To Be With You -


I LOVE THIS SONG!! (:
beautiful oldies!

hold on, little girl show me what he's done to you.
stand up, little girl a broken heart cant be that bad.
when its through, its through. fate will twist the both of you.

gave out flyers today with angeline for Mr Lai.
the sun was so Superb HOT i could practically feel my perspiration trickling down my back.
we finished in one and a half hours when we were supposed to stand for 3!
working at night for lai lai with kat wong was rather relaxed. but its painfully boring. kat's itouch served as Great Entertainment today :D
im so amused by her ice-cream game!
i know ive been mentioning it for so long but i think im gonna take up another job soon.
probably scoop ice-cream or work in subway! having fun putting all the veges and bread.
sometimes i wish money wld just fall from heaven so i dont have to worry about AnB and all the other stuff. but then again..

i know sometimes its really hard to step out from something or how youve been feeling entirely.
especially when you've been burrying it within, thinking that its not tt big an issue and you are bound to overcome it because you want to.
but wanting to or knowing you have to and being able to are all separate issues.
it took me awhile to reallyreally get over my own results and other problems.
it began to dawn upon me that if i dont ever move on, my people will never ever will too. its like, if i never ever have a breakthrough, they will never ever have one either.
im not saying that im superior but it really reminded me of what pauline said before.
having people under you means that whether their lives grow closer to God or not depends on you too.
it really had me thinking. and many times when i find it hard to move on or carry on, i keep reminding myself, "if not for yourself, then for those around you". i need to be less selfish and start focusing on those around me more.
thats when i was able to let go and let God.
and i dontknow, but somehow i feel that ive been receiving comfort from Daddy of late. comfort from simple verses like 2Cor 4:7-10 and Heb 12.
and also small little new breakthroughs that happened the past few days, really assured me that it is worth believing again.
i can get water-baptised! finally got my mum's consent after so many years. now its a matter of when. (:
and now that i hear the worries of people around me. i think im starting to really understand why my life goes through this amount of experiences. it really enables me to understand and relate first-handedly.
all i can say that, this road isnt easy. but now that ive come out of it stronger. not only am i able to Stand, people can now lean on me too.
you just have to move on and not think or dwell on it anymore.
just move on.



deep inside i hope you feel it too.