TELL HER.





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just let me rant for one entry i promise.
i havent really complained about the A's ever since it started.

im so SCARED about tmr's econs paper.
it makes me want to skip it real badly.
i have so Much more to study and add on for it.
everyone's freaking out and studying hard but this sudden migrain is kicking in and i end up sleeping on my bed.
my Goshh. i dont know whats wrong with me. people Freak out while sitting for their papers in the hall and i can even doze off in the midst of it at times. need to stock up on my mints or fengyou to just keep me awake. the fengyou was so strong today, rubbed too much of it on my temples and i ended up tearing a little here and there.
LIT is one of my more confident and happy subjects together along with maths.
but lit Sucked today. blackspot says all the papers for A's have been so Weird and unusually hard in its own way this year.
so True. but its Not the papers' fault in any case.
econs is tomorrow. i need this migrain to go away quickly right now.
feeling nausea too. maybe its because of getting caught in the rain recently. even downing my subway sandwhich didnt help kick this bitter feeling away.
even food doesnt help.
cant wait for it to be over and be free.
i came home and found out something,
felt like ive really been given an unequal share of the pie in many things.
how long more till i win the approvals and trust and not needing to beg and differ i do not know.


okay im done with complaining.
JOY of the Lord shall be my Strength!

just a few more days, i can hang in there.
PAM has been really stressed up recently.
i feel it for her so strongly. listening to her part of story makes me feel grateful for not being in poly and being stucked with irresponsible groupmates who dont give a care about anything.
Cant wait to be free so i can be there for her too.

ive Big plans to work and earn big Bucks.
extraordinary sacrifice this time round, makes me feel shaky at first but challenged and all geared up in my faith.
need to stetch and boost my faith muscles so much more.
have booked leong for upcoming guitar lessons,
think i better book more and be fast!
need him to help master me with praise songs!
knowing that i need to be more independent on my own, esp when the only person whom i can share much with isnt gonna be walking the journey with me anymore.
gonna have to erase my own expectations of people too.
and changing my own attitude of meeting the emotional and physical needs of those around instead of thinking about my own.
need to keep reminding myself that they too need to be supportive for others and might be tired out too.
from now onwards, im gonna walk closer and leaning more on Daddy.
pardon me, fiona's been talking to herself recently.

alrighty.
praying for smooth flow of thoughts tmr and all the points that i ever need to pen down will be written.
Gonna do this once and for all.
goodbye.

(: