i remember everything so clearly.

we've been through so much.
to be honest, i'm a little unsure as well.

i just am aware of this gush of emotions that is within.
having shared close times together before n after school hours,
its really a blessing to me.
i never thought we wld have this kindof intimate friendships.

i feel afraid and worried at the same time.
yet i know that its just another phase of life that we're going through.
and holding on, we'll definitely come out of this stronger.

i cant help but feel these feelings.
havent stopped to think about my own plight and how well i've done.
but i wonder if we're all really be taking different paths soon?

there is this urge to crumble.
and perhaps allow myself to cry a little.
yet strangely enough, it is the same factor which makes me want to be stronger at the same time.
they let me know that i've to be strong and at the same time,
i share the same amount of pain when i see them going through it.

i guess,
theres no need to express to each other how we feel anymore.
or maybe theres no need to be present physically for each other.
cause right now i really do feel like calling one up and speak words of encouragement.
yet i know, it'll be the same lines which she'll be saying back to me.

i want to protect as much as i can.
and embrace whatever i have.
at the same time, showing and expressing all the gratitude in my heart.
i have always felt so blessed.
and i still feel so.
i havent done much to deserve all these love which i've received.

i have so many questions probing in my head.
and whilst i know that we All have to be strong,
heaven knows that i still need a shoulder to lean on every once in a while.

even the best fall down sometimes.
but i still want to be there when you're falling.
i want to be the one who help you up when you're down.
isnt that what, friends are for?