The thing abt preparing a msg so late into the night is that you have no one to share your
excitement with bcause everyone else is fast asleep!
Its almost 4am, i shld really get some sleep too.

Looking forward to class tmr, miss them alrdy(:

Im seriously such a klutz!!
Today i went all the way down from sembawang to sengkang for nth.
Was heading for tuition but i hoped onto the wrong lrt and i cldnt alight as all bcause the opp train
wasnt working. It wasted so Much of my time that i wld be so late for tuition by the time i reach.
Which will make me late for my second tuition at sembawag after that if the first one drags. So i
postponed the one at sengkang and went all the way back to sembawang. Ohmytian, tat was srsly a
'palm smack forehead' head. Can you imagine the time i cld have spent on sleeping instead.
Pls dont ask me why i chose to teach tt student at sengkang, i dk either.

Last night i had a really awful dream. Bits and peices kept coming back to me in the midst of the day.
It was sth along the line of a pair of ballerina twins, one boy one girl and they just kept on dancing n dancing
in this antique hse. And pple were looking for them high and low yet tey cldnt actually see them. Apparently i
the only one who cld but despite pointing them out to so many pple, they just ignored me.
Goodnesss. Very creepy right i know.

Anyway on a lighter note, this is my p6 tuition kid which i teach near my hse.
Hahaha.

 I let myself be sincere.                                                                            Lanned with the boys ytd then came home to  study for today's test in sot. But i fell asleep  while studying and gave sot a miss today.  (not bad, considering tt its only my 2nd time missing sch)    Everything around me is moving at such a fast paced.  I seriously need to slow down and take a breather.  Sometimes i find myself coming hme and just sitting on  the couch for a couple of hours staring into space, thinking  abt nothing. Its my way of recharging a bit along the way.    Just received my acceptance letter from SIM UB which  commences the very next day after i graduate from sot.  I think i will do great if theres a few days of rest before  sch starts! Feeling excited abt starting uni but already knowing  tt i'll miss sot sch life.                                                                  So much stuff to do!! Need to sort out my uni admission stuff  and get ready for orientation.everytime i open some sim ub  brochure i get reminded of the crazy school fees. Am So going  to work and study hard to do well! Thinking abt giving up one of  my tuitions bcause uni is starting. But i dk which one :/  Got to get a laptop before school starts, prepare for missiontrip  on thursday, prepare for tmr's pm with W543(: , finish studying  for the tests which i missed today, do my biblereadings for this  mth which i havent even started, read up the 5 books and do  reviews by this month. Ohmygosh i am really going Crazeyy!!!    This is really the peak period of sot and also, My Life. So many things  happening at one short, i really need to improve my skills at multi-  tasking. I think its really by Supernatural strength that im still going well  and good. Of course i can never ever do it by my own strength. Like when  i lost my phone 3 days ago, God really took care of my physical needs.  My mum wld has never been so cool abt me losing my stuff and i got a  good hp in return. Mann, this is Really my God at work(: plus the fact tt my  dad approved of my missiontrip which is almost impossible. So many times  ive asked him abt m'sia trips with my friends and he rejected them all.  Plus plus, W543 my group of young king davids which has been growing  and doing well(: we started off with a base of abt 13 for svc every week  and 2 weeks ltr we are alrdy hitting 16 till now. Thank God for such awesome  members and helpers esp like Eunice. (if you're reading this) Thankyou so  much for all your efforts and being so shepherding. You are the best helper  anyone cld ever have, i wld never prefer ayone else(: Also, thank God for  such amazing pple who have been generously blessing me these days bcause  of my financial constraints. Pple like slee, my team mate and nic who offered  for my missiontrip, even zs leilaa. All the little treats and help reallyreally  touched me. Im gonna try my best to pay off Everything myself as much as i  can. I think, even thoughim not prospering now, im never in lack for long,  God has always been sustaining me through. I feel so Touchedd(:  thankyou everybody.                                                                Okay, with all these said.. Its time for me to brace up and continue  moving forward Boldly. It really feels good to be striking off things  on your goalcard list. Sot, missiontrip, my cell. Though i didnt get into  nus, believing tt i'll start and end off well in sim UB! And the next one  to be striked off on my goalcard list will be water baptism Amen!   Okie dokes, off for two tuitions now. Pm with cell tmr then overight pm  at jw.                                         Brace up fiona, brace up!!

i lost my hp today )):
was raining very heavily so i cabbed a short distanced to my tuition kid's place. cab driver went the wrong way and he had to U-turn all the way back. and as i was rushing out, i dropped and left my hp in the cab. by the time i realised my hp was missing and rushed back, the cab was alrdy long gone.
AHHH, I CANT BELIEVE MYSELF )':
this is like the 4th or 5th time that i lost my hp and wallets alrdy.
i am such a Klutz!!!!! ):
-smacks head with my palm

):

at times like this, i feel like
im not good enough.
this is too difficult, maybe im just not good at it.

but no, i still wont give up trying.

cant believe that i just spent almost 4 hrs just sitting in starbucks listening. was supposed to study with my sot team mates but we ended up drifting away. life can be really complicated. even when we're all in church, bitterness, conflicts, misunderstandings.. its so impt to always have the right motivations in life. im so glad that my group of young king davids are not like that. life should be that easy, serve God with the right intentions. no pretence, jealousy or backstabbings. always having a pure heart.

on a happier note, sot with Pst Mike Connell this week was just Awesome. i'll never forget how he came over to give me a hug and demonstrated the Father's love so strongly to me. (:

TIREDD. ):
just finished all my assignments that are due tmr. i hope i'll do well.
3 hours of sleep tonight, feeling horrible with my flu and cough. part of me wants to take an MC real badly but tmr is Mike Connell, dont want to miss it.
having two tuitions tmr aft school )):
i need energy!!

trying to finish up my first book review out of the 4/5 reviews (im not even sure how many it is) that are due on monday 2pm. but i keep dozing off at my keyboard. i think i must be looking so retarded now!!! ahh, must be the flu panadol's side effects of drowsiness and also accumulated late nights

):

it feels Terrible to have flu and cough. feels like im crying and i Cant taste my food. mann, how am i going to serve in choir for next week like this?

):

i need to recover Fast!!

slept over at Marina sands resort with the pl girls last night(: was really looking forward to it. but everyone was tired so we ended up just watching tv and sleeping. with a few of us squeezing on the bed.. and some of them slept on the blanket which explains why i was left exposed under the strong air-con and why im sneezing now!!

cell was good today. im so Happy and Thankful for nic's presence. would have felt really different without her. im so glad to have a great leader and friend(:

Happy that mr leo nardo is back in town too!!!

still very awed by the fact that he just received christ abt a month back! so very unexpected of him. and he just got water baptised!(: i know, mine will be soon tooooo. i cant wait.

W543, my young King Davids! (:

just boarded the train at bishan and heading to sembawang for tuition. just finished one tuition class w my p3 kid today and had bs with chinyee. feeling productive(: but the headache's back, and feeling very tired. ahh, the limitations of the physical body. sometimes i just really want to lie in bed and not move an inch. but i know the hardwork will pay off. i think, this period of transition is crucial and faithfulness will produce fruitfulness Amen.

headache be gone in Jesus' name!,

im so tired! in fact im almost dozing off while typing this already. but i decided to really sit down and blog well, update abt what has been happening! ive been so lazy to do so ever since i got my data plan.

N441B had our first cg today after multiplication!(: felt that it was good! haha and happy that we're all wearing my handmade friendship band. heh heh heh, im gonna make one for myself tonight too so we can all wear it tgt as a cell(:

been travelling super duper a lot recently. today i took a one and a half hrs bus ride just to get from sengkang to clementi. goshh, i really hope this wont be the case every week.

preaching tests have come and gone. had an awesome chat with the ladies in my team and great food in a great hse! only two months left. time really does pass very fast, i must treasure what i have now. even if the going gets tougher and tougher, as all the tests and assignments pill up!

on a random note, i really Do need to brush up on my guitar skills. played for lei during sarah's cg ytd and i made a few blunders here and there. results of not practising at all for months. so many things that i wanna do. wanna improve my guitar-ing, lose weight!, prepare for uni which starts in Aug. this year is really a year of transition. and like i said at the start of the year, it Will be my best year yet(:

ohgoshhh, i just dozed off while blogging! hahaha, time to sleeeep.

goodnight,

thinking of N441B, my young King Davids!(:

i felt so tired just now while trying to draft out my final sermon for the week. and now that its finally done the tiredness just seemed to have gone away! but im still gonna lie down on my bed to sleep. been a pretty hectic week. my eyebags are so big that they can carry watermelons please! after sunday, all i want to do is lie down on my beauty bed and rest for a longggggg period of time before i resurrect and finish assignments with the one week i have left before its due. BEE-SY!! ): i really need to expand my capacity!! but its a good thing, i know im stretching and growing (: realised that i havent exactly been complaining. though i may have felt super duper tired and thoughts of escaping by feigning sick along the way im really glad that i didnt. ive been seeing pple around me taking MCs and hearing lots of whinnings and complains along the way. of course i do too, but i realised its much lesser than before now (: stretching your capactiy is good huh, its growing!

