are already many Loved ones around (:

gonna work on discipleship
think the reason why things arent going so well is also my fault.
not exactly sure which areas i need to tap into this person's life but im really trying.
just leaving for taiwan with a little worry.
but like what pastor said, good burden for the people.

NIC is a Great cellgroup leader (:
im glad to be supporting her always.
i have a Very Cute cellgroup.
just looking at benedict n timothy hugging cheryl's lookalike today made me wanna LAUGH.
HAHA
superb Cute young boys luh please.
and looking at these silent lovers of God,
silent because they're always rather shy and quiet but always around cause' they just simply want to come for cell and svc for God, serving very silently and behind the scenes too.
ppl like cheryl,hazeline and verena and even dean.
okay, im really Challenged.
because i know that even as i start to accumulate in my number of years as a christian,
there are still many things i can learn from them.
things like just having a pure and simple heart that wants to serve.
its true tt im busy with guitar, bs and other cell stuff and helping
but sometimes i always tend to forget the minor details.
i look up to them for always filling in the small teeny minor things tt ppl overlook and sometimes not even acknowledged.
or at least, not everyone like the whole cell knows that they are the ones who have done it.
i mean, its easy for me to play the guitar again and again because ppl are watching me.
but what some of these young ones are doing, its behind the scenes too.
sacrifice.
im challenged.
YAY, thats why they say that Everyone learns sth in a cellgroup, Everyone can learn from one another.
i Love my Cell (:
and leader too of course!

okay, now i think im really gonna miss singapore.

here i am,
thirsting for you.
here i am,
desperate for you.

let my life be your clay, mould me in your ways.

friday!
met PAMELA SOH! :D
i cant remember the last time we actually caught up face to face.
probably during our birthdays in april.
oh my Gosh, thats so long ago.
we ate some DIM SUM for breakfast
the yam cake was so huge, it left us feeling bloated.
we only had a couple of hours tgt because of her piling projects in poly
seriously, her course in poly is the busiest one ive ever seen.
was supposed to search for her sis present but we got so carried away and went shopping instead.
i Love Pam! ((:

met eunice again! (:
we went to cityhall to change my guitar strings.
i wanna COMPLAIN.
made 15 BUCKS for a change of the strings but they were all sounded so Weird when i took it out at sarah's hse.
think lots of ppl can do a much better job.
anyhow, eunice and i explored singapore while waiting for my strings to be done!
we walked and turned at any nice buildings we saw.
went into a fire station museum somewhere along the streets of cityhall and the fireman kindly toured us around. we were the only tourists there!
went into the armenian church too
and we discovered a paranakan museum!
wanted so much to go in but we were totally Broke.
gonna be back another day (:
we walked all the way from cityhall to clarkquay
so Tired. took the train back to cityhall again to collect my guitar!
and then we needed to head down for cell so we decided to take a bus
and that was when eunice and i got Lost in chinatown.
haha felt like some retard trying all the different exits in chinatown
we gave up eventually and took a cab.
even the young boys like timothy and benedict had to laugh at us Can!

cell was not bad ytd.
(:

my throat Hurts like crazeeeeyyyyy ) :


workplace just contacted me
im only gonna start work aft returning from tawiwan.
thats after the 13th?! ) :
oh my Gosh so LONG.

it made my day! :D

spent time with eunice today!
(:
had bs together,
splurge a little and made ourselves Happy(:

heard stories about prom from claudy.
haha she's the Best person to describe things accurately so dramatically.
tofu was supposed to stayover today but im down with bad flu and cough ):

i Cant wait to start work next week!
gotta get those white blouses, black jeans and shoes needed.

i tasted my first two MACAROONS today
they were Heavenly!
i want, a macaroon tree for Christmas!
like the one below!



then i can give a piece to everyone and still have Much leftovers for my tummy :D

gonna buy a bottle of damn good sunblock lotion.
just found out the reason why the sunblock didnt work the other time was because it was 0.3
and tofu told me hers was 100plus
HAHA. i had no idea that 0.3 meant tt sunblock was Superbly lousy
how dumb can i get mann
no wonder i left the pool two shades darker just after 2 hours.

oh yar,
visited the lib today too.
got myself a new library card and borrowed many books.
im a bookworm yo!
wanna read TWILIGHT ):
--

had guitar lessons with leong ytd
he's so pro!
but im on my way to being a pro cause' im his student
im finally mastering my first can-make-it praise song.
:D




deep inside i hope you feel it too.

i've got a job!
:D

21st Nov'08
i donated my blood (:
on a sudden impulse.
lana went before me and looking at her brave face made me courageous too.
was so engrossed at what the nurse was doing to my arm and
too freaked out by the needle
that i didnt realise both sooon and lana didnt donate in the end.
their veins couldnt be detected.
sat there for more than 15 mins, think my blood was pumping out really slowly.
the guy beside me could even joked about donated an extra pack of blood.
haha but i feel like a Hero now! :D
a slight bruise is forming over where the injection was cause' i fidgeted a tad too much.
had a slight dizzy spell ytd night during praise till i had to sit down.
but i had supper late last night and bedded
feel Strong now!(:

i thank God for MAGGIE (:
even though its not like i can see her 24/7 or weekly even.
but thanks for always being around in your own way.
miss her so damn Much.
(:

im officially FREE from the A's!
study lit made me feel so downright depressing
esp SYLVIA PLATH's poems.

"dying is like an art, like everything else, i do it especially well."
made me feel so suicidal.
haha but im FREE!

whats a crush?

im really looking forward to class outing soon (:

PROM is drawing near.
feeling oh so Excited for them (:
--

im gonna head to the gym with tofu today and then miracle service tonight!
think i shant touch those weights-realated machines today,
scared of my small bruise!


my Brother is playing car racing on PSP,
makes me so wanna join him.

BYE!


few steps forward and another few back.

you're not here with me.

been' dreaming about prom and genting trip a couple of times.
but i know that such sacrifices are worth it
it will pass soon.
(:

its the Asia Conference season.
really exciting season.
Daddy has been really merciful and gracious to me.
Love to see hundreds and thousands of people just gathering to worship and see these amazing wonders.

havent been exercising recently.
im just too Lazy to sweat it out or travel to the pool.
im HOOKED to taiwanese DRAMAS.
gotta start lifting my bum off the chair and move it!
one more episode to the whole of one series woohoo!
:D
sigh, but such things only happen in dramas anyway.
AH! im turning into a Couch Potato!
heading off for a job hunt and interview on saturday.
i CANT WAIT.
haha i think i need to snap out of my dreamer mode too. because of those dramamamas

swimming and shopping last week with claudy was fun!
HEE (:
it scares me how reactive my skin and the sun can be.
just 2 hours in the pool and im one shade darker.
the tan mark is so Obvious.

LAST PAPER is TMR!
haha yes yes, the A's hasnt ended
and boy am i here celebrating already.

i better STUDY today,
so i can shout and scream and jump for joy tmr.

TADA.
(:


and when the sun comes through you're like the angel you are.

I'M FREE!!

haha, more or less i am.
left with only lit paper 5.

the Whole world is crazy about TWILIGHT!
including ME.
i cant wait to get my hands on those books and
eyes on that movie!
:D

history was fine ytd, am really hoping that it'll put my SEA part up and pass with not just scraping through. but with flying colours!
felt Great when i needed to raise my hand to ask for extra paper.
Haha, shows that im writing alot!
im HAPPY because most of A's over, o-v-e-r
HEEE :D

watched THE COFFIN with claudy, leo and lionel ytd.
didnt know what i was thinking,
claudy and i both paid money to scare oursleves in the theatre.
haha, Embarrassing esp when theres no one else screaming.
we took Neoprints!
i cant rmb the last time i stepped into the machine.
we lost track of the time didnt manage to select correctly for printing,
the picture came out Huge.
Haha! the Largest neoprint ive ever taken my goshh!

so Many things have changed during the exams period.
even CINE leisure looks so different when we went there ytd.
haha, or maybe its just me.

people around me are getting or having tattoos!
i think its Cool(:
but i still prefer not to add anything myself.

am currently quite addicted to this choc crisp flavoured cornflacks.
cant get enough of it.
Swimming today!
and going window shopping.
for prom? oh MAN. prom is like in how many days,
and i havent gotten/tried any dress/heels/makeup
i hope today will be productive.

looking forward to class' BBQ (:
i dont know why but im so Excited about it.
wanted to joined the guys for LAN today, but we figured that we'll end up dying as their victims for 4 straight hours in the comp room.
haha, i want to play PAINT BALL.
it sounds and looks and i know it'll be SUPERB FUN!



CASH, i need you to fall from the sky right NOW!
my wishlist has been so ever stagnant and never moving since the start of this year.







i need to move on and forget about some things.
cant be settling for less but more!
from glory to glory yes amen.

the best part of falling is that we get to pick ourselves up again.

wednesday.
brawled and complained and threw little fits of anger like a little girl.
not literally but debating emotionally.
sigh, i really need to grow up.
guess everyone's gonna head to genting without me.
its alrightt, i'll learn to enjoy singapore!
had a little encounter after clearing my bags from the lockers ytd.
edged deeply in my head, this is so Badd.
bbq this sat! i hope it wouldnt be weird with him/her again.
was reading the papers ytd and the recent killing was by an Eight yr old boy who shot his dad and dad's friend.
oh my gosh, what is this world coming to.
few more days till i Spell f-r-e-e-d-o-m
me cant wait yo!




like your charisma.

