i really need to be less angsty at home no matter what happens.
ever since Rev John Bevere's sermon on honouring, i find myself stopping at my own faults
at least once a day.
he did such a great job on the message, it really bothers me now everytime i find myself dishonoring someone around me.
and so, my bro has found a job in church. with a monthly salary of 600 bucks.
i can feel the unpleasant vibes let alone the disapproval thats pointing at me. not good enough.
it seems like my current job is not enough because sometimes it hardly covers for half a week.
sometimes i really dontknow whats expected of me.
work but i cant come home late. if i stay home i cant use the comp all the time.
is it just me or is it really tough to be a good and filial daughter.
okay fiona, THAT IS NOT THE POINT. please STOP complaining.
i need Cash. really badly.
to prove that i can do as good. and hopefully even living off myself.
i even feel bad for taking money now.
and i need cash for AnB. this one's out of my will and i really do want to give, but i need to find the means.
Less angsty, less angsty.


work has been fun recently.
Clarence is really Irritating! but i have to admit that having a cranky manager who works in the same shift is really Fun.
the other days without tofu or my cousin are just plain boring.
last wed when we were on the same shifts, he actually washed his hands and flicked the remains of those dirt water at My Face.
what the?! as if once wasnt enough, he just kept doing it again and again.
but at least i had a chance to get back at him.
he actually had to remove his specs to wipe those water droplets away.
i so Enjoy getting back at this Assistant manager :D
Charlie is getting creepyy.
i know it sounds evil and mean but he is over-friendly.
i hope tofu and i arent too cold towards him.

chatting to lana in the afternoon was so funny LUH!
we were searching for jobs through classified,
we found jobs that were looking for bridal models!
students also can pass, they need bridal models for their new portfolios.
ohmygosh so COOL. haha think about it man, not only do we get to have studio shots, we get to have fun and paid too! it was temptingg.
but we figure it wld be so weird if the pictures really got shown in those bridal albums!

finally got down to some household chores.
did some ironing and cleaned my room.

"breaking dawn" twilight's fourth book has been Out-Of-Stock for Forever.
i cant finish reading my twilight series LUH ):
visited the library a couple of days ago, am so into the whole series of FEARLESS books again.
reading is gooood. i shall make my kids read more nxt time (:

finally mustered the courage to head to the pool and swim alone.
7pm and the pool was Full of kids from swimming classes.
managed a small number of 20 laps but i still dont have enough courage to swim without the wall.
ah, healthy lifestylee. wanna loose 5 KG!


massive guitar-ing tmr,
i better go practise now!



sweet lullaby.