anyways, excited for cg this week! (:
hope i finish making _________ by sat!!

it's the start of something new(:

dear God, please help me to be the Best i can be.

i surrender to your love

i got distracted while doing the ppt slides and ended up fb-ing. now i feel so much like a stalker bcause i hopped from one page to another looking through so many pictures!
anywayzx, its been such a Busy and Hectic week!!!!!!
thank goodness this week's tests are over. and i still have to climb the mountains of 5 sermons, bible readings, 3 more books and summaries.
feeling really very excited about multiplying. I Love my future cg-to-be (: each and everyone of them in their own ways.

ohgoshh its 12:54AM!? ahh, i still need to go through my tuition kid's exam paper before sleeping. what am i doing lehh, i need to stop facebooking!

"For you have made him a little lower than the angels, and You have crowned him with glory and honor." -Psalms 8:5

ThankYou God, for everything.
im on my way to sot now but i just feel like sitting dwn and crying bcause im so overwhelmed.
my cup is filled and it runneths over.
ThankYou God(:

SOT today and had two biblestudies. spent my day meeting new friend and irregulars, chatting and fellowshipping with them. came home and spent time w family over dinner and i just finished appealing for both nus and ntu.

its 1:40AM, feeling dead tiredddd. ive two tuitions tmr ohgosh save me )))): i would very much prefer a free day to catch up on sleep and do my readings tmr.
winning souls is really hard labour but it brings me joy to see than we're all slowly becoming closer and watching more souls get added. i would say, it is all worth it (:

alrighty im gonna sleep, God please maximise my sleeping time. no nightmares tonight please, PEACE of God (:

shopped with mum today and bought a few tops(: woww, so happy that Great Singapore Sales is here!!
i went to SIM to apply today. made me miss school life a whole lot. miss my secondary and jc friends too. i seriously cant wait to start school!!!!! love my daddy and mummy for asking me to apply into SIM UB. its such a big sum of money that im alrdy feeling the stress even before i start studying. but i promise that i'll put in the Best that i can and probably even get the scholarship(: score well and get in nus for my masters. who says i can never study in there? if not now then the future(: anywaysss. i still have a few more days to submit my appeals to the local uni. feeling uncertain abt what to write. i'll use the next few days to ponder over it (:

AC has come and gone, very glad that i caught the fire in the midst of the crowd and so many events. JUNE is gonna be one very extremely busy yet powerful month. can you feel it? i can feel it cominggg!!! Xiong man. but in the midst of it all, God let me be faithful to pray, fast and seek you and not let this month pass me by. yes, i know This will be the month of breakthroughs!

talk about being Bold and daring to dream again. tell me about it..
oh God, set me on fire once again.

dear God,
is it too late for a miracle?

"A merry heart does good, like medicine, But a broken spirit dries the bones."
-Proverbs 17:22

At times like this, i need to constantly remind and tell myself that the Joy the Lord is and shall be my strength. all else doesnt matter. doesnt matter anymore.

ive been reading up on the various courses in ntu, sim.. and the more i read the more i want to study psy. whether is it visiting prisons or working in hospitals, just somewhere where i can interact and impact society. it will be Awesome if i can just land safely into one local uni. only believee.

very nervous/excited/happy about multiplication. not that i dont have the reassurances. i just need to embrace myself and march forward bravely. i may not be the best or the most talented in many areas but if theres one thing that i can be, like me be the one to say that i'll try my best and sacrifice what i have. i truly believe that God sees and rewards faithfulness. and like what pastor bobby said, i wanna be a Bu Dao Weng. who jumps back up whenever something hits it. and carrying that same big smile on its face comewhatmay.

Okayy, exciting AC is in two days! got to brace myself up and receive all that i can till my cup runneths over!
GO FIONA!
i will open up and Recieve!!

feeling so much more organized after printing the checklist of the mountain of books which ive to conquer for sot. (this is seriously crazy!!) preaching test is in about a month's time which wld most prob coincide with the time we multiply. this is really one busy month, sometimes i find it so hard to keep up and catch up on sleeepp! i find it hard to flow with hs when im tired n weary. plus, i dont want to have another auntie offering me her seat!
but above it all, God is good((:
been checking up on private unis recently.
Faith is expecting the best and preparing for the worst. im still believing for nus AMEN!
feeling much more organized after doing my research and staying home just to show my presence to my parents. even if it means having to sacrifice some fellowship time with boss and the cell ): but i think its good to spend time at home as well.

almost 1am. need to sleep!!