TELL HER.





--

just let me rant for one entry i promise.
i havent really complained about the A's ever since it started.

im so SCARED about tmr's econs paper.
it makes me want to skip it real badly.
i have so Much more to study and add on for it.
everyone's freaking out and studying hard but this sudden migrain is kicking in and i end up sleeping on my bed.
my Goshh. i dont know whats wrong with me. people Freak out while sitting for their papers in the hall and i can even doze off in the midst of it at times. need to stock up on my mints or fengyou to just keep me awake. the fengyou was so strong today, rubbed too much of it on my temples and i ended up tearing a little here and there.
LIT is one of my more confident and happy subjects together along with maths.
but lit Sucked today. blackspot says all the papers for A's have been so Weird and unusually hard in its own way this year.
so True. but its Not the papers' fault in any case.
econs is tomorrow. i need this migrain to go away quickly right now.
feeling nausea too. maybe its because of getting caught in the rain recently. even downing my subway sandwhich didnt help kick this bitter feeling away.
even food doesnt help.
cant wait for it to be over and be free.
i came home and found out something,
felt like ive really been given an unequal share of the pie in many things.
how long more till i win the approvals and trust and not needing to beg and differ i do not know.


okay im done with complaining.
JOY of the Lord shall be my Strength!

just a few more days, i can hang in there.
PAM has been really stressed up recently.
i feel it for her so strongly. listening to her part of story makes me feel grateful for not being in poly and being stucked with irresponsible groupmates who dont give a care about anything.
Cant wait to be free so i can be there for her too.

ive Big plans to work and earn big Bucks.
extraordinary sacrifice this time round, makes me feel shaky at first but challenged and all geared up in my faith.
need to stetch and boost my faith muscles so much more.
have booked leong for upcoming guitar lessons,
think i better book more and be fast!
need him to help master me with praise songs!
knowing that i need to be more independent on my own, esp when the only person whom i can share much with isnt gonna be walking the journey with me anymore.
gonna have to erase my own expectations of people too.
and changing my own attitude of meeting the emotional and physical needs of those around instead of thinking about my own.
need to keep reminding myself that they too need to be supportive for others and might be tired out too.
from now onwards, im gonna walk closer and leaning more on Daddy.
pardon me, fiona's been talking to herself recently.

alrighty.
praying for smooth flow of thoughts tmr and all the points that i ever need to pen down will be written.
Gonna do this once and for all.
goodbye.

(:

my mole-skinned diary is still the best.


yo mama why so biased
i thought you said that we're both your dearest.
so prove it to me once in awhile
cause' i need some assurance as your child.
hey daddy i do love you
its just that i dont express how i feel.
wish i could be all bold and true
or perhaps even as that little girl you once knew.
im sorry for not being the ideal
but im hoping that i can still please you.

haha!
i was Bored.
and i thought lana's picture was just SO CUTE. heh :D
i have so MANY of DINO's ZI-LIAN pictures but they arent uploaded.


had a nightmare two nights ago that scared the wits out of me.
blood and gore all over the place
in the hands of someone between both love and hate.
maybe im really trying to get some things out of my head.

received a really Pleasant surprise ytd evening while studying at home!
THANK YOU Liyun! cheryl! and jicai! :D :D
for invading my house and then my room out of the blue
and for the flower and card and Deep Fried Food.
im Touched! (:

received so many well wishes from church and school about A's
makes me feel cared for (:
everyone cant wait for the A's to come and go.
i, want it to Slowly come and go mann.
hope to do this well once and for all.
2 papers down, few more to go!

think i havent been seeking and knocking and waiting enough. i keep letting procrastination and complacency get the better of me. i Miss you Daddy. alot alot Alot.

have been missing Lots of people recently.
cant concentrate fully while studying because thoughts of people keep popping up in my mind.
cant wait to catch up with pam and pang and ah soon of course.

we're all gonna head into different directions soon.
new phase of life, fresh beginnings.
guess im scared and feeling a little vulnerable without you.
because all along we've started together, walked the journey tgt and i know we're going our separate ways from now.
but its okayy, distance makes the heart grow fonder (:
still gonna be my Bestest fat pal no matter what (:
thank you for everything (:

for a moment, i got tired from having to care much even in the midst of the exams
to lend my listening ears again and again cause' somtimes i just need a break and hear me rant instead for once.
but then i got reminded what it means to expand my own capacity.
i need more love and more patience.
people dont care about how much i know until they know how much i care.
yes, i want and need to be more loving.
its never enough. dear God, please fill me to the brim!


i feel FAT! ): ): ): ):
okay, im going jogging!


i'm not in love, this is not my heart.