i feel so creeped out.

i feel so creeped out.

i feel so creeped out.

i feel so creeped out.

29 notifications of liking my fb photos, you've got to be kidding me?!

Woohoo, on my way to riverwalk for a meeting w leila.
Feels good to be just sitting down, using my phone and new ipod touch and carrying my new mac book bcause kenneth's gonna help me later.
Not having to worry at all abt book reviews or sermons bcause im almst done.
Not forgetting that All of these are gifts..
From my Father above.
Its amazing how ive always wanted my very own laptop and ipodtouch,
ive never said it out. Amazing how i came across this student promotion and how everyting else just fell into place so smoothly. today im having them both.
God is good, all the time.
All the time, God is good(:
'All things work for good to those wo love Him'!
Thankyou Daddy(:

"Start dreaming early because dreams take time to come true."

"Great leaders have vision burning inside them. Nobody else can hold that flame for them. It is the fire in their belly, their passion."


A leader is someone who has discovered who he is, what he likes and what he wants. He knows where he wants to go.
--

Reading 'You The Leader' by Pst Phil Pringle now.
Discovering what i already am and so much more that i am not (yet).
I have so much space for improvement.

Think it's gonna be a long night, finishing my last sermon and reading the last two books.

Today's worship song really reached into my soul.
I feel really Blessed to be ministered to by my senior pastor and his wife during worship.
Reminds me of the the good old days back at jw, when we all just came before God with a pure heart.
We didnt have much, but all that we gave, sang and said were from our hearts.
It's like going back to the place of worship and dedication once again.
I'm so glad i spent the best years of my youth not doing anything else, but serving God.
God of my youth, i remember.

And Your love is for me, and Your love is forever.

No wonder they say that a prophet is always more welcomed by people outside than those from his own home.
Sighh,
PATIENCE!!!!!

I will remember you, will you remember me?

We're on different wavelengths. And they never ever seem to meet.

two nights ago, i dreamnt that i dropped my toothbrush into the toilet bowl. haha hilarious!

i went jogging with claudy ytd after school. we talked about stuff.. seriously so happy for you! that its Finally happening. i think its so Exciting!! and, i think you drive well for a beginner(: the stadium got a little more crowded in the later afternoon because of some trainings. i was walking to the toilet when this tall ang moh soccer player walked past and smiled at me! rather oldish but not bad looking! anywayss, it was so hot, i came home a little burnt. happy that i burnt calories(:

gave school a miss this morning because i was just so tired. had a very slight fever around 12 plus last night but thankfully it was all gone when i woke up this morning. slept in for awhile before i chiong-ed my sermons. YEA, now ive officially completed 9 sermons and 3 bk reviews. left with 1 more sermon and 2 books. PTL!! (: okayy, i know im really slow, but at least im making some progress.
went out to give tuition and now im back again. havent touched any of the two books for tmr's test. gonna study right after this!

i ordered my MAC today((: its the oldest model but i think its good enough for me. and with the MAC comes an ipod touch. ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
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i am finally going to have my very own laptop and ipod touch (((((((((((((((((((((((:
happy-ness to the maximum.
i cant wait for them to send over on monday.
i cant wait for them to send over on monday.
i cant wait for them to send over on monday!
Oggay, now im more ready for school !
looking forward to orientation on the 24th.
prays and crosses fingers that i'll make lots of friends whom i can click with! (:

Series of weird dreams last night..
I woke up by abruptly sitting up from bed and clapped my hands, giving a round of appluase for something which i cant remember!
Felt so retarded doing that!!

Studied with the boys after svc and lunch today(:
came home to jog in the late evening.
Very dark streets but there were still a few joggers so it was okay. Nice breeze, very apt weather to just sweat it out and relax(:
my parents went out tgt, they were probably happily 'dating' tt they forgot tt my brother and i had to eat.
Hahaha funny la. So we had dinner at 9plus in the end.
My family's small and simple but im glad tt we're just the way we are.
We dont need money or extreme wealth,
at least we're happy the way we are now(:

I will not give up.
Because there are people worth hanging on for
(:

and of course, if my God is for me then who can be against me?

Feeling very hurt and discouraged bcause i feel like what ive sown has all been in vain.
):
)':

yet "im not gonna live by what i feel, deep now i know that You're here with me"
just going through a very difficult moment.
Love God and love people.
But its so hard to love people,
God, break my heart for what breaks yours.
Help me to be all things to all men.

God of my youth, i remember.

These are some of the Many shots that we took over at malang.
Love the memories and the people especially!
ive certainly gained so much more than i gave during this trip. happy to have been there.
im missing them so much already!

In our attempts to win the "BEST TEAM" award in sot, my team has decided to make use of the less than one month that we have left.

so our dress code was Pink/Red today.

i decided to be really RED but apparently so many of them wore light shades of pink instead! close to white please! and victor went, "oh Fiona, you look like an ANG POW!" that was how i got my nickname for the whole entire day.

seriously!! i think men are so funny. especially the 'uncles' in my team, when they start behaving like young children again.. hilarious! so happy to be laughing and joking with them even though they are such big shots in church and maketplace(:

tomorrow's dress code is my favourite colour: BLUE!

oh gosh, the amount of workload and assignments and readings is Crazeeyyy!!

i shall attempt my best tomorrow. need to sleep now so i can stay awake in class tmr. surprisingly liking the study of Theology now.

oh yes, one picture of part of W543 before i end(:

But your heart keeps telling you dont give up.

Fatigue

I must have been really tired the past few days.
When given the opportunity to crash, my body really crashed mann.
Woke up at 10am ytd morn, had a good eight hour sleep.
And i came hme determined to catch up with all the assignments.
But i fell asleep all the way from 5pm-9pm.
And this morning i overslept!!
ARGH ):
very irritated with myself.
The line to book taxis has been busy for the last half an hour or so, so i ended up taking the train ater waiting for so long.
Very irritated with myself ):

Ive been using my phone to blog recently. Cool stuff yo(:
feeling simple and happy today, it's my self-declared sabbath day!
Dressed down with just t sirt and jeans and not having to put on make-up,
spending time catching up with my mummy, aunty and brother, eating some international buffet.
Dad's away for a short trip to macau again w his friends.
Im happy bcause my dad's relaxing and so are we.
Body, soul, spirit.
Take care of your soul as well, dont neglect it.
Simple things in life(:

Song running through my head:

You are deserving, of our praises Lord.
My heart is yearning, to be in Your presence once more.
Deep inside my heart is yearning, i long to know You more.
And You're the only one that i adore.

How great You are, how great You are.
you are the mighty king, and You've come to reign in me.
How great You are, how great You are.
I give You all the praises of my heart.
--

i miss God so much.
Physical tiredness draining my concentration and focus.
Ive yet to have a really good 6 hour sleep straight since touching down from Indonesia.
But still, my heart is Excited!
So many things happening in such a short period of time..
I reallyreally dont want to graduate from bibleschool.
Loving my team Alot(: i think we have such a good spirit of acceptance'
so much so that pple from other teams wanna join us too.
So glad to be in tis beautiful team!(:

suffering from 'Malang' withdrawal symtoms.
Missing the people there so Much! And all the fb pictures are such a distraction when we stud for our tests!
Really wish that i can go back with my teamy for their Emerge in sept!

Friday rainy morning, oh what a good time to sleep in.
Loving the weather(:


In the darkest nights, the stars shine the brightest.

i have so much to say that i dont even know where to start from!
what an Awesome missiontrip!!
and i know that the memories will be etched deeply bcause its the very first one.
so glad to have gone with this awesome bunch of people as well as those from malang. i wanted to stay there so badly and not come back man!!
and and, i rode on the bike of a motorbike!((: awesome, ballsome.
shall blog abt missiontrip another time.
for now, i really need to catch up on some rest. tireddddd!

what a longitudinal day todayyyy.
time to sleep and re-charge for the busy week ahead!!

Last night, i dreamnt of S again. This at least marks my 10th time dreaming of them for this year.
Wahh, it wld really be great if it stops appearing in my head at night, i hardly even have anyting to do with S now.
sometimes i really cant comprehend my subconscious.
Perhaps it really reflects my unentertained thoughts?
Because last night i also dreamnt that i had a fat bank account after my mum transferred a 1,5k to me.
I really hope it happens!(:

James Blunt is a christian?!
Listening to the newly uploaded songs into my mp3 by my brother and there was the word 'holy spirit' metioned in one of his songs. Hmm i wonder.

Time passes so fast!
Im really trying to catch up w time and myself.

Love fellowshipping w the cell esp aaron and wilson. Miss those boys!
Met up w claudy to study and catchup after that. We ended up eating fries from Macs and Popeyes bcause she was craving for them so badly. Imagine the amount of calories consumed in half a day! ): lucky we shared a meal!
Wanna exercise so badly but i cant find the time to do so, it'll hav to be after i return from missiontrip.
Feeling like a round walking couch potato!! Hahaha.

Still torn inbetween taking soci and psy.
Soci or psy? Soci or psy? Soci or psy? Soci or psy?????????????
My heart is with psychology. Wanna be a medical social worker! Going to the hospitals, counselline young kids, visitng convicts in prisons, etc.
But just in case.. And taking soci will mea having a broader scope n more job prospects.
Soci or psy?
Somebody please tell me where i wld be 10 years from now?

The thing abt preparing a msg so late into the night is that you have no one to share your
excitement with bcause everyone else is fast asleep!
Its almost 4am, i shld really get some sleep too.

Looking forward to class tmr, miss them alrdy(:

Im seriously such a klutz!!
Today i went all the way down from sembawang to sengkang for nth.
Was heading for tuition but i hoped onto the wrong lrt and i cldnt alight as all bcause the opp train
wasnt working. It wasted so Much of my time that i wld be so late for tuition by the time i reach.
Which will make me late for my second tuition at sembawag after that if the first one drags. So i
postponed the one at sengkang and went all the way back to sembawang. Ohmytian, tat was srsly a
'palm smack forehead' head. Can you imagine the time i cld have spent on sleeping instead.
Pls dont ask me why i chose to teach tt student at sengkang, i dk either.

Last night i had a really awful dream. Bits and peices kept coming back to me in the midst of the day.
It was sth along the line of a pair of ballerina twins, one boy one girl and they just kept on dancing n dancing
in this antique hse. And pple were looking for them high and low yet tey cldnt actually see them. Apparently i
the only one who cld but despite pointing them out to so many pple, they just ignored me.
Goodnesss. Very creepy right i know.

Anyway on a lighter note, this is my p6 tuition kid which i teach near my hse.
Hahaha.

 I let myself be sincere.                                                                            Lanned with the boys ytd then came home to  study for today's test in sot. But i fell asleep  while studying and gave sot a miss today.  (not bad, considering tt its only my 2nd time missing sch)    Everything around me is moving at such a fast paced.  I seriously need to slow down and take a breather.  Sometimes i find myself coming hme and just sitting on  the couch for a couple of hours staring into space, thinking  abt nothing. Its my way of recharging a bit along the way.    Just received my acceptance letter from SIM UB which  commences the very next day after i graduate from sot.  I think i will do great if theres a few days of rest before  sch starts! Feeling excited abt starting uni but already knowing  tt i'll miss sot sch life.                                                                  So much stuff to do!! Need to sort out my uni admission stuff  and get ready for orientation.everytime i open some sim ub  brochure i get reminded of the crazy school fees. Am So going  to work and study hard to do well! Thinking abt giving up one of  my tuitions bcause uni is starting. But i dk which one :/  Got to get a laptop before school starts, prepare for missiontrip  on thursday, prepare for tmr's pm with W543(: , finish studying  for the tests which i missed today, do my biblereadings for this  mth which i havent even started, read up the 5 books and do  reviews by this month. Ohmygosh i am really going Crazeyy!!!    This is really the peak period of sot and also, My Life. So many things  happening at one short, i really need to improve my skills at multi-  tasking. I think its really by Supernatural strength that im still going well  and good. Of course i can never ever do it by my own strength. Like when  i lost my phone 3 days ago, God really took care of my physical needs.  My mum wld has never been so cool abt me losing my stuff and i got a  good hp in return. Mann, this is Really my God at work(: plus the fact tt my  dad approved of my missiontrip which is almost impossible. So many times  ive asked him abt m'sia trips with my friends and he rejected them all.  Plus plus, W543 my group of young king davids which has been growing  and doing well(: we started off with a base of abt 13 for svc every week  and 2 weeks ltr we are alrdy hitting 16 till now. Thank God for such awesome  members and helpers esp like Eunice. (if you're reading this) Thankyou so  much for all your efforts and being so shepherding. You are the best helper  anyone cld ever have, i wld never prefer ayone else(: Also, thank God for  such amazing pple who have been generously blessing me these days bcause  of my financial constraints. Pple like slee, my team mate and nic who offered  for my missiontrip, even zs leilaa. All the little treats and help reallyreally  touched me. Im gonna try my best to pay off Everything myself as much as i  can. I think, even thoughim not prospering now, im never in lack for long,  God has always been sustaining me through. I feel so Touchedd(:  thankyou everybody.                                                                Okay, with all these said.. Its time for me to brace up and continue  moving forward Boldly. It really feels good to be striking off things  on your goalcard list. Sot, missiontrip, my cell. Though i didnt get into  nus, believing tt i'll start and end off well in sim UB! And the next one  to be striked off on my goalcard list will be water baptism Amen!   Okie dokes, off for two tuitions now. Pm with cell tmr then overight pm  at jw.                                         Brace up fiona, brace up!!

i lost my hp today )):
was raining very heavily so i cabbed a short distanced to my tuition kid's place. cab driver went the wrong way and he had to U-turn all the way back. and as i was rushing out, i dropped and left my hp in the cab. by the time i realised my hp was missing and rushed back, the cab was alrdy long gone.
AHHH, I CANT BELIEVE MYSELF )':
this is like the 4th or 5th time that i lost my hp and wallets alrdy.
i am such a Klutz!!!!! ):
-smacks head with my palm

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