oh God, more of you and less of me.

SOT is good (: i really need to slap myself wide awake, still drifting inbetween consious and unconsciousness. even though i see other people dozing off at times too.. this shouldnt be the case!! im working and paying for it, really got to make it worth it! anywaysss, i REALLY NEED a RETAIL THERAPY ): i wanna shop carefreelyyyyy!

sometimes in my heart i feel a thousand and one emotions that i know i must constantly crucify.
why like that? why they dont respect me? when is the breakthrough coming? i cant do this alone?!!
but most of the times i just ignore these thoughts. because i know i need to stay focus. if Daddy can do it, i know i can love these people too. just keep giving and giving and sowing into their lives. sometimes i just feel so tired, i take a break to stop and rest. but i know i musnt stop for long. someday.. they will love me back.
i cant wait for that day.
